Thoughts flowed backwards, back to the 19-year-old summer vacation, Si'er was bored and stayed at home alone, there were four sisters in the family, Si'er was the youngest daughter, so the nickname Si'er was called by the elders, Dad and Mom were busy with the work at hand and went out to visit the house, and the winter and summer seasons in the rural areas in the north are relatively idle. Si'er sat alone on the kang, flipping through the books brought back from the school in his hands, and watched quietly, just looking at ......The door of the outhouse was gently opened, and Si'er looked up and saw him through the glass following the footsteps—a tall boy, after entering the house, before Si'er could speak, the boy spoke first with a smile: "I heard my third aunt say that you are back at my grandmother's house, let me come to play with you." After listening to the boy's words, Si'er settled down, and confirmed in his heart that he was his childhood playmate: **Oh, he has grown so tall, he is completely a young man, if he hadn't just said such a thing, Si'er would not dare to recognize each other, and his impression is still that** The old hairy boy, his grandmother's house is in the backyard of Si'er's house, every New Year's holiday, he will come over during the winter and summer vacations, and naturally he will come to Si'er's house to play, sometimes alone, most of them are with his uncle's cousins and cousins, when he doesn't come, Si'er will also take his cousins and cousins who are a few years younger than Si'er to play, and the countryside people are all related to the family, and his cousins and cousins are called Si'er: Fourth Sister. Si'er was born in the same month as his childhood, he was born in the first month of the first month more than ten days older than Si'er, maybe it is the same age, and the child is not qualitative, the two of them also occasionally play and quarrel, it may be that Si'er was more domineering at that time, and he quarreled with Si'er once let Si'er's mother know, and taught Si'er at home and said:"Why are you like this, kid?People are small ** and a child with benevolence and righteousness, it is rare to come once, you still don't play with others, and you still fight with others. After listening to her mother's words, Si'er lowered her head and pouted unconvinced, thinking to herself what's the big deal, I don't want to play with him yet, and I have someone to ......play with if he doesn't comeSi'er confirmed that it was him, pulled back his thoughts, and called him politely: "Oh, it's **!."My mother is at the fifth grandmother's house?He replied, "Hmm," and the boy spoke again, "Are you in a health school?""Hmm,"Then give me an address, and I'll write to you when the time comes. "Okay, Si'er took out a pen and paper and wrote down the first class of Fenglin Health School in Heilongjiang Province Sun Nuannuan "The boy wrote down the address and said: I am now in my first year of high school, and I feel that it is too hard to work for a year off, so I want to go back to school, and write down my address to Si'er while talking, this is my address" Si'er looked at the recipient: Yi Fei, oh, it turns out that his name is Yi Fei, Si'er thought, since he was a child, he knew his name was ** , I always thought it was his name, and I never thought about what his surname was, as for whether he knew Si'er's name, Si'er didn't know, maybe it was the same situation as Si'er, it didn't matter what he did. Si'er put it away and said, "Okay." The boy spoke again and said:"Give me another copy of yours!Si'er came back in embarrassment, I didn't have any single photos, I took out the album while talking, and found a single photo of a tomboy with very short hair in the third year of junior high school for him to see, as for why he suddenly cut his hair so short in the third year of junior high school, it may be a way for Si'er to relieve pressure, he politely refused to reveal that he preferred long hair, and did not forget to ask Si'er to take a ** and send it to him when the time comes, Si'er nodded and whispered: Okay.
Maybe they have all grown up, and in Si'er's heart, the hairy boy has grown into a young man, and Si'er has also become a young lady, and there is no longer the appearance of being a child flying and domineering, and there is less childhood activity and carefree between each other. After losing contact for many years, goodbye made each other a little more strange and polite, and there was also a faint shyness between the opposite sex, and after a moment of silence, they talked to each other about their respective schools implicitly, probably because they were worried that it would be inappropriate to disturb them for too long, and after a while, the boy left the ...... with excuses
Since this meeting, Si'er has somehow always looked forward to him coming to the house to play with him, and Si'er even thought about why his mother asked him to play with him that timeIs it because you can see that your daughter is lonely and has no playmates, and is it distressing to be a parent?Or let's just say that we are all like children back then, you kids can play together!I still want to match myself and the boy!Although several thoughts surfaced in his heart, Si'er never went to his parents for verification in the end, and probably felt that this was not important ......
