In the past two days, I have been listening to Teacher Xiuxin's class, and I always recall the days when Dabao was in the first grade, because I seem to have found my heart.
When Dabao was in first grade, I was quite timid and scared, but my heart was very calm. I often take Erbao to take the shuttle bus to take Dabao to school, and when I come back, I take Erbao from my child's school to the main road, where there is a long way.
The scenery is particularly good, and there is a family on the road that has built a big yard, and there are a lot of rose trees planted in the yard, which bloom very gorgeous roses.
I walked slowly with Erbao, gently touching every rose, feeling every little grass, every flower.
Sometimes there will be a flock of lambs in the field, and Erbao will be very excited to talk to the lambs, and observe the lambs very carefully, and we will really look at them for a long, long time.
I still remember one time I met a very cute stray dog on the road, he kept running after us, and Erbao brought him some bread to eat. As we walked, we discussed whether or not to take this dog home and keep it.
It can be seen that Erbao really likes small animals too much. I said that it depends on fate, because we will take the shuttle bus later, if it can follow us to the bus, or if it can follow the bus to our home, then we have fate, if not, it is no fate.
Actually, I also like to have that dog, but I know that it is not easy to have children at home. I also know that it can't keep up with us.
Later, the puppy didn't come back, and Erbao kept guarding the door, looking forward to it, very sad.
At that time, I was really feeling every little thing, a small tenderness, and we felt these little beauty, touching the softest place in our hearts.
I understand that I was really influenced by Shi Tiesheng and always wanted to be a writer, so every time I made observations, I would write down my feelings in words, and write the kind of words that I thought were particularly beautiful.
It has been more than three years since I gave birth to the Three Treasures and Four Treasures, and the pressure of these years has turned me into a utilitarian person. Every day I think about how I can make money, how I can learn more, I always feel that my knowledge is too lacking, and I am running too slowly. I'm always bumping around, thinking about which platform to find that can make me money?
Whenever I feel that the investment is not big and it is easy to make money, I am excited, and I completely press myself up, which also puts a lot of pressure on others. Apprenticeship all the way, disappointed all the way. Only after coming over did I understand that making money is only a result, and we must do a good job in the process to get the result, so the process is what I have to sink down and accumulate.
But it was also in the process of running along the way, I met more and more people, and in the process of walking, I practiced a lot of knowledge and theories, and also verified a lot of what I learned step by step.
Now listening to Teacher Xiuxin's class, I cry every day while listening, which really brings out all the goodness in my heart, the stillness in my heart. Let me believe that as long as you are dedicated to goodness and work hard without giving up on yourself, you will get better and better, instead of being poor as people around you say, what qualifications do you have to say happiness.
I really see a living and realistic example that as long as you are good, you can support yourself.
Growing up, I always felt that everything I met was good, and the people around me woke me up again and again and said that there was something bad about this person and something bad about that person.
I really don't understand human nature, I'm really stupid. Even to the point where everyone can bully me, I always feel bad about myself.
But now that I have come over, just like what Mr. Gao said: looking at the mountains is the mountains and the water is the water;To see that the mountains are not mountains, and that the water is not water;To see the mountains are still mountains, and the water is still water. I feel like I've reached the third level.
I can now finally choose how I want to live, how to live my own life, and not be afraid of anyone's judgment. I was finally able to calm down because I had seen clearly what was most important and I had seen that I was really valuable.
As Romain Rolland said: A true warrior is one who still loves life after recognizing the truth of life. I really think that the spiritual cultivation teacher is right, I have to cultivate myself from every action and every word of my own. Master Yinguang said, everyone is a Buddha, but I am the only one who is an ordinary man.
I feel so good about myself now, and this good thing is that after really recognizing myself, I really feel that I am very good.