Autumn and Winter Check-in Challenge
Before, I always had a question in my mind:
In this life, people are busy, live so hard, live so tired, what is the most unbearable?
It wasn't until I entered my old age and stopped to look back at the way I came that I suddenly became enlightenedIt turned out that it had been tossed for decades, just for these "two things".
01, love. When I was a junior in college, on the train home, I met the quiet and beautiful Lin Xue. We are fellow villagers and study at two different universities in the same city.
After we met, every time we went home or went back to school, we would walk together, and slowly we had a good impression of each other and developed into lovers. We were full of hope for a bright future, and we also applied for graduate school together.
However, the result was that she was admitted, and I was unsuccessful. So, she went to Beijing for graduate school, while I stayed there to take classes. Since then, we have either passed on the book to Hongyan, or traveled between the two places, and have been trying to protect this relationship.
In the blink of an eye, we have reached the age of establishment. Both parents can't bear it anymore, reminding us to face the reality, since there is no fate, let's hurry up and start a family.
In this way, the 10-year long-distance love run ended in reluctance and helplessness. I took a wife;She married. But deep down in my heart, her figure always flickered and could not be erased.
It's been 40 years since we met again, and looking at each other's unfamiliar faces, we had mixed feelings, tears flowed down our faces, and couldn't help but sigh, getting old, everything has become a thing of the past.
This is the real life, there are good and bad things;There is parting, and there is also consummation. Because of this uncontrollable feeling, our lives have one more flavor and one more color.
02. Money. After breaking up with Lin Xue, I married a wife, had children, and had a family, and at the same time, I also had an extra responsibility on my shoulders.
For the sake of my family's livelihood, I quit my stable job and went to sea.
From setting up a stall to selling at the door, from single-handedly to building a team, the business is getting bigger and bigger, making more and more money, but I am becoming more and more dissatisfied.
When I live in a rented apartment, I always wonder when I will be able to have a house, even if it is a little smaller
But after I actually got my own house, I wondered, when will I be able to live in a big house or villa?
I have money, but I am timid, for fear that others will not repay the money borrowed;When I am rich, I am vain, and I always compare myself with others;I have money, I am realistic, and I use people to face forward, not people to face backward.
Once at a family dinner, the eldest sister joked intentionally or unintentionally:
It is said that the eighteenth change of the female university, but how can you change so much as a big man?”
Because of money, I have alienated my relatives and friends, should I?Is it worth it?
Think about it back then, in order to provide for my education, my eldest sister dropped out of school early to work, and even used the bride price to help me pay my tuition. However, when my eldest brother-in-law fell ill and was hospitalized, I refused to lend money to my eldest sister on the grounds that I had been in a little trouble recently.
Now that I am old, I look back and find that in fact, the last thing people can let go of in this life is love and money.
When I was young, I was trapped by love;Burdened by money when you are older.
To live, people need a material foundation and a spiritual support;Human life is inseparable from reality, but it cannot be too realistic.
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Author: A hint of chuilun, a cheerful, joking emotional narrator, willing to accompany teachers and friends to taste life, laugh about life.