Today is a special day, and my husband and I went to the hospital for an important check-up. I've always been scared about the future, I don't know what the test results will be, and I've been upset. My husband kept holding my hand and comforting me that no matter what the outcome was, we would face it together.
At this time, the observer came to comfort us, and she said: "It is not easy for you and your husband, and your efforts should be recognized." Hearing this, I choked up even more. The observer continued: "Especially your husband, he has worked a lot hard, and you should cherish him. ”
My husband held my hand, wiped the tears from my face, smiled and said, "It's okay, we'll get through it." ”
When I heard my husband's words, tears welled up in my eyes again. I felt a little helpless, and the uncertainty of the future scared me. Maybe it's because I've been struggling with contradictions and don't know how to deal with them.
My husband hugged me gently and said, "We will get through this, and no matter what happens, I will be there for you." Hearing my husband's words, the fear in my heart seemed to ease, and I snuggled up to my husband's arms, tears streaming out again.
Just then, my phone rang. I answered **, it was my father calling. There was a little anxiety in his voice, and he said that there was some trouble at home, and we needed to go back and deal with it immediately. My heart tightened, and I didn't know what the trouble was.
My husband saw my hesitation and whispered, "Let's go back and see, no matter what happens, we'll face it together." I nodded, and we hurried home.
As soon as I entered the house, I felt the tension. It turned out that my mother-in-law was very dissatisfied with our life in the field, and always thought that we were not filial enough, so she kept running around, but she didn't often go home to see. She looked for something to do, took some of our past support vouchers, and claimed that we were not filial enough, which caused the family to live in difficulty. My father kept explaining to us, but my mother-in-law was still angry and refused to forgive at all.
At this time, my sister also ran over to persuade her, she said: "Mom, my sister and brother-in-law are also kind, but they are busy with work and they don't mean it." The mother-in-law was still angry after listening to her sister's words.
At this time, even his father was angry, and he said loudly to his mother-in-law: "What's wrong with you, the children have worked hard, how can you say that?".”
My heart was full of contradictions, and it turned out that all these troublesome things were because of the conflicts in this family. I watched my father's family quarrel and felt very distressed. I don't know what to say. The family dispute caused me great pain, and my heart felt as if it had been torn apart.
At this time, the observer's words rang in my ears again: "The family's efforts should be recognized, and no matter what happens, you should cherish it." His words echoed in my head, and I understood that I could not let family conflicts ruin our relationship. I decided to communicate well and resolve this conflict.
I took a deep breath, took my father's and mother-in-law's hands, and said, "Mom, Dad, we can't let these little things affect our family anymore. My husband and I will change our behavior, come home more often, and help the family with something. "I finally feel a little relieved.
My father and mother-in-law looked at me, the corners of their mouths slightly raised. They nodded in agreement with my suggestion. At this time, my husband held my hand and gave me encouraging eyes, and I felt that there was still a long way to go, but I believed that with each other's company, everything would be better.
I took a deep breath, trying to calm the excitement, then smiled at the observer and nodded gratefully. My husband and I walked out of the hospital and returned home. On the way home, I was silent for a long time, thinking about what the observer had just said. She said that her husband was working hard and asked me to cherish him, which is true, but it is precisely because my husband has been under so much pressure over the years that it has led to conflicts and disagreements between us. The fear of the future made me feel helpless, I didn't know what the future would hold or how to deal with it.
Entering the house, the atmosphere in the house was a little tense. I saw my husband busy cooking dinner, and he was smiling honestly all the time, but I could clearly see the tiredness in his eyes. I suddenly felt guilty that maybe I didn't really understand what he was doing. I walked up to him softly, trying to hold his hand, but he avoided him, intentionally or unintentionally.
What's wrong with you?He asked with concern when he saw me standing aside in a daze.
It's okay, I'm just a little uncomfortable. I replied vaguely.
At dinnertime, I sat down at the table with a bowl in hand. My husband looked at me with a concerned look and said, "Have you been bothered lately?"Crying like that for trivial things, I feel distressed when I look at it. ”
I ......Actually, I'm a little worried about the future. "I tried to find the right word to hide my inner conflict.
