My name is Li Shulan, I am 54 years old and I am a nanny.
I remember being quite happy when I first took the job as a nanny, and I finally had a stable job to support myself. That was two years after I got divorced and searched for a job.
My first employer's name was Ms. Sun, who was more than ten years younger than me and was a beautiful little girl. I go to her house at 8 a.m. every morning, do the cleaning, do the laundry, prepare three meals, and leave at 6 p.m. Ms. Sun has to go to work during the day, but when she comes back, she doesn't help with any housework, and often invites friends to come to the house for dinner and play at night, making a mess of the house. I will secretly complain that she is not sensible, but I can't help it, who makes the family an employer.
After more than two years of such days, Ms. Sun said that if she wanted to go abroad for further study, she would not need me. I found a new employer nearby, a husband and wife family. My wife is at home with the children, and my husband often goes out to work. I take care of their one-and-a-half-year-old daughter every day, pick them up from school, cook and do laundry, and other household chores. Their family is in good condition and they are kind to me.
Within a few months, my wife said that she was going to switch nannies, and her sister had just given birth and needed help, so her sister would come to work for me. I was forced to leave again, bitter and helpless. I finally found this job, but it didn't take long to lose it again.
So I went to apply for a new nanny agency and quickly introduced me to my current employer, Ms. Lin. On the day I came to Ms. Lin's house to work for the first time, I rang the door bell for a long time and no one answered, I stood at the door and waited for more than 10 minutes, and my mobile phone was almost out of battery, only to hear the sound of someone getting up in the house, and slowly paced to open the door for me.
I'm sorry, Auntie, I overslept. "Ms. Lin looked at me with messy hair and a tired face.
I had no place to sprinkle the fire in my belly, so I could only say, "It's okay, then I'll go in and work." ”
Ms. Lin yawned and nodded, turned and crawled back into bed.
I looked at the messy room and the piles of laundry, and a nameless fire rose in my heart. This isn't the first time I've encountered such a casual employer, I think.
In the days that followed, I often encountered Ms. Lin getting up late. I patiently rang the doorbell and texted her, but it was useless, and I had to wait for more than 10 minutes each time.
Once, I couldn't help it anymore and said to her, "Ms. Lin, there is a reason why I come at eight o'clock every day, and I hope you will also respect my time and don't let me wait at the door again." ”
Okay okay, Auntie I know, not next time. Ms. Lin waved her hand impatiently.
However, in the end, she continued to oversleep and I continued to wait at the door. She never seemed to take my words to heart.
Ms. Lin sleeps until 9 o'clock every day, and after eating the breakfast I cooked, she goes out shopping and meeting friends. She spends her days doing nothing, and her home is like a garbage dump. I really couldn't stand it, so I had to do housework while telling her: "Ms. Lin, you have to learn to tidy up your room and life by yourself, and you can't always rely on others." ”
Oh Auntie, I'm just too lazy to clean up. With you, I can have it, and I can happily play. Ms. Lin said as a matter of course.
I was angry, but I couldn't lose my temper with my employer, so I could only mutter: I thought young people would be more independent nowadays.
Ms. Lin made a mess of the house all day long, and pushed all the housework to me to do. In the evening, she often called her friends to eat and drink at home, and played until midnight. When I came the next day, it often took me a morning to clean up the house.
I really couldn't bear it, so I mentioned it to Ms. Lin, hoping that she could clean up by herself and then call a friend. After hearing this, Ms. Lin just giggled and sloppied: "I'm just too lazy to clean up, Auntie, you should exercise, I think you've been a little fat lately!."”
When I heard her say this, I felt humiliated, but I still had to squeeze out a smile on my face: "Then I'll pay attention, you also have to learn to tidy up your own room." ”
I know, I know, I'll try my best. Ms. Lin still looked nonchalant.
Day in and day out, I work at Ms. Lin's house, and in addition to doing housework, I put up with her vexatious trouble.
One day, Ms. Lin asked me to go with her to the class reunion, and I refused at first, but she insisted on me going. When I arrived at the restaurant, Ms. Lin insisted that I sit among her and a few friends, and asked me to help peel the shrimp and pour the wine.
Auntie, come, peel two shrimp for me to eat. ”
Auntie, pour me a beer. ”
Ms. Lin and my friends called me every word, and I was so embarrassed that I blushed to the base of my neck.
Ms. Lin, I think I'd better go back first. You're all right. I couldn't take it anymore and decided to leave.
Oh, Auntie, don't be unhappy, we're just joking, you can eat and drink together!"Ms. Lin grabbed my arm, but I already got up and wanted to leave.
