55-year-old Sister Liu is plump and beautiful, she lived together on the day of the blind date, and regretted it after getting up the next day
Today is a day that makes me re-examine my life, I am a single woman, and when I am middle-aged, everyone calls me Sister Liu. I am 55 years old this year, and time has carved the traces of time on my face, but I am still a plump and attractive woman. And today, I went through an encounter that I deeply regretted.
I walked into Zhou Ming's house, he made me a pot of fragrant Longjing tea, and we sat on the sofa and chatted. Before you know it, the sun has quietly sunset. Zhou Ming looked at his watch, said that it was late, and invited me to stay overnight. Although I was a little hesitant, I finally agreed.
In the evening, we shared a bed, and my heart swelled with excitement and apprehension. I began to question my decision, thinking that it might have been a bit hasty. The next morning, when I woke up from my sleep, I found Zhou Ming preparing breakfast in the kitchen. He had a warm smile on his face, as if he had been waiting for me to wake up.
I looked at him and suddenly felt a wave of regret welling up in my heart. Although Zhou Ming and I have known each other for a short time, I feel a little lost because of my decision last night. A trace of panic began to surge in my heart, and I didn't know how to face everything in front of me. Zhou Ming saw me wake up and asked with concern: "Sister Liu, good morning, did you sleep well last night?"There was a concern in his voice that made me even more unsettled.
I was in a state of hesitation, at a loss for what I was facing. Zhou Ming saw through my thoughts, put aside the affairs in his hand, walked slowly to my side, gently hugged my shoulders, and said, "Sister Liu, although we have known each other for a short time, I really like you and don't want you to leave." ”
His words sent a surge of warmth through my heart. However, I still have some panic and regret in my heart. I'm not sure I made last night's choice because of loneliness and a desire for affection. At this moment, I felt powerless and confused, and I didn't know what to do.
Zhou Ming sensed my hesitation and trouble, stroked my hair and said, "Sister Liu, no matter what decision you make, I will respect it." I just want you to be happy and not let yourself regret or get hurt on the spur of the moment. ”
His words touched and relieved me. I understood that I needed to calm down and think carefully about what I really wanted. At this moment, I need time and space to face all this and decide the direction of the future.
With Zhou Ming's encouragement, I decided to give myself some time to think carefully. Over the next few days, I was thinking deeply about my options. Zhou Ming has always cared about me and silently supported me when I needed help. His sincerity and kindness gradually warmed me.
However, while I was still immersed in this warmth, my son's ** broke the tranquility. Since our relationship has not been very good, I rarely keep in touch with him. In **, we had an argument and he strongly disagreed with my decision to live together. He thought I was irresponsible and didn't conform to traditional values.
At that moment, I felt a lot of turmoil in my heart. After all, as a mother, I care what my son thinks of me. He is my own flesh and blood, and I always look forward to being able to build a closer relationship with him. But his attitude made me feel heartache and loss.
I tried to explain, but he insisted that I was unforgivable. Our dispute lasted for some time and was eventually interrupted. My heart was filled with helplessness and remorse. I'm not sure if I'm wrong, but I believe my actions are genuine and well-intentioned.
In the days that followed, I was caught up in contradictions and inner struggles. Zhou Ming has always been by my side to support me and provide me with comfort and courage. However, my son's attitude was a heavy blow to me. I longed to reconcile with him, but I didn't know how to speak.
I am entangled in my heart, and I hope that my choice will not bring more conflicts and harm to my family. I need time and more thinking. I didn't want to miss out on every choice in life, but right now I feel lost and helpless. I needed to find a path that would leave me without regrets, and at the same time I wanted my family to understand and support my decision.
I decided to move out of Zhou Ming's place and return home to meditate on what I really wanted. When I got home, I stepped out onto the balcony and looked into the distance, oblivious to the drizzle still falling outside. There was chaos in my heart, and I knew that I needed to be honest with Zhou Ming.
The next day, Zhou Ming came to my house, and we sat on the sofa and drank hot tea. I unreservedly expressed my inner hesitation and distress to him. Zhou Ming quietly held my hand and said, "Sister Liu, I understand your feelings. Maybe we need more time to get to know each other better. ”
His understanding and tolerance made me feel warm. We decided to stay friends first and get to know each other better. My mood gradually eased and I felt like it was an important turning point in my life.
