August 11, 2023, is Xu Luxi's 95th birthday. After Deng Jiaxian died, she never gave herself a birthday.
For 37 years, she has been living in an old house of less than 70 square meters where they used to live together in Haidian District, Beijing.
For 37 years, the outside world has changed dramatically, and here, time seems to stand still. The furniture in the house still retains the style of the 70s of the last century.
The sofa and desk that Deng Jia sat on first are still lying there quietly, as in the past.
Xu Luxi and Deng Jiaxian have been married for more than 30 years, but in fact, they only get along for a few years.
Deng Jia first promised the country with his body, but Xu Luxi promised Jun with love, explaining to us the highest wisdom of husband and wife.
Deng Jiaxian and Xu Luxi met in 1946, when Deng Jiaxian was an assistant professor in the Department of Physics of Peking University, and Xu Luxi was a freshman at Peking University School of Medicine.
But in fact, the Xu and Deng families were originally world friends, Deng Jiaxian's father Deng Yizhen and Xu Luxi's father Xu Deheng are both professors at Peking University, and the two families often have contacts.
Xu and Deng's families are both scholarly families, and the books are full of air.
Deng Jiaxian's grandfather Deng Shiru was a great calligrapher and seal carver in the Qing Dynasty, and Deng Jiaxian's father Deng Yiyu was a master of Chinese culture and one of the founders of modern Chinese aesthetics.
Xu Luxi's father, Xu Deheng, was one of the famous student leaders during the May Fourth Movement, and later studied in France to find a way to save the country
Xu Luxi's mother, Lao Junzhan, was born in a family of eunuchs in Hunan, studied in France when she was young, met and fell in love with Xu Deheng, and entered the University of Paris together to study radiophysics under Marie Curie.
Xu Deheng and Lao Junzhan have a deep affection, Qin Se and Ming, and the sweetness and tranquility of the family are deeply engraved in Xu Luxi's heart.
However, at that time, China was still in war, and after returning to China, Xu Deheng and Lao Junzhan could not continue to study radiophysics.
In the dark, God destined that their life shortcomings were finally filled by their son-in-law Deng Jia first.
In 1953, Deng Jiaxian married Xu Luxi, one was a young talent who returned from studying in the United States, and the other was a gentle and intelligent teacher at Peking University.
After marriage, the two had a very strong relationship.
Xu Luxi's place of work is far away from home, Deng Jiaxian is not at ease, and will ride a bicycle to pick up Xu Luxi from work whenever he has time.
They also often strolled through the Summer Palace in the afterglow of the sunset, strolling side by side while talking softly about work and life.
This pair of beautiful people, one is quiet and the other is full of energy. But as long as he is free, Deng Jiaxian will take his beloved wife to play around.
They went to the park, sang Peking opera, climbed Wanshou Mountain, and went ice skating ...... in BeihaiThe fun places in Beijing have left the footprints of the two of them.
Once, the Summer Palace held a chrysanthemum exhibition. Knowing that Xu Luxi liked chrysanthemums, Deng Jiaxian hurriedly took Xu Luxi to the Summer Palace after the meeting at four o'clock in the afternoon.
But by the time they arrived, the chrysanthemum show had already ended, and the exhibition was only for one day.
Deng Jiaxian and Xu Luxi stepped forward to plead with the administrator who was about to close the door, but they couldn't resist their pleas, and the chrysanthemum exhibition that day delayed the closing for them for an hour.
A happy marriage is always accompanied by the arrival of a cherub, and after marriage, they gave birth to a son and a daughter.
Deng Jiaxian came home from work every day, and the happiest thing was to play with the children.
He would put the kids on the bike and take them around for a ride;He will also play games with his son, set off firecrackers, and teach his son to catch crickets.
Xu Luxi recalled: "Jia Xian is like this, he has become a father, he is naughty like a child, he will always be ** underage." ”
The most harmonious relationship between husband and wife is to understand each other, and this harmony can make people feel free to be themselves and be happy like a child forever.
However, the good things in the world are not strong, and such a good time has never been passed since 1958 until Deng Jiaxian's death in 1986.
In August 1958, the state wanted to put a "cannon battle" and transferred Deng Jia to do this research work first.
The study of the atomic bomb was a top-secret task, and there were strict organizational rules that from now on, one should remain incognito, and one should not tell one's parents or one's wife or children.
On this day, Deng Jia went home first and later than usual, and he couldn't sleep while lying on the bed.
Eventually, he told his wife that he was going to transfer jobs. Xu Luxi asked where he was going to be transferred, and Deng Jia first said that he couldn't say. When I asked him when he would be back, he said he didn't know.
Deng Jia got up first and said solemnly: "Lu Xi, please leave the affairs of the family to you in the future, and my life will be dedicated to future work." If I do this well, my life will be very meaningful, even if I die, it will be worth it!”
Xu Luxi understood the importance of what he was about to do, so he said, "I support you!".”
Many years later, Xu Luxi recalled: "The highest state of love is to understand and support each other. ”
This "support" has become the spiritual driving force for Deng Jiaxian to forge a sword for the country.
After a certain major country unilaterally tore up the agreement and withdrew all its experts, we had to do the theoretical design of the atomic bomb ourselves.
It is difficult to pass the pass, and the road ahead is long and bright. Under poor conditions, in an environment of hunger and cold, Deng Jiaxian's team is racing against time.
At that time, the equipment only had an abacus and a hand-cranked calculator, and even one parameter had to be calculated tens of thousands of times, and the manuscript paper was piled up in several warehouses.
In 1962, Deng Jiaxian led the team to overcome thousands of difficulties and dangers, and finally completed the theoretical design of the atomic bomb, solving the key problem of China's atomic bomb.
