December 12th
Yesterday I just felt relieved, thinking that you are still a child after all, even if there are mistakes, it is worth forgiving, after all, we have all had years of youth and indulgence, and we also have a lack of control that we can't help ourselves.
But after work today, I received a ** from Huang Xiaozhu, when she was inspecting the class, you took a *** to charge in front of the blackboard in the second class, and you happened to be caught.
Before sending you back to school, I told you not to fall in the same place several times, to learn a lesson, and to learn to be free from self-discipline.
This time, I was caught by the school leaders, and it was only a day since your last confession.
The day before, how honest you behaved, how serious your promises were, how good your attitude was, and before 30 hours had passed, I was slapped in the face, not only in your face, but also in my heart.
Huang Xiaozhu took a picture to show me, **inside**several online articles**: full-time master, Divine Seal Throne, seven-pointed star, global college entrance examination, etc., the key is not the infatuation of online articles, but when Huang Xiaozhu was caught, you said to her, **It is used**birthday song, which is used at the birthday party of classmates, so it was brought to school.
This kind of lie will be broken as soon as it is poked, and the teacher will know that there is no ** in it at all, it is all the Internet**.
Lying is not only natural, but also stage fright, deception and concealment in panic, and the crime is added to the first degree.
What else can I say?In the eyes of others, your apology, your remorse, and your guarantee have become children's jokes, even if you can put yourself in the child's shoes and be tolerant, even if you can give more opportunities to look forward to growing up, even if we all put the school rules and classes above others, but who can guarantee that there will be good changes in the future.
At least for now, your performance is not only excessive, but also unwarranted for punishment.
I resignedly agreed, and promised to take you home for reflection and talk about it in a few days.
If there is no fundamental reflection and change at the source, most of the school is afraid of trouble, and I am also afraid of causing trouble to others, so I will have to stay at home for a while.
Aunt Yang Hong couldn't go to pick you up because she had a meeting at night, so I called my grandfather and asked him to run hard.
Unexpectedly, the grandfather resolutely objected, thinking that the teacher's words should not be trusted, and the child should not be too strict. **Maybe it's the product left over from the last time, the child is playful, naturally he didn't take the initiative to hand it over, he wants to keep it, and today is Wednesday, and he will come back from the holiday on Friday, if he leaves school today, what will the students think?How will your self-esteem be hurt?What should I do when I go back to school?
After a quarrel, my grandfather was very annoyed with my straightforward and unbelievable character, he has always been gentle, and it is rare to have such a big temper, so I had to back down and let him talk to the teacher himself, I didn't come out.
I am gloomy and dare not argue, in my opinion, I should indeed give you a more direct lesson, if you are wrong, you will be punished, even if the punishment is great, it will always be a kind of responsibility, just like the gray two days ago, even if you go out and be displaced, you must understand right and wrong, principles and rules.
Grandpa arrived at school at seven o'clock in the evening, and it was dark and drizzling, just when the winter began to cool down. I was thousands of miles away thinking about the situation when he entered the school, the situation of communicating with Teacher Zeng, calling you to the office, accusing you of mistakes in person, you shed tears and regretted the situation, and I really couldn't understand the psychology of the current children, is it because the favorable conditions indulge in self-amplification?Could it be that unrelenting suffering creates the wanton emotions?Could it be that the good intentions of the next generation are destined to become a projection of education, and they will become yellow flowers on other shores, and finally burn into a piece of scorched gravel and break the ground, with no intention at all?
Grandpa is seventy-four years old this year, and the teacher sees that he has worked so hard to keep his children in school. That's the case, after coming out, my grandfather called me **, and there was a hint of joy of success between the words, he told me seriously, you can't treat the child like this, you should be given more opportunities, I want to think that year, when he himself was ignorant, didn't he grow up like this?As long as you are brought up to eighteen years old, you will always be sensible.
God is pitiful, what kind of society was he back then?What kind of society is it now?The environment in which they grew up was so difficult, the information of the year was so closed, the education of the year was so despicable, and it was a godsend luck for children to grow up, and now, survival is no longer a problem, all kinds of information are everywhere, and the essence of education has become competition
I was silent and didn't dare to argue because he was my dad.
