December 13 is a crucial day for me.
Forty-three years ago today, there were two events that had an important impact on my life: one was to get engaged, take an engagement portrait, eat an engagement banquet, that is, have a daughter-in-law. From a carefree teenager to a responsible adult;The second piece was published in "Cangzhou**" and "Buying Watermelon". Although it has published ** and comments from the regional-level "Cangzhou Literature and Art" before this, it is an internal publication and is not a public publication;As far as the newspapers and periodicals that are publicly issued are concerned, the ** published in "Cangzhou**" should be **.
Marriage has a fruitful career, and for a crop boy with a head full of sorghum flowers, it is a symbolic landmark event. Forty-three years later, when these two events are re-examined, there is a different interpretation than it was at the time.
Let's start with marriage. It was a marriage in the sense of tradition. It's not, as Mr. Lu Xun said, like two livestock, who were ordered by their masters: "You live together", so they live together;However, there is absolutely no flower before the moon, and there is no vow. The parents were satisfied, because the wife was a good worker, and in the mother's words, she worked like a calf;For me, walking to my hometown village, where I was born and grew up, a dazzling world has just unfolded in front of me, **a lot, so I am still unwilling in my heart. I am the only man in my generation, and my parents are afraid that they will fly out like a kite with a broken string and never come back, so they have to hold on to the string in their hands. For me, a child who grew up in an old-fashioned feudal family, obedience was more important than autonomy. However, although there is no love, there is family affection. When you are young, you value love, and when you are older, family affection is more important than love. A pair of excellent sons and daughters is the crystallization of family affection.
There is still a peak and a twist in marriage, but in terms of career, it is the opposite, all the way down. Although he is a member of the Provincial Association, he drives high and walks low, his works are like rats under rats, a nest is not as good as a nest, and the published works are not too few, but in the end he did not come up with something that he could get his hands on. Now, although the coffin has not been closed, it has been decided, and this life is like this. When I was young, I didn't know how thick the sky was, killing seven and slaughtering eight, tossing for a long time, and in the end, I didn't know what to do;Now, even that little bit of energy is gone. But it's okay, my heart is like water, calmly waiting for God to come and collect it.
Finally, a little off-topic. My daughter's birthday is also on December 13, but it's the lunar calendar. There are three threes in a month: my junior high school is the third year, my daughter is thirteen, my son is twenty-three, and my grandfather is all three. Fate?Count?
2023,12,13.in Beijing.