But in the following days, Si'er looked forward to the boy coming to her every day to play, but her heart was real, but unfortunately the boy did not come to her again in the next few days. After dinner this day, my parents cleaned up and went to the door, Si'er couldn't sit still at home, I wanted to see him, but it was inconvenient to go to his grandmother's house to find him directly, what to do, after thinking about it, Si'er still decided to go to the third aunt's house to play, the third aunt's house was originally in the front yard of the fourth aunt's house, and there was a younger brother who was a few years younger than the fourth sister at home, and the fourth child often led him to play when he was a child. Si'er dressed neatly and walked slowly towards the third aunt's house, and when she arrived at the third aunt's house, the third aunt greeted Si'er warmly and asked Si'er to sit, and Si'er asked with a smile: What about Yanyan's third aunt?Yan Yan is the nickname of the third aunt's son, and replied: I went out to play with his little brother **, and I should be back soon. Sure enough, Si'er just sat down for a while, and the two of them came back, Si'er thought in his heart that he finally didn't come in vain, the three of them chatted for a while, Yan Yan turned on the TV, and the lights in the room were turned off"Don't blame anyone for falling in love until your heart is broken, just because the encounter is too beautiful, it doesn't ......matter if you dry your tears and your heart turns into ashesSi'er also likes this song very much, and usually hums along when watching TV at home, but today on the occasion of him, Si'er felt a little uncomfortable listening to this song, his eyes dodged the screen, and then he actually hummed along, Si'er felt a little embarrassed more and more, and lowered his head, there was only the light of the TV in the room, and everyone may not be able to see their expressions clearly, at least Si'er didn't dare to look at his ......faceAt the end of the song, the two of them will meet again for the next winter ......
At the end of the summer vacation, Si'er began to look forward to his letters from time to time after returning to school, so every time he passed by the school gate, he would subconsciously glance at the window of the guard room a few times. A few days later, after lunch, Si'er passed by again, and really saw his letter, Si'er carefully put the letter in his pocket, and returned to the dormitory to look quietly alone, there were two pages, "See the words like faces: I wrote you this letter since the summer vacation started school, reading here Si'er thought: "Well, from the time is about the same, from Gongzhuling City, Jilin Province to Jiamusi City, Heilongjiang Province, ordinary mailing is so many days." "How are you doing, okay?".Go take a picture of ** and send it to me......Remember to reply to me early, and promised me that I would definitely take a picture of ** and send it to me together in the letter!
After reading the letter, Si'er felt a little steady, but it seemed to be a little more troubled, the trouble was that he was so sincere to mention the ** matter again, Si'er couldn't hide, and he had to take a ** for him, in fact, Si'er didn't like this kind of deliberately taking pictures for the sake of taking pictures. No way, I don't want him to be disappointed, I don't want him to wait too long, I take my friends in the same bedroom to take pictures with the photographer on my day off, but why to take pictures, this is the secret of Si'er's heart, she didn't tell anyone, including the person who wrote to her Si'er also didn't say a word in the bedroom, nor did she deliberately hide it, but I just felt that it wasn't time yet, and it wasn't worth mentioning. In fact, Si'er's lower bunk already has a public boyfriend, and everyone is not surprised, even if it is mentioned, everyone may feel that there is no ......A few days later, it was washed out, and when I got it, I saw the deliberate expression of the four, which was not good-looking at all, no matter what, at least it wasn't tomboy hair, and the fourth child simply tied a short ponytail at the back of his head. Send him this one as soon as you close your eyes. Accompanied by more than one page of letterhead: write a little about school life ......*If you don't look good, let's keep it as a souvenir. Reading between the lines, Si'er didn't mention anything about replying to the letter, although Si'er looked forward to his reply after the letter was sent.