Hardship and hardship, Yuru is successful. In 1964, China's first atomic bomb was successfully launchedIn 1967, our first hydrogen bomb was successful.
Only two years and eight months apart, Deng Jiaxian and his team have created a miracle in the world!
Since then, Deng Jiaxian has also been working on the front line of nuclear testing, contributing his youth to the motherland.
For 28 years, separation was the norm and reunions were brief.
Xu Luxi had no complaints, and with her not strong shoulders, she silently shouldered the heavy responsibility of the family, raising children, taking care of her parents, and taking care of housework.
The two children were unable to see their father for a long time, and gradually became estranged from their father. Xu Luxi was sad, but he couldn't say a word to anyone.
But for Xu Luxi, the biggest sadness is not the difficulty of a woman supporting a family, but the incomprehension and criticism of the outside world.
Some people say that Deng Jia divorced her first, and the neighbors always ask "where the child's father went" every now and then. Of course, Xu Luxi didn't know Deng Jiaxian's traces, so he could only use "business trips" to prevaricate.
Along the way, how much hardship I have endured, how many grievances I have endured, and only God knows what I know, and I don't have the world to care about many things, and I don't have the energy to complain.
Xu Luxi used the words "I support you" to support the 28-year wait, and she used her atmosphere to achieve Deng Jiaxian's career.
Although Xu and Deng do not live together, their common ideals have always made them walk on the same path. The two have achieved together, and they have made great contributions to the strength of the country.
At this end, Deng Jiaxian was incognito and engaged in nuclear research and development without distraction;Over there, Xu Luxi was also busy with his own teaching and research work.
Xu Luxi is a graduate of a seven-year medical university, and she has worked her way from teaching assistant to professor to dean, silently contributing to the treatment of diseases and saving lives, medical research and training of medical talents in the Republic.
In 1981, the university sent Xu Luxi to the United States as an exchange scholar.
At that time, although Deng Jiaxian was very busy working in the northwest, he still asked someone to get "900 English sentences" and English speaking practice tapes. Xu Luxi took the tape with him and took it out to practice as soon as he was free.
After returning from the United States, Xu Luxi organized the first workshop on neuroimmunocytochemistry in China, which made this new technology rapidly implemented in China.
In the years that followed, as a doctoral supervisor, Xu Luxi cultivated batches of talents for the country, and she made outstanding contributions in promoting the development of China's medical industry.
However, an unfortunate news broke the peace. In 1985, Deng Jia's health deteriorated, and he was diagnosed with bowel cancer, which was already at an advanced stage.
On the front line of nuclear testing, Deng Jiaxian always stood beside the operator, and every time he opened the sealed tank to check the test results, Deng Jiaxian always rushed to the front.
In 1979, a dropped test hydrogen bomb did not have **. Deng Jia first went to the scene to inspect in person, walked to the crater alone, and picked up the shrapnel to examine it carefully, and finally confirmed that there was nothing wrong with the design of the hydrogen bomb itself.
Xu Luxi was anxious when he found out: "You are doing this, you don't understand, why do you have to come to the front and pick it up and take a look?"”
Deng Jiaxian said calmly: "I signed this test, I must see with my own eyes what it has become, and I will continue to test it in the future." ”
Xu Luxi, a professor at a medical university, knew that her husband's health was irreversible under such a large dose of radiation.
And Deng Jiaxian, who is an expert in nuclear physics, how could he not know the great harm caused by radioactive substances to the body?
He sees some things as more important than his own life!
Deng Jiaxian once said: "I don't love **, I love peace, but for peace, we need **."
The Grim Reaper had already shown a hideous smile, but Deng Jiaxian was still dragging his sick body and trying to do two things.
One is to write a proposal for China's nuclear development plan and ask Xu Luxi to personally send it to the relevant leaders. This proposal is still kept secret to this day, which shows the great significance of the proposal to the country.
One was to write a monograph entitled "Group Theory" based on the lecture notes on "Basic Concepts and Theories of Group Theory", but the pain caused him to drop out of writing.
On June 24, 1986, the People's Liberation Army Daily" published a long report on "The Father of the Two Bombs - Deng Jiaxian", and Deng Jiaxian's deeds of incognito and promising the country with his body were officially revealed.
On July 29 of that year, Deng Jiaxian finally passed away due to massive hemorrhage.
On his deathbed, he said:"I have no regrets about my choice for the rest of my life. If I can be reborn after the end of my life, I still choose China, I choose the nuclear industry, and I choose you. ”
Xu Luxi on the side couldn't cry.
The old people are separated from the rivers and seas, and they are separated by mountains and rivers several times.
After Deng Jiaxian passed away, Xu Luxi has always adhered to the small family that Mr. Deng Jia could not take care of before.
The house was built in the 50s of the last century, and looking around, the walls are covered with ** from various periods.
The only high-grade ones in it are just two wooden sofas, which were specially added by Yang Zhenning when he came to visit his home.
Xu Luxi said:Only in this way can we feel Deng Jiaxian's existence. ”
In the past, the sun became slow, cars, horses, and mail were slow, and there was only enough time to love one person in a lifetime. ”
Xu Luxi and Deng Jiaxian have been running through the feelings of family and country all their lives, they understand each other, support each other, and achieve together, which explains to us the highest wisdom of husband and wife.
Deng Jiaxian's alma mater, Southwest Associated University, has such a lyric in the school song: "A thousand years of shame, the end of the snow, Zhongxingye, must be a masterpiece." ”
At any time, there is no shortage of impassioned people in China, who have built the Great Wall of 5,000 years with their iron bones and patriotic hearts.
The mountains and rivers are unharmed, the fireworks are ordinary, and behind the prosperity, it is countless "Deng Jiaxian" and "Xu Luxi" who silently hold up the future of the motherland.
History dare not forget, our generation should be self-reliant!