In the year after the divorce, my ex-wife Li Mei and I occasionally met a few times outside. Every time we met, we greeted politely, exchanged a few words and left in a hurry. On this day, I asked some old friends out for a party.
After the party, I walked home slowly. It was getting late, and there were few pedestrians on the streets. When I came to an intersection, I suddenly saw my ex-wife Li Mei also walking to the opposite side.
Li Mei saw me first, and she exclaimed in some surprise: "Hey, Zhang Bo, what a coincidence." ”
I was also taken aback by her presence, and after a second, I nodded: "Oh, Li Mei, what a coincidence." ”
I haven't seen her for more than a month, Li Mei seems to have lost some weight, but her look is still so good. She smiled and said to me, "It's so late, let's go together, I'll take you home." ”
I looked at her with some surprise, we rarely had in-depth communication after the divorce, and I was surprised by her initiative tonight. But since I met it, I couldn't refuse it directly, so I agreed.
We walked side by side, and there was a little silence for a while, both awkward. Then Li Mei opened her mouth to break the silence:
It's been a year since we got divorced, and a lot has happened in this year. Do you remember why we divorced?”
I was a little surprised by Li Mei's question. Our divorce is still a painful memory for me that cannot be easily touched. For the sake of ourselves and each other, we both chose to be silent in the end. I didn't expect her to bring it up tonight.
I smiled awkwardly: "It's been a year, of course I remember." Mainly because we didn't have the right personalities at that time, and we often quarreled over trivial things, and then you really couldn't stand it, so you filed for divorce. ”
Li Mei shook her head, a hint of loneliness flashed in her eyes: "I don't hate you, I only hate myself at that time." I now understand that a relationship needs to be maintained by both parties, and if I blindly want you to spoil me unconditionally, it will only make you more tired and eventually choose to leave. ”
I nodded, and I also blamed myself a little: "I'm sorry, Meimei, I was also responsible at that time." I was too focused on my work, often working overtime, and I didn't have time to spend with you, and I didn't give you the care and warmth you deserved. Over time, you have endured too much stress and pain at home alone. It's not your problem alone. ”
But I've changed now. Li Mei continued, "This year, I lived alone, learned to be independent, and became more mature. I no longer have the wayward little temper of the past, and I have learned to be tolerant and considerate of others. I understand that no matter what the problem is, communication is the only way to solve it. ”
I looked at Li Mei in surprise, and I was relieved by every change in her.
I've also grown a lot. I chimed in, "This year of divorce has made me realize the value of family. I don't just focus on my job and my family anymore like I used to. Now I care more about the feelings of others and cherish the people around me. ”
That's good. Li Mei smiled faintly, but a thin layer of mist began to float in her eyes.
We walked side by side for a while, speechless, when Li Mei's cell phone suddenly rang. She glanced at the caller ID and smiled apologetically at me: "Sorry, I have to answer a **."
Oh, it's okay, you can take it. I nodded knowingly.
After hanging up **, Li Mei looked at me apologetically: "I'm sorry, that's my boyfriend, he works overtime late, I have to go back to cook quickly." ”
I barely managed to squeeze out a smile: "Oh, boyfriend, then you can go back quickly, I can do it alone." ”
Well. Li Mei hesitated for a moment, but leaned over and hugged me gently, "Then take care, we will have a chance to talk again in the future." ”
Okay, you take care too. I took a deep breath and hugged her hard, hoping that this hug would convey all my blessings and thoughts to her.
Li Mei let go of her hand, waved at me, and then turned to leave. I stood there and watched her figure fade away until she turned a corner and disappeared into the night.
It turns out that loving someone doesn't have to be with her. As long as I know that she is doing well, my heart is satisfied.
This year of lonely life has made me grow a lot, and I am no longer a bachelor who only knew how to work back then. Now I will cherish everyone around me even more.
Maybe Li Mei is just a passerby in my life, but meeting her and spending those years hand in hand with her has been the most precious gift in my life.
I looked up at the crescent moon in the sky, and at the long street brightly lit at my feet, and I knew that in the near future, I would meet another girl and walk a long way hand in hand with her.
At this moment, I finally understood what it means to truly let go and what it means to start a new day.