It's much more comfortable after taking a shower. It's already overcast, and I rarely wake up so early.
The dawn was cold, and I put on the trench coat that Ah Li had given me. Walking out of the balcony and pushing the window open, a cold wind blew in my face, carrying the fresh smell of Erhai Lake.
The fresh flavor comes from the red **. I saw Ah Li looking at me from her balcony.
I said hello, and Ah Li looked at me with inquiring eyes.
I said hello again, and Ah Li looked at me again with inquiring eyes. The balconies are all glazed and soundproofed. I simply went over and knocked on the door.
Ah left the door and I noticed that she was still wearing her nightgown. It's just a coat on the outside. I said you're not cold, aren't you?She said cold. I said, why don't you wear more clothes?Instead, she asked me what's wrong with being coldI said of course, just strip naked. Ah Li giggled and let me in. I didn't know what to say, so I asked you to get up so early. She said yes, and asked me what about you?I said no, I drank too much and would wake up very early the next day. She said I'll pour you a glass of water. As I passed by, I hugged her and wrapped my arms around her waist from behind.
Ah Li struggled for a moment and stopped moving. It was a different reaction than I expected, and I thought she was going to struggle for a long time.
Ah Li's neck is thin and long, tender and tender, with a layer of fine fluff covering it. The light of dawn outside sprinkled in, furry and golden, a beauty that escaped from low tastes. Ali let me move motionlessly, and when my breath touched her earlobe, Ali shuddered. I jerked Ah Li over to face me, and Ah Li immediately buried his head in the crook of my neck.
My hand slid into her dressing gown, and there was no more clothing in it. Facing a very plump place, before I had time to taste it, Ah Li pressed my hand with his chest, raised his head, and said, "What are you going to do?"”
I was a little angry, not because I didn't understand a woman's reservedness, but because I understood exactly the tone of her voice and the way she looked at me. Very stern tone and cold eyes. I did get a little.
As a man, I still maintain a certain politeness in this atmosphere, and I say, "I want to hear your heartbeat." ”
Ah Li listened, and buried his head in my shoulder again, but his chest still suppressed my hand. We were at a stalemate, and I didn't think about anything, and I kept the same position. In this way, after a long ......
Did you hear that?Ah Li asked, and very gently.
I said coldly, "No." ”
Ah Li sighed and said, "Of course not, because you didn't put it in my heart." ”
Ah Li's sentence "Because you didn't put it on my heart" may just mean that my hand is not on her heart, or it may be a pun. The thought put me in an awkward position.
I knew my hands were cold, so I didn't dare touch her skin in a big way. Ah Li shrank back because of the cold. At this point, I was already thinking of retreating, even as I stroked and kneaded gently.
I looked into Li's eyes, and Li's eyes were closed. I couldn't see anything, only her long eyelashes in graceful arcs. Perhaps she sensed my gaze and buried her head in my neck.
My hands began to warm up after a long time under Ah Li's nightgown, but they were still a little cold. I called softly, "Ah Li." ”
Ah Li said "um".
I let go of her body and wrapped my hands around Ah Li's waist. I said, "I'm sorry. ”
Ah Li shook his head and didn't speak.
I helped Ah Li straighten his clothes, took a step back, and looked at Ah Li seriously. Really, Ah Li's appearance is average, not pretty, but very attractive. Ah Li lowered his head under my gaze, his eyes wandering around the house. At this moment, the atmosphere of the room was a little strange, neither embarrassed nor shy, but with a little warmth, a little regret, and a mysterious atmosphere.
I shouted, "Ah Li." ”
Ah Li still said "um".
I didn't know what to say anymore, I just looked at Ah Li with a smile.
Ah Li was at a loss under my gaze, his hands tightened his coat and wrapped his body, raised his eyelids and glanced at me, and said timidly, "I'm a little cold." ”
I like Ah Li's timid look. It wasn't a little girl's shyness, but the occasional attachment of a mature woman. I also understand what she means when she says it's cold, if it's really just cold, you can take your own clothes and cover it.