Rich and rich campus life, chat with the partners in the dormitory, occasionally go shopping with classmates on rest days, go out, the homeroom teacher of junior high school will also come to the dormitory to watch Si'er sit for a while, come more times, Si'er's best friend Shijie showed disgust, and then simply saw Si'er's teacher come to hide in the next bedroom to play for a while, the girlfriend's attitude changed Si'er also felt, but it is also strange to say, Si'er and Shijie's mutual friend Kun is also their classmate, but it is talking with Si'er's homeroom teacher, every time the teacher comes over, as long as Kun comes to Si'er's dormitory, he will talk very happily。 There are even more conversations between Si'er and his teacher, and Si'er thinks it's very good, at least the people who came because of Si'er didn't make them feel annoyed, but Si'er still cares about the change in his best friend Shijie. The later development was that in private, the best friend simply made it clear to Si'er and said: "Nuan Nuan, I don't know why, anyway, I just don't like your teacher, maybe a girl with Kun's personality chats with him, I can't." Maybe it was his best friend's words that woke up Si'er, Si'er suddenly felt that it was inappropriate for the teacher to continue to look at himself like this, after all, Si'er was no longer a junior high school student, even if Si'er's grades were good at that time, he was his teacher's favorite student, but now he shouldn't be so contacted, or even shouldn't be contacted. For this reason, Si'er wrote a long letter to his teacher, in which he thanked the teacher for taking care of him in junior high school, but he is now 19 years old and has grown up, please let me fly high by myself, and I will repay your ...... in the future if I succeed in my studiesSoon Si'er received a reply in the same city, and the teacher couldn't let go ......As a result, Si'er felt a little helpless and a little suffocated......
A few days later, Si'er received another letter from Yi Fei. The second letter, Si'er still carefully put the letter in his pocket, returned to the bedroom and quietly read it alone, two pages, and two old versions of banknotes, one five-jiao and one two-corner, which are no longer in circulation on the market, almost invisible, this is still a kind of banknote that was circulated when Si'er was six or seven years old. The letter reads: "Seeing words is like face,......I showed my mom the letter you gave me, and she said you wrote like a boy'......"Yes, Si'er's words are indeed not the kind of girls Junxiu, but like her inner desire for unrestrained and elegant character pursuit. So it looks atmospheric and sloppy, and the previous reply to the female classmate in elementary school also made the other party's mother say that it was like a boy's handwriting. "My mother said that you are very good, I like you very much, let's contact more and communicate more, and wait for you to come to my house to play ...... on vacation"Reading the letter so far, Si'er has a little complaint in his heart, and he is also a little shy, how can he show the letter to your mother, he is not prepared at all, why did he talk to your mother about me so early, and he didn't tell me in advance, if it was the scene, Si'er would definitely want to find a hole to drill into ......
Yi Fei's mother, Si'er was seen when she was a child, and when she brought her childhood Yi Fei to her mother's house, she also called her second aunt, and her impression was good. Si'er continued to read the letter ......"I have collected these two banknotes for a long time, and they are very commemorative, and now I will give them to you, I hope you must keep them." Reading the last sentence: "You must save it well" This sentence inspired Si'er to rebel, and thought, since you gave it to me, how to save it is my business, what kind of tone of command do you have, it is clear that you don't trust and are not willing to give it?Si'er quickly replied to him: ......The things you gave are too valuable, I won't accept them, so you can keep them yourself......
Then Si'er dropped out of school.,As for the reason,It's their own reasons are entangled.,Four can't continue to study like this.,Despite this, Si'er's grades are still at the top of the grade.,Sometimes Si'er even comforts himself Is it because junior high school has been favored by too many homeroom teachers.,So the current homeroom teacher to synthesize.,Is life like this?There are gains and losses......Si'er decided to go to Shanghai, where his closest relatives worked, and where he had his thoughts after watching "Shanghai Tang" when he was a child......Si'er has to go out on his own, save money to study by himself, and never fall into ......