Over the next few months, my relationship with Zhou Ming deepened. We walked in the countryside together, cooked food together, and watched movies together. I was delighted by his intelligence, humor and gentleness. Slowly, I realized that I couldn't live without him.
However, at this time, my eldest daughter, Xiao Yun, objected to my relationship with Zhou Ming. She believes that we have known each other for too short a time and should not be rushed into the relationship. I felt that she interfered too much in my private life. A heated argument strained my relationship with her. Faced with my daughter's opposition and family conflicts, I felt torn and didn't know how to deal with it.
In the midst of family strife and my daughter's opposition, I was caught in a deep conflict. This relationship means a lot to me, but I don't want to hurt my daughter. I wasn't sure what to do to protect my family relationships while pursuing the happiness I really wanted.
After careful consideration, I decided to go back to my familiar home and use it as a way to think about the problems of life. Zhou Ming personally drove me home, and he held my hand all the time in the car, expressing that what happened these days had a special meaning for him. He sincerely hoped that we could continue to develop, and I was a little hesitant at first, but Zhou Ming's sincerity touched me and gave me a spiritual comfort.
When I got home, I began to organize my thoughts, and Zhou Ming's smile, words and deeds kept coming to mind. A hint of relief and warmth welled up in my heart. The mobile phone rang, and it was my daughter Xiaoyi calling**. When she heard that I was back, she was emotional about sharing all sorts of things going on at home.
It turned out that my mother was sick and hospitalized, and there were some emergencies at home that I needed to deal with. Xiaoyi hopes that I can go home as soon as possible, after all, she is dealing with housework alone during this time. When it was over, I felt conflicted inside. I knew I needed to go home and take care of my family, but at the same time, I couldn't let go of my emotional life.
In the midst of this struggle, I finally decided to go home and take care of my family. Zhou Ming understood my situation and said that he would wait for me and would not complain because I couldn't be by his side for a short time. I was touched by his understanding and support. Although Zhou Ming and I don't have a clear commitment, his tolerance and understanding make me feel that this relationship is still worth cherishing.
After saying goodbye to Zhou Ming, I returned home. Seeing my mother lying on the hospital bed, my old face made my heart heavy. Xiaoyi was anxious and uneasy, and when she saw me coming back, she threw herself into her arms and cried silently. I patted her on the back, soothed her emotions, and felt the deep affection between my family.
In order to cope with the trivial matters at home, my contact with Zhou Ming became more distant. Involuntarily immersed in family affairs, I feel like I am haunted by trivial things and can't help myself. Whenever I think of Zhou Ming, I feel guilty and uneasy in my heart. Feelings and responsibilities intertwined in my heart, and I was a little caught off guard.
hurriedly left Zhou Ming's residence and returned to his small residence, his heart was in turmoil. During this time, I was immersed in endless thoughts and struggles, looking back on the bits and pieces of the past, and finding myself seemingly searching for an emotional craving.
I had a bad relationship with my parents, they divorced when I was a child, and my mother and I were dependent on each other. My mother was very demanding of me, whether it was academics or relationships, she didn't give me any choice, as if I was forced by her to breathe. After graduating from university, I joined a company, but I never met the right person and lived a single life. Now, at the age of more than half a hundred, I face more choices and troubles.
I'm not sure if I genuinely like Zhou Ming or if I'm just looking for a feeling of being cared for and cared for. As I began to delve deeper into my heart, I realized that I had always had a special emotional attachment to my family.
Then, inadvertently, I received my mother's **. She told me that my brother was having trouble and hoped I could help. It turned out that the younger brother had bet a large sum of money on an investment and suffered a huge loss as a result. My mother begged me to help my brother through this difficult time, and he borrowed a large sum of money from me.
In the face of his mother's request, an indescribable contradiction and pain surged in his heart. My mother and I have always had a delicate entanglement, a deep and fragile relationship, both affectionate and full of hatred. My mother had high expectations of me, always blaming me for not being as good as my brother, but expecting me to lend a helping hand when he was in danger. I was stuck in the dilemma of not being able to refuse her request, and I had mixed feelings that I couldn't put into words.
Under this contradiction, I felt that I was sinking deeper and deeper into the quagmire. Emotional attachment to my family made it difficult for me to make decisions. I realized that I needed to find a firm direction in my life path, and that direction might take time to find and think about. I had to face up to the subtle emotions in my heart and figure out what I really wanted. All of this may cause more uncertainty and pain for me and those around me.