**I've read two online articles.,The full-time master seems to remember that it's written by Butterfly Blue.,It's okay.,Let me keep chasing after it.,The Divine Seal Throne seems to have been written by the Tang family.,The writing is popular.,The plot has an emotional explosion.,Can be occasionally released in the conflict.,Occasional comfort.,As the initial cool article,I know that I can attract people who are emotionally blank and time bored.,As long as there's a moment of substitution.,It's like seeing a momentary self-existence.,But I only read the beginning.,I already know the ending.,And then I didn't continue to read. 。
However, such ** often can't give people deeper enlightenment, and often lacks emotional resonance, and it can't be pulled into reality to become value. In the later period, more writers have extracted the steps of how to pull emotions, and they can even be programmed, how to foreshadow, how to seduc, how to explode, how to climax, all of which have become a conventional routine under the business model, which makes me deeply disgusted, and I don't read much online articles later.
Because most online texts do not respect the reader as a teachable or empathetic, but rather as a fed animal and the mechanical process of commerce, which is always a sad thing, both for the author and the reader.
Compared with this **, I would rather let you see Jin Yong and Gu Long more, and look at Balzac Alexandre Dumas, which is better than this kind of fragment emptiness of chasing books and dramas.
When I'm free in the future, I'll also write a web article**,It must be more profound than what you've read**,So that you don't fall into the vulgar plot arranged by others and can't extricate yourself.,I'll use your personality as a blueprint.,Pave the space for imagination.,Let you understand how to find yourself.,What is self.。
When you understand and distinguish between these things, you can know how to live and live, how to understand yourself and others, and only then can you know where your heart is going and where you want to be in another country.
In the concept of survival, you can become an actor in other people's scripts, but in the concept of life, you are the director of your own life, all scripts are props, all phenomena, what can be used, what should be used, that is where the intention lies.
Because of the post-post, you might as well talk about the follow-up things together.
When you came home on Friday, I couldn't go back because of work, so I thought about asking my grandfather to be the overseer. I passed ** with my grandfather, and explained the things to be arranged that night, the programming cat should do two lessons, the mock exam should be paper two, and the solemn reading club should also have two lessons, it is worth emphasizing that the use of mobile phones and computers cannot be separated from the sight of adults.
You behave very well on Friday night, say hello to your grandmother when you say goodbye, eat out for breakfast on Saturday, do your homework in the living room after going upstairs, and take a bath and go to bed at ten o'clock.
Grandpa was very happy when he communicated with me, and felt that the child was always an emotional cub, and that he could only grow by suffering more losses and lessons learned, and that he always had to be more patient and give him more opportunities.
Next until Saturday.
I did my homework assigned by school in the morning, and after lunch at lunch, my grandfather hid it from me and gave you the mobile phone, so that you could continue the unfinished programming cat by yourself. It's okay now.,All afternoon,You only did a few lines of programming cat's **,I guess I didn't continue to do it.,When I started to stare at your mock exam papers,I found that the programming cat's 46 and 47 lessons were not submitted.,Your explanation is that you have encountered a question.,Asked the teacher and didn't reply.,So it was put on hold.。
Well, Saturday night from 6 o'clock to 8 o'clock, it is the time of the reading club, and 8 to 9 o'clock is the study of the drum kit, I was skeptical, so I asked my grandfather to give you a computer from 9:30 o'clock onwards and let you complete the mock exam papers.
At 10 o'clock on Sunday morning, I asked my grandfather, and when I learned that you hadn't gotten up yet, I immediately woke up to the fact that you must have gone to bed late on Saturday night, otherwise you wouldn't have slept so late. Sure enough, Grandpa was sleepy at 11 o'clock, and seeing that you hadn't finished it, he gave you the computer and asked you to do it yourself, and you couldn't discipline yourself while guarding the computer, and told me that you slept a little more, but I guess you didn't sleep at least 3 o'clock in the morning, or even four or five o'clock.
But what's the point of pursuing it?I can only explain to my grandfather and let him supervise it, and before returning to school at 4 o'clock in the afternoon, I can complete the homework of the programming cat.