Leaving school, Nuan Nuan and her best friend Shijie, friend Kun, partner in the same dormitory, junior high school homeroom teacher, none of them said hello, after saying goodbye, Nuan Nuan came to Harbin first, lived in the house rented by her sister for a few days, during the day her sister was not at home Si'er was in pain, the more decisive on the surface may be more painful in her heart, Si'er bears all this ...... aloneShe was crazy about it, thinking that Yi Fei would continue to write letters to herself, and she would never see it again...I miss the junior high school homeroom teacher who sent me to the school with my own hands....I miss my best friend Shijie, my friend Kun, and the other two sister partners in the dormitory who call my second sister;Thinking of his professional teacher, the indescribable pain, Si'er can only write them down in his diary in the lonely ......After a few days, Si'er found a job as a waiter in a hotel, and he couldn't wait for death at his sister's house, and when the New Year was approaching, Si'er was going to go back to his hometown in Jilin with his second sister and third sister to celebrate the New Year with his parents, and then Si'er would go south to Shanghai ......Si'er received a meager salary for the first time in his life, bought himself a set of thinner cotton sweaters, and bought a set of thicker cotton sweaters for his parents, hoping that they would be warm ...... winter
Back home, the atmosphere of the New Year and the encirclement of family affection alleviated a lot of Si'er's pain, the most important thing is: if nothing else, she should see Yi Fei, yes, Si'er really wants to see him, just explain the reason why he didn't reply to him, so as not to let him miss ...... inexplicably
After the fifth day of the new year, the sisters returned to the city in advance, and the fourth son would not come back in a year or two because he was going to Shanghai, so he planned to stay at home for a few more days and set off after the fifteenth. The sisters all left, and the family immediately became a lot deserted. One afternoon, my parents were not at home and sat on the kang alone, and sure enough, the person I wanted to see dragged a cousin to come, and the first thing we said when we met was: "I'm back, why didn't I reply to the letter I wrote to you?"Although his voice was calm and soft, there was no blame, more like a concerned inquiry, Si'er still lowered his head, felt a trace of apology on his face and didn't want him to see it, and whispered: I didn't receive it, I guess you will write a letter, I don't go to school there anymore, I'm going to Shanghai. "When are you leaving?"Yi Fei asked Si'er leisurely. "After fifteen," Si'er replied. Maybe it's someone who cares, you don't need to say much to understand, Yi Fei didn't ask any questions, he took out a small box from his pocket and handed it to Si'er, Si'er took it and asked: What is this?"Hair dryer, I once came to see your hair is wet" Hearing him say this, Si'er's heart was warm, I didn't expect him to be so caring, every time I washed my hair and towel to wipe it off, I never cared, I didn't expect him to care so much about himself. But I also have to give him something, I don't have anything in my hand, thinking about this, Si'er opened his mouth and said to him:"It's a market in a few days, let's go to the town to catch the market, I'll bring my classmate Li Chunlian again, I want to buy something" Yi Fei immediately responded: "Okay, I'll go and see the pants." Maybe it's a shy youth, and the two opposite sexes who have not confessed and established a relationship will avoid being alone together, and there is no need for deliberate tacit understanding, just like every time he comes to Si'er, he will always bring his younger brother, and Si'er invites him to bring female classmates with him, which is also to avoid embarrassment and respect each other. Two days later, the day of the market arrived, the three of them walked on the road talking and laughing, chatting and chatting, not feeling the cold of winter at all, it seemed that it didn't take long to walk six or seven miles, the town was very lively, in the gift shop Si'er picked a small gift, I felt that it should be suitable for him, but I didn't ask for his opinion, Si'er planned to go home and find a time to give him. Yi Fei and his classmates also bought their own items, and when they returned, Yi Fei was a little inconvenient to hold in his hand because he did not have a bag for items, and Si'er did not have a bag, so Si'er's classmates took the initiative to bring the bag to Yi Fei to use to load things. After arriving home, Si'er was not worried at all, knowing that he would definitely return the bag he borrowed last time to his classmates in a few days, so he would naturally come to the house to find himself. Sure enough, two days later, he came to Si'er and said, "This bag of your classmate, you can help me return it to her!."Si'er deliberately said with half teasing and half temptation: "You send it yourself" Yi Fei said with a wry smile: I don't know where her home is" Si'er immediately answered: "I tell you, I'll take you there." Hearing Si'er's serious and direct answer, Yi Fei was a little anxious this time, and said to Si'er in a gentle and pleading tone: Look, I am not familiar with her, or can you help me return it to her?Si'er saw that he was on this job, and it was not good to continue to tease him, and replied to him: "Okay then" Si'er bought a gift for Yifei because he didn't find a suitable opportunity, and once his cousin came to Si'er's house to play, he asked him to help transfer it.
