My name is Li Xiaofang, I am 40 years old this year, and I have been married for 15 years. My husband, Wang Qiang, is about the same age as me, and we have a 5-year-old son, Xiao Ming. Our family of three lives in an old-fashioned building in the community.
In the past 15 years, the relationship between me and Wang Qiang is not as sweet as when we first got married. Wang Qiang is very busy with work and often goes home late for socializing. I repeat my daily life of doing housework and taking care of my children, and it feels very dull.
Once, after Wang Qiang went home, I couldn't help but say: "Have you been more diligent in socializing lately, Xiao Ming and I haven't been with you for a long time." ”
Wang Qiang said helplessly: "Now the economic situation is not good, the performance pressure is very high, and entertainment is inevitable, so you should be more considerate and considerate of me." ”
I replied with a sullen "yes", thinking to myself, is this my life?Facing a deserted house every day, doing housework repeatedly, and then waiting for a tired husband to come homeIs my youth just wasted?
Just then, a knock on the door interrupted my thoughts. It was our neighbor's aunt who came to visit, and she smiled and said to me: "Xiaofang, I heard that you just moved a handsome guy downstairs, have you seen it?"”
I shook my head and said no, and my aunt gossiped to me about the new neighbor across the street. "It's the 201 household, a young man who just graduated from college, who is very handsome and has a good figure. I heard that I'm still single!”
I smiled and said, "Auntie, are you trying to match me?"”
The aunt said jokingly: "What's not to do, you see how boring you are facing this old king every day." Our Xiaofang is so beautiful, it's time to go out and see the world!”
I listened a little shyly, but also a little expectant.
I quickly looked away, but secretly continued to observe him. Auntie is right, this guy is really handsome, with short hair, a tall figure, and well-defined muscles. Looking at him, my heart beat faster unconsciously.
Just when I was distracted, a gust of wind suddenly blew, and a piece of red lace** that I was hanging on the balcony flew!I hurriedly went to catch it, but I saw that the guy was staring intently at my red **.
My face turned red, and I quickly took the ** down, and my face was so blushing. I peeked at the guy and saw that he seemed to have a wicked smile on his lips, which made me even more ashamed.
After that, I would often see him on the balcony, and I would pretend to hang out the red ** inadvertently. When I saw him, I felt a little anticipation and excitement in my heart. This little stimulation seems to give a little color to my boring life.
One day, I was drying the red ** as usual, and the guy was watching me on the balcony again. Today I mustered up the courage to wave at him. To my surprise, he smiled and waved in response.
I was so excited. After that, he and I began to communicate frequently with eye or hand gestures on the balcony. I even imagined the picture of being with him, feeling that he was like a light shining into my boring life.
One day, while drying clothes on the balcony, I noticed a letter stuffed in the crack of the door. I carefully opened it, and it read: "Xiaofang, I like you, can you meet?".Come to my house, no one will know. tension".
It turns out that his name is Zhang Li, and he likes me!I was so excited that my hands and feet went limp, and I hurried back to the balcony and nodded to him. He smiled knowingly.
Xiaofang, I'm so glad you came. Zhang Zhang opened the door and hugged me excitedly.
I was nervous and excited to meet him. The tension is gentle and noble, and we have a good chat. It's been a long time since I've been so happy.
In this way, I started sneaking out from time to time to date Zhang Li. We would have a tryst in a secluded part of the neighborhood, and he would put his arm around me and speak softly to me. I feel like I'm 20 years old again, and I'm in love every day.
One day at noon, I slipped out as usual to meet Zhang Li. He took me to a remote corner of the neighborhood and suddenly couldn't help but kiss me. I was a little surprised at first, but I was also immersed in this sudden passion.
Xiaofang, I really like you. Zhang Li whispered in my ear as he kissed me.
I also kissed him back excitedly: "Me too, tension, I've never felt like this." ”
We kissed in hidden corners, like two drowning fish finally coming to the surface.
However, at this moment, an angry roar suddenly interrupted us: "Li Xiaofang, what are you doing!."”
I turned around in horror and saw Wang Qiang standing not far away, his face ugly as if he was about to kill someone.
When I came back at noon to get something, I saw you fooling around with this wild man here!Wang Qiang strode over and pulled me behind him.
Stop!Wang Qiang pointed at Zhang Zhang and roared. Zhang Zhang was also frightened.
Explain what?Still want to get your hands dirty?Wang Qiang punched Zhang Li.
I screamed in horror: "Don't fight!".It's all my fault!Then he threw himself in front of Wang Qiang and hugged his arm.
Wang Qiang shook me off fiercely, and I fell heavily to the ground. His eyes were full of anger and disappointment: "Li Xiaofang, I really misjudged you. We've been married for so many years, and you actually have wild men outside!We're done!”
I cried and knelt on the ground, desperately begging him: "Brother Qiang, please give me a chance!".I was confused for a moment, but I really knew it was wrong!We still have a child, so forgive me this time!”
Wang Qiang gave me a cold look, turned around and was about to leave.
At this time, our neighbor aunt also ran over, and she stood in front of Wang Qiang and persuaded him to calm down.
After the persuasion of his aunt, Wang Qiang did not leave directly, but his eyes were still cold, and my heart was like a knife. I knew that this time, I might have really lost him.
Brother Qiang, you go home first and calm down, Xiaofang also knows that she is wrong, you can talk about it. The aunt persuaded Wang Qiang.
Wang Qiang was silent for a while before he said in a deep voice: "I'm angry now and need time to think about our relationship. With that, he turned around and left.
I knelt on the spot, tears streaming uncontrollably. My aunt helped me up and comforted me softly: "Xiaofang, don't blame yourself too much, go home and talk to Brother Qiang." ”
I nodded and stumbled home. As soon as I entered the door, I saw Wang Qiang sitting on the sofa with a gloomy face.
I walked over tremblingly, knelt at his feet, hugged his leg and cried bitterly: "Brother Qiang, I'm sorry, I did something wrong, you can forgive me this time." I promise you, never again!”
Wang Qiang said coldly: "Guarantee?."Didn't you swear to me like that before?I don't believe your word at all right now. ”
I cried even more sadly: "Brother Qiang, I really know that I am wrong. I didn't cherish you so much all these years, it was my mistake. Please give me a chance to start over. I will be good to you and good to my family again. ”
Wang Qiang was silent, and after a long time, he sighed: "I'm very sad and angry now, and I need time to accept this matter." Reflect on yourself. ”
From that day on, Wang Qiang was very cold to me and hardly spoke to me. I blamed myself and regretted it so much that I stayed at home all day, trying to please him all the time, but he was still cold to me.
After more than a week, one night, Wang Qiang suddenly said to me: "Xiaofang, I've been thinking about us these days. Although I was still sad, I decided to give you one last chance when I thought of our children. ”
I burst into tears with excitement, and quickly knelt at his feet and said, "Brother Qiang, thank you!."I will definitely be a good wife and mother again. From now on, my life is only for you and your children!”
This is indeed the heaviest lesson of my life. I finally understood that the ordinary in life is true, and my family is my most precious person.
Wang Qiang gave me a chance to start over, and I worked hard every day to make up for his hurt and try to rebuild our relationship.