Is it my job?A trace of helplessness and doubt flashed in her husband's eyes, "I know that I am indeed very busy at work during this time, and I may have been a little negligent." However, I will adjust my condition as soon as possible. ”
No, I ......"I wanted to say something, but I swallowed it back when it came to my lips. I don't feel like I can confront the backlog of issues that we've been building up to for a long time.
After a silent dinner, my husband and I suddenly got into an argument in the living room.
What the hell are you worried about?!He gradually lost his patience, and his voice became a little sharper.
I'm worried about our future, there are more and more contradictions between us, you are always so busy, you don't have time to communicate with me at all!"I finally broke out in my heart.
I work so hard to give us a better life, why can't you see it?"He also started to lose control and became a little emotional.
I tried hard to suppress the grievances and excitement in my heart, but tears still came out of my eyes. The contradictions between us deepened, and I felt fearful, helpless, and even more unable to face the future.
Stroking my wife's hair, I felt helpless. My wife was crying all the time, and I couldn't find a way to cope. My heart was eaten away by a complex hesitation and contradiction. I knew that I needed the most comfort and support for my wife right now, but I was also deeply in fear myself. I didn't dare to face the reality, I didn't dare to face the future, I was afraid that I would not be strong enough to support my wife and our family.
When we got home, we were surrounded by business as usual. But for me, it all seemed ethereal. I watched my wife go about her chores but couldn't give her any real support. I knew that I had to face the reality that I had to pull myself together for the sake of my wife and family, but the fear in my heart was like a huge obstacle in front of me.
What's wrong with you?Why do you always look like this?My wife looked at me with a tone full of questioning and dissatisfaction.
Nothing, I'm just ......"I wanted to say something, but I couldn't find the right words.
Just what?You've been like this for a long time, are you hiding something from me?There was a hint of doubt and anxiety in his wife's tone.
I was silent for a moment, then said slowly, "Actually, ......I was challenged at work. It may take me to make some changes, and things may be different now. I ......I don't know how to deal with it yet. ”
So what?You're always so depressed, can't you think about me first?My wife's voice gradually rose up, and she was clearly upset by my attitude.
At this time, she suddenly began to cry, and I rushed to comfort her, but I didn't know what to do.
You ......Didn't you say, you'll be by my side?The wife said in a trembling voice.
I will, I will. I replied weakly, but my heart was full of guilt and hesitation.
At this point, I felt self-blame and pain, and I knew that I had to find a stronger attitude, and I needed to pick myself up and face the fear in my heart. But I was really at a loss.
After facing the doctor's diagnosis, my husband and I began a difficult time to decide. Our love and support for each other didn't seem to dispel the fear in my heart. At this time, I couldn't control my emotions and often lost my temper for no reason and said hurtful things to my husband.
That night, we started an argument over some trivial matter. I yelled at my husband uncontrollably, but he listened quietly and didn't say a word. Seeing that he seemed to have been defeated by me, I felt a little guilty in my heart. But my fear prevented me from seeing what was in front of me rationally, and I just felt isolated.
In the days that followed, my husband's attitude changed, and he began to avoid my questions and stopped talking to me. The fear in my heart also became stronger, and I seemed to have lost all hope.
At a family dinner, I couldn't help but ask my husband, "Why do you always avoid me?"”
The husband was silent for a moment and slowly spoke: "I just feel as if something has changed between us, and I don't know how to face you." ”
These words were like a sharp knife into my heart, and I didn't realize that my fears had changed our relationship. Seeing my husband's expression, I realized more and more that I should not let fear cloud my judgment, otherwise I would end up losing my most precious family affection.
Our relationship is at an impasse, and my heart is still clouded by fear. How do I deal with this?
For a long time, the husband has been silently suffering from a lot of pressure. I know that he sacrificed a lot for his family, but I was always too anxious and scared to even notice his dedication. It made me feel guilty. Perhaps this is also the reason for the contradiction between us. I hope to be able to make up for this and make our family more harmonious.