One day after breakfast, Si'er and his parents were at home, Si'er was attracted by the figure outside the house through the door glass on the kang, oh it's Yanyan, his cousin, Si'er was a little disappointed, why was he alone, just Si'er continued to search for the figure while colliding with his oncoming hot gaze, his eyes were glowing like himself, and the four eyes were facing each other for a few seconds, so that Si'er was like an electric shock, and he shy lowered his head and retracted his gaze. I'm afraid that he will find out, and I'm afraid that my parents will find out. After Yi Fei entered the house, he called Si'er's parents, and then there was a chat with his parents, more of Si'er's father was looking for a topic, Yun Fei replied unhurriedly, Si'er just sat quietly and listened to him talk to his parents, and did not interject. After chatting for a while, I felt that the time was almost up, so I took my cousin away with an excuse. After Yifei left, his father and mother said: "Little **, this child has seen that he is very benevolent and righteous since he was a child, let our old girl give it to him tomorrow!."The fourth mother immediately said, no, no, I have been at odds with my mother-in-law for so many years. There are also two people who are less than 100 days apart and will quarrel in the future. The conversation between the parents did not avoid Si'er, and the four listened to it, Si'er did not say anything, but he had his own ideas in his heart, what his parents said was the truth, except for what his mother said, the two would quarrel if they were less than 100 days apart, and Si'er was skeptical.
After the fifteenth and fourth day of the year to set off to the south is getting closer and closer, this day after dinner parents went out as usual, Si'er alone at home to sort out the things to take away, in addition to a little clothes is the treasure she wants to treasure: there is a pair of socks of the deceased grandmother, a copper bracelet that the grandmother has brought, the fourth child saw the grandmother wear this bracelet at the grandmother's house when he was a child, the socks are actually the uncle bought for the grandmother for the New Year, the grandmother did not wear it for the fourth child, since the time the fourth child and the grandmother separated, the four children washed the socks and were no longer willing to wear, this time is also the last meeting between the four children and the grandmother......The bracelet was put away by the mother after the death of the grandmother and brought to the fourth child, and the fourth child has since wrapped the bracelet in the socks and has been carrying it closely, from the Jilin parents' house to Heilongjiang, where the four children are studying, this time the four children want to bring them to Shanghai ......There are also letters between classmates, diaries given by the teacher, their own diaries, and prizes for the diaries of the three good students, but this time there is one more thing to carry with them is a small hair dryer ...... sent by Yi Fei
At seven or eight o'clock, the night outside is already very deep, so deep that in the countryside where there are no street lights, you can't see his face clearly, even if the person standing next to you ......The footsteps outside the house remembered, sure enough, it was Yi Fei who came with his cousin, and the first sentence when he entered the house was the same as before, I heard my third uncle say that you are at home. Yes, the third uncle he said is the father of the fourth son, and the relatives are the parents in the front and back yards, so they go to Yifei's grandmother's house if they have nothing to do. The two had a chat without a match, of course, most of the time it was Yi Fei who was talking, Si'er listened, and Yi Fei asked first:"You're leaving, aren't you?"Well, it's almost time" "Oh, I'm about to start school, I plan to raise a dog in the future" Si'er looked at him in surprise and asked softly: "Raise a dog"?"Well, it's to raise a lot of that, to raise wolf dogs" Oh, it turns out that he wants to breed dogs to make money ......, but Si'er also likes dogs in his heart, so he listened to his plan and said: Yes!At this time, the aunt in the east house next door came back and asked through the door glass: "Si'er, did you see your uncle?"Si'er returned, but he didn't see him come back. "Oh, if you don't come back so late, I'll go out and find your uncle," the aunt said and went out. Seeing his aunt go to find his man, Si'er couldn't help but complain to Yun Fei with a somewhat incredible expression: "They just quarreled in the afternoon, so she went to him" Si'er thought that Yi Fei would have the same opinion as herself, and said: That's it. But Yun Fei immediately followed Si'er's words and said, "After all, are they husband and wife!."This unexpected sentence made Si'er feel stingy, but he also felt that Yi Fei was more sensible than himself, and he felt like a child in front of him, and Yi Fei was like an adult......Although Yi Fei did not have the same opinion as himself, Si'er's good impression of him increased by this. Then Yun Fei suddenly said: "Actually, my mother is very bitter, she often cries in front of me." Si'er didn't know what