I pulled off Ah Li's coat and took it off. Ah Li struggled for a moment, looking at me suspiciously. I ignored her and pushed her down on the bed. Ah Li exclaimed, "What do you want to do?"”。I took the quilt and covered her with it. Ah Li shyly said thank you. Before I could finish speaking, I took off my coat and got into the bed. Ah Li was startled, and hurriedly wrapped himself tightly in the quilt and said, "You, you,".
I put my arm through Ah Li's neck, Ah Li pushed it, and I took Ah Li into my arms and said, "I'll give you warmth." ”
Ah Li shuddered for a moment, and when he saw that I was not moving, his stiff muscles gradually relaxed. I asked, "Is it warm?"Ah Li still said "um". I asked, "Are you afraid that I will bully you?"Ah Li said timidly: "I'm afraid." There was a smile on the corner of his mouth when he said this. I asked again, "Do you want me to bully you?"Ah Li's face turned red, and he punched me in the chest, and the corners of his mouth were shy: "Why are you such a hooligan?".You go out!After saying that, he pushed me out of the bed. I was already holding Ah Li's shoulders, but she pushed me and hugged me tighter. I put my finger to my lips and "shh I leaned over and pressed my ear to Ali's chest. Ah Li pulled my hair and said what are you doing, I said I want to hear your heartbeat. After a while, Ah Li asked, "Did you hear that?"”。I said I can't hear it, your clothes are in the way. After speaking, he pushed Ah Li's clothes up. Ah Li's nasal voice said "um", and he pulled my hair and said no. Ah Li's ** is round and white, in the bed, the light of the dawn makes everything add hazy colors. I put my ear to it and listened to Ah Li's heart jumping. The bulge was against my face, and the soft protrusions irritated my nerves. I listened carefully to Ah Li's pounding heartbeat, and a faint body fragrance came from my nose, filling the veins around me, which was a wonderful feeling. At this moment, there seemed to be no **, but then this emotion was categorically denied. I said, "Your heartbeat isn't very normal. ”。While talking, he stimulated Ah Li's senses with his face. Ah Li's intermittent voice said, "How can I be normal if you bully me like this?".Ah Li was short of breath and pressed his face against me. I couldn't take it anymore, and my hands and tongue were attacking together. Ah Li screamed, his hands weakly trying to push me away. I ignored her struggles, and gently took off Ah Li's nightgown, and Ah Li took it off with me while struggling. I called softly, "Ah Li." Ah Li was silent. I gently kissed Ali on the cheek and said, "Ali." Ah Li raised his eyelids and glanced at me, then closed them again. I'm a little sulky, and it's okay to refuse me. But Ah Li is neither refusing nor pandering, but rejecting and pandering all at once, and doing this back and forth over and over again. I kind of wanted to back down, but the situation was ready to go. I couldn't laugh or cry, but I pounced on it anyway. My heart was blank, there was neither the joy of having a successful encounter, nor the unhappiness of the process not going well, just doing the exercise mechanically. Half an hour later, when the battle ended, I rolled over, silently hugged Ah Li, stroked Ah Li's shoulder, and did not speak. 
I don't feel as good as I thought it would be. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that I've always been resistant to ***. Maybe it has something to do with Ah Li, I have a **complex. Men always want themselves and a lot of women**, but they want their women to be **. It's an irreconcilable contradiction, but it's very real in my vulgar mind.
Actually, my ** complex is not so serious. I blame the reason why I don't feel so good on the ** complex, which is more or less just avoiding hurting myself. Ah Li's eyes avoided me throughout, even when I entered, consciously avoiding them. She hid her head behind my neck, even in moments of pleasure.
I blamed this on Ah Li's inner rejection of me. Ah Li, I don't blame you. We're all hurting ourselves.
Go back to your room. I turned on the phone that had been turned off for many days, and there were a lot of text messages, most of which were sent by Wei. Most of them are worried about hearing that you are quitting your job and not being able to find you, etc.
I turned my phone off again.
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