Grandpa gives you full trust, even if you played with the computer too much the day before, after lunch on Sunday, he still gave you the mobile phone, and asked you to go upstairs to do a programming class at one o'clock, and when he took a nap at 4 o'clock and wanted to pick you up to school, you actually locked the door of the room, did not let him in, and told him to do programming class in the room.
Your reason is that the programming class is not finished yet, and you don't know when you will be able to do it, it may be evening, it may be tomorrow, if it is tomorrow, you will stay at home for one more night tonight.
But why?Adults know that if you give you enough time to finish your homework, you will want to delay it, thinking that it can always be done, and the big deal is that you will be at home for many nights, and maybe there will be a fluke of playfulness in it, which is also very non-partial, and it has become greedy.
Grandpa was impatient outside the door, but he couldn't tell you to open the door, and finally succeeded in angering him, and he lost his temper outside the door. But he has nothing to do with you, in desperation, he called ** to me, explained the situation to me as it was, he guessed that you locked the door, just hiding inside to play games.
You kid probably don't know that the meaning of fairness is that because people's hearts are separated from their bellies, they have malicious speculation about others, and they have also created the strictest guard for themselves. I also know that grandpa's guess is correct, but the degree of proportion may not be consistent, you start to be greedy for games, and then see that there is no time, so you rush to do your homework, and because you are young and timid, you subconsciously lock the door, hoping to lock yourself in.
I teased my grandfather and said, didn't you say that he became sensible?Do you want to give more space and less discipline?
Grandpa said sadly, yes, I didn't expect it, how could it be like this. His heart is probably sighing to sadness, the day before he was full of expectations for you, he was gratified, and today he has become disappointed and lost, the higher the expectation, the greater the gap.
Fortunately, you're still afraid of me.,Don't dare not pick up my **,You admit that you played for a while.,And also made a programming cat.,But 47 class because you want to innovate.,Use the program to make a different cloud.,So you encountered an obstacle.,As a result, you were careless.,Didn't save **,You panicked.、Fear.、Annoyed.,But there's no way.,You can only think about starting from scratch.。
I understand, as long as you abide by your duty, keep it true, and tell the truth, no consequences are a big deal, so I didn't criticize you too much, just let you arrange your time, I won't memorize ancient poems for the time being, just finish the 47 lessons before returning to school.
I have a deeper understanding that you are indeed a child now, and your body has not yet begun to develop, I really can't give you too much expectation, nor can I give you more rules under discipline and training, between advance and retreat, after expectation, maybe you should be given a buffer plane like a ladder, this plane may be a month, maybe two months, but you should not think that resolving the contradiction is the only way under the critical conflict.
I can't be too anxious after all, and there is no need to be too anxious.
At half past ten o'clock on Monday night on the 18th, Mr. Zeng sent me another **, and the life teacher reflected that you refused to go into the dormitory to sleep, sitting alone at the staircase, not knowing what to do.
I was startled again, but the teacher didn't reply until the next day, and I didn't tell me until the next day that I was sulking there alone because of a trivial incident with my dormitory classmates, and the next day after the emotions dissipated, I was still talking and laughing with that classmate between classes.
A false alarm. I'm worried all day long, I'm most afraid of receiving ** or news from Mr. Zeng, I'm afraid of what kind of basket you have, either the incident or the mentality, although the two are the same thing, but after the incident, I have to carefully analyze it like a detective.
Fortunately, these days have been very calm, this year is the coldest year ever, every morning I think you can continue to keep up and run exercises, this is probably not easy, at least the will and consciousness have not slipped down, and you can still stay in a certain position, which is a good thing.
When Aunt Yang Hong brought you food on Thursday night, she asked if you wanted to call me **, although I was looking forward to some contact, I figured out the recent mentality from the tone and expression, and then I thought about it, forget it, the long-distance existence may be more helpful to make you peaceful, and I don't need to brush my sense of existence at this time.
After coming back, Aunt Yang Hong told me that because she was late, when she entered the guard room, she saw you holding an English book and waiting for it, and she was in a good mood, and her standard for judging that you were in a good mood was: if you will call Aunt Yang Hong goodbye when you leave, it proves that you are in a good mood, otherwise it is the other way around.
Sure enough, it's still a child.