to say after listening to his words, thinking that Yifei could understand his mother's difficulty and felt that he was very sensible, but he also vaguely felt that his father might not be very good to her mother, combined with the last conversation between her parents and said that her mother and her mother-in-law had a bad relationship, but in the second half of the sentence, Si'er felt that a mother often cried in front of her child, which was not a good thing for children. Yun Fei asked again: Have you ever heard of "all mouths are gold"?Si'er didn't return, but in the literal sense, Si'er also knows the meaning of these four words. He went on to say that the level of the army from top to bottom is: divisions, brigades, regiments, battalions, companies and platoons, and Si'er suddenly felt that he knew a lot. However, in view of his understanding of his mother's sensibility just now, Si'er took the initiative to propose this time: "Come and let's play backgammon" Yifei replied: "I can't play" Si'er replied, "It's very simple, I'll teach you, take out a pen and paper while talking" Without saying a few words, the two began to draw on the paper, Si'er thought that he would win, and he could not win Yifei in a few games, Si'er's face was no longer good-looking, and Si'er was a little uninterested in playing chess after losing chess in a row, so Si'er said: " Don't play, it's not interesting, let's play cards" Yi Fei returned to "Okay", maybe Yi Fei felt Si'er's emotional changes, and Yun Fei didn't win once when playing cards, Si'er didn't know it at the time, but Si'er later recalled that when he played cards, he must have let Yi Fei let himself ......After playing for a while, Si'er was not interested again, it was not good to lose all the time, and it was not interesting to win all the time, Si'er said that he would not play, and Yi Fei also felt that the time was almost up, and said to his cousin on the side: "Let's go too, and then looked at Si'er, why don't you go to my grandma's house with us, aren't you afraid of being at home yourself so late?."My third uncle is still at my grandmother's house. Si'er hesitated for a moment, looking at it was already dark outside, and he was a little scared at home alone, especially a person who was suddenly alone after the excitement in front of him" Si'er replied: Okay, I went to put on my coat and go out with them. As soon as the door was closed, the three of them were immersed in the dark night, Si'er remembered that it was a dark night without even a crescent, and just walked a few steps to Yi Fei said: "Write me a letter no matter how you go?"I will receive it by July. Si'er didn't reply to him immediately after hearing this, and thought: Why should I write to you, can't you write to me?But even Si'er himself knows that this idea is untenable, just a willful thought, how can he have a fixed address to work in Shanghai, but what Yi Fei said before July did he also want to drop out of school?No, I absolutely can't let you affect your studies because of me, I don't go to school now, you should study hard, go to college in the future, and Si'er feels that he is no longer worthy of flying from the day he left school. But these thoughts in my heart are ...... that I can't say a wordAfter thinking about it, Si'er replied to him lightly: "I don't think that's necessary!."After saying that, he didn't feel good, and after a while, Yi Fei continued to say: "If you don't think it's necessary, then don't write it." Yi Fei's answer threw the question to Si'er again, Si'er felt extremely uncomfortable in his heart, and felt tears rolling in his eyes, if it weren't for his cousin's presence, Si'er would definitely turn around and go back immediately. Si'er suppressed his feelings and didn't make a sound, and continued to walk with them, of course, his cousin was always in front, Si'er and Yifei were a little behind, and no one could see each other's faces clearly in the dark night. Yi Fei continued: "Then how long will you come back?".Si'er adjusted her mood at this time, and her voice was a little louder, saying: "Three years or five years?"How old were we at that time, let's come back for the Chinese New Year this year!Okay?Si'er immediately replied: "How is it possible, Shanghai is so far away" Yifei continued to say: "Then come back for the Chinese New Year next year, okay?"Three years and five years is too long, so can you come back next year for the Chinese New Year?Si'er looked at him again and again and seemed to have a begging tone, Si'er couldn't hold back, agreed to him, and replied: "Okay" Yi Fei may be happy to hear it, and said casually: "When you come back, I will give you a celebration banquet" But he didn't know that this sentence "celebration banquet" made Si'er invisibly add pressure, what will be the achievements of the two years of life as a worker?Then I'm not even more deserving of you......
On the morning of leaving home in Shanghai, Si'er and his mother went to the village intersection to wait for the car, stepping on the creaking snow under their feet, Si'er kept looking back at the direction of Yifei's grandmother's house, I don't know if he is still there, or he has gone home, but before Si'er has left, his heart begins to miss him......