In the past few days, the network has been cut off at home first, and the water has been cut off for two days, so my little ** has not been changed, ** has not been changed.
Fortunately, the hygiene at home is clean, so it is still relatively sober. I've also been aware of whether my heart can stay as it is. Teachers often say, "What is the place of cultivation?"Not to see how you look in good times, but how you look in bad times.
I could clearly perceive that I was anxious and that I wasn't cultivating enough. Because I stayed up all night in the past few days, smoking bacon, I slept for 3 hours during the day, and I woke up very uneasy, thinking that my energy and physical strength were insufficient, and thinking that so many children I still have to let them see a mother full of energy, so that they can feel at ease.
So I lay on the bed and read the book, reading the biography. Slowly, I can feel what Mr. Gao said, when we went to read the biography, we invited this very wise person home. We're talking to him and we're friends.
I also obviously feel that after reading a few biographies, the common characteristics they have are self-discipline and self-demanding. They will give me a lot of energy.
I think that everyone's life is not easy, they all have their own loneliness, and there are times when they don't have enough energy. When will I really be able to let go of myself and let myself really live in every moment.
Because when I lie down, I blame myself, how can I lie down?How could I waste my time, my life so much?Will others laugh at me for being a person who can't persevere?What a failure I am!
Why should I care about other people's judgments?I just live for myself, and I will have times when my energy is low, and I will have times when I lie flat, and when I can't do a lot of things, why don't I allow myself?
A person cannot give love if he does not love himself. Only if you have enough self-love, will love overflow, and as Mr. Chang said, there is no diamond in my heart, and the light from the outside!Finally reached a reconciliation of his own.
Later, when the Three and Four Treasures woke up, I became that person's happy, energetic mother again. Because I know that to my children I am their whole world.