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When I was in elementary school, I wasn't tall and sat in the first row. Eating chalk ash and the teacher's spit every day. When I went to the cafeteria to eat, the first thing my aunt saw was the lunch box, not me. Classmates always love the head of the ** and say, this is my younger brother. I play with jumping goats during recess activities, and I'm always the one who makes goats.
During that time, because of my short stature, I became someone else's plaything and was bullied every day. Because of your shortness, others always joke and say, you are so short, can you marry a daughter-in-law in the future?Because I was short, I was often teased and became more and more inferior.
Is being short a disability that can be made fun of?
Mom comforted me and said, you're not short, you're just late. No matter what the future holds, you have to be a man with your chest up. Once you have low self-esteem, no matter how tall you are, others will think you are short. At that time, I was young, and I understood that I could still grow taller because of my late development.
I envy the boys on the basketball team because they live with the adoring applause of the girls. I've dreamed of "Wow, you're so tall" in my dreams countless times. But when I woke up, I still had to accept the cruel reality.
When I was in my first year of junior high school, I fell in love with a female classmate. She is tall and plump. And I'm short, very skinny. Sometimes, walking together without intent feels like a mother with her son. Because of my low self-esteem, I didn't dare to express my love.
Once in my evening Xi, I passed a note asking her what kind of boy she liked.
She said she liked it like the sports commissioner.
I said, why?
Tall, strong, and safe, she said.
Seriously, even though I'm used to being poked, sharpened stronger than my peers. But the words that came out of the mouth of the goddess were sharper than thousands of sarcasm. If others are thorns, then she is a sharp knife, plunging into my heart.
In the third year of junior high school, the goddess and Prince Charming came together. The two failed the high school entrance examination and went to Dongguan to work together. After that, contact was severed. I don't know if the goddess is doing well. But I know I've liked someone. She remained in my young age, and fell in my parched mind like a scattered cherry blossom.
I remembered her beauty and understood the meaning of humility.
During that time, I made a lot of efforts to get rid of the embarrassment of being short. I used to go to the playground for a run, and when someone asked me if I wanted to go to a sports school, I just smiled. I studied hard and Xi until late at night. Others ask me, do you want to be admitted to Tsinghua University and Peking University?
My classmates in the back row didn't like me and used to play pranks on me. Every time I stood up in class, I would always remove the stool and cause me to wrestle. The teacher asked me what was wrong, but I was too scared to complain. My cowardice condones their rampantness. During that time, I had a very good time, and I had to pay attention to whether the stool was still there.
Because I'm short, I'm hungry for a lot. Say, love. But girls want a broad chest, I can't give.
Once, I complained to my mother about why I hadn't grown yet, why I hadn't grown taller. My mother comforted me and said, you have to believe that sooner or later you will develop and grow taller.
I know that no matter how much I grow, I won't be able to grow any longer. Because mom and dad are short.
Because I'm short and I have short legs, when I run, I have to pick up my pace and run as hard as I can like Forrest Gump. Because I'm short, I have to keep my chest up so that I don't get seen as short. Because I have a flaw, I have to work hard to change and enrich my spiritual height.
It seemed like overnight, I understood those truths. In my sophomore year of high school, I ranked in the top 20 in the school. In the stunned eyes of others, I made a successful appearance. The teachers always joked that you see that little black horse is running again. Because of my excellence, no one will joke about my height easily, the teacher pays more attention to me, and the classmates in the back row no longer play pranks.
I've come to understand that you don't have enough height and can make up for it with hard work. One day, others will lower their prejudiced heads because of your excellence.
I have a friend who is a little loli, half a head shorter than me. But when interacting with her, others often ignore her height. Because her cultivation and upbringing are more attractive than her height.
Once I asked her, how do you do it.
First you have to admit yourself, she said, and the rest is left to dressing. If you want others to ignore your shortness, then you have to let others see your beauty first. Undoubtedly, compared with knowledge, dressing and matching is more quick. But not all good clothes will suit you, you should choose clothes that suit you and make your flaws a beauty.
In my life circle, there are many short people. But some people just complain. Despite the dissuasion, it is often found that it backfires. They will always say, "You're so good right now, of course you don't care." When I heard this, I always felt inexplicably sad in my heart. It's you who look down on yourself, don't work hard, and blame others for being too good. What kind of bandit logic is this.
Gradually, I understood. Physical defects are not terrible, but mental disabilities are fatal. Life gives you flaws not to complain, but to accept and feel. People always have to learn to change what you can change and accept what you can't.
In September 2015, I sat in the boring Xi room and scrolled through Weibo, and when I saw Peter Dinklage win Best Supporting Actor at the 67th American Emmy Awards for "Game of Thrones", my heart felt extremely excited. I looked at him standing on the podium, with that arrogant old face, as if to say, "I'm short, so you have to bow to me." ”
When asked by reporters about physical defects, Peter said: "I knew when I was a child that I had this disease and that I would not grow taller in the future, and I was very distressed and angry at first, but when I grew up, I realized that I had to have a little sense of humor in my life, to be optimistic, and it was not my fault that I suffered from this disease." ”
Yes, height is not your fault, your incompetence is your reason. God gave you a short stature, not to make you complain, but to suggest that you should find another window. On the contrary, you are luckier than normal people, at least God has ruled out an option for you.
In March 2016, I was crowded with a crowd of job seekers, and my short height made me interview a few times. After traveling to several cities, I came to Shenzhen and eventually joined an IT company. But when I first joined the company, I also encountered a lot of difficulties. There were two boys and one girl with me, and the company stipulated that only two people could be kept in the end. I'm alone, and I'm being squeezed right everywhere because they want to get me out first.
The workplace is like a battlefield. I didn't give in. A week later, the company assigned the Xi students to different project teams. I was in the same group as a tall man. During the meeting, the manager asked us who would write the payment port. The tall man was silent, and I said, I can try. The manager turned his gaze in surprise, and the tall man was also full of disbelief, muttering, "Can you write?".
I didn't take his drizzling doubts to heart. When I got home from work that night, I went to the forum to look up information. After a night of debugging, the program finally ran successfully. In the early hours of the next morning, I packed the program and sent it to the manager's mailbox. After that project was completed, the tall man was fired. I successfully became a trainee of the company.
I'm short, but that doesn't mean I'm a bully.
On the night I turned positive, I went to the night market and ordered a barbecue table and drank three beers. I finally understood my mother's words, "You're not short, you're just late".
Over the years, I don't know how much ridicule I have received and how many cold knives I have been thrown by others. I don't know how many sleepless nights I have been trying to prove myself by studying hard Xi. Suddenly, I found myself growing up and growing taller. I have completed the development of my mother's mouth, and I also understand my mother's good intentions.
Years of experience have taught me that it doesn't matter if you're short, it's bad that you don't have confidence. In your 20s, you should learn to accept what you can't change, and you also need to be aware of what you can change. If you don't have enough height, fill it with effort.
One day, others will bow their heads and look at you seriously because of your excellence.