Auntie, don't go, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, it's me who is not good. "Ms. Lin chased me out and stopped me, looking flattering.
I left the hotel without looking back. At this point, I was in a state of extreme anger and could no longer bear such insults.
The next day, I went to Ms. Lin's house for work as usual, but she still looked like she was okay and didn't mention anything about the party.
At noon that day, her colleague on duty came to look for her at home, and when I opened the door, the colleague looked me up and down and sneered, "Yo, Ms. Lin's nanny." Ms. Lin says every day that you are ugly and slow, and your house is so messy that you don't clean up, okay?She also said that you were as embarrassed as an aunt at the party!”
I listened to my heart like a knife, tears rushed to Ms. Lin's room, she was taking a nap, I shook her up heavily, choked up and asked, "What do you say about me?"What the hell do you think of me?”
Ms. Lin looked at me in a daze and said, "Calm down... I'm joking, don't take it personally. ”
Are you kidding?You are insulted!I couldn't control my emotions anymore and walked away.
I seriously considered whether or not to resign. Although I need this job badly, it has already seriously hurt my self-esteem.
Just when I was hesitant to leave, Ms. Lin suddenly talked to me and said that she wanted to apologize to me.
Auntie, I'm sorry, but I know I've gone too far during this time. Ms. Lin had an apologetic look in her eyes, "I'm so selfish that I never consider your feelings." Actually, I need you very much, it's really good that you can help me, I'm not sensible. I'll correct it in the future, give you a raise, work only five days a week, and hire someone to help with the housework... Please give me another chance. ”
I was silent, still weighing whether her words were sincere.
Auntie, I know I'm sorry for you, I really need you. Ms. Lin's eyes were red, and she seemed to be trying her best to hold back tears, "If you leave, I really can't live alone, and the family is so messy, I can't bear it." Please, don't leave me. ”
I looked at her pleading and my heart sank. Maybe I really shouldn't have given up on her, she's still a kid after all.
Well, since you sincerely apologize, I'll give you another chance. I sighed and promised to stay.
Thank you so much, Auntie!Ms. Lin happily hugged me, "I will treat you well, and I will grow." ”
I patted her on the back and thought to myself that maybe I shouldn't blame her, young people have immature times, and I should learn to tolerate.
Since that conversation, Ms. Lin has changed a lot from me, she is no longer vexatious, and her home is kept tidy. Our relationship has grown a lot closer, and I am glad to see her mature day by day.
This job has taught me that the most precious thing between people is mutual understanding and tolerance. I can't just look at the shortcomings of others and ignore what I can improve. Thank you Ms. Lin for giving me this learning opportunity.
Ms. Lin's transformation has shown me the goodness and hope of human nature. I began to reflect on the fact that I should not always complain about this work, but should cherish the growth opportunities it has given me.
One day, Ms. Lin asked me, "Auntie, do you know why I am short of someone to take care of me?"”
I was busy doing the laundry, and without looking up, I said, "Maybe you're too lazy to do your own housework." ”
Not all ... Ms. Lin's voice lowered, "Actually, my parents divorced when I was a child, and I live with my father. When I was a child, my father was very busy with work and didn't have time to take care of me, so I had to take care of myself. ”
I looked at her in surprise, and Ms. Lin's eyes were lonely.
Later, my father drank and gambled heavily, and often beat me to vent. I ran away from home at an early age and worked outside on my own. ”
When I was in college, I met a boyfriend, and I was deceived by him and lost money, and I almost couldn't think about suicide... So you see, I have no fear to be taken care of, but I actually want to make up for the lack of care I lacked back then. ”
Ms. Lin said this, and tears suddenly fell down. I was so distressed that I hurried over and hugged her.
I'm sorry kid, I didn't know you went through so much. I comforted her softly.
It's okay Auntie, I'm doing well now, and I'm not alone with you. Ms. Lin wiped away her tears and smiled reluctantly.
After that, I loved Ms. Lin even more and regarded her as my own daughter. I patiently taught her to do housework and chatted with her to relieve her. She also gradually stopped indulging herself and learned to take care of her own life.
One day, Ms. Lin excitedly told me that she had finally found a good job and could live independently. I'm proud of her, but I'm also a little reluctant to let her leave me.
Auntie, thank you for taking care of me all this year, I can finally stand up on my own. "Ms. Lin hugged me tightly.
Don't thank me so much, it's my greatest gratification that you can grow. If you have any needs in the future, you can always find your aunt. ”
Definitely!I'll come back to see you often. Before I go, I have a gift for you. ”
Ms. Lin took out an envelope from her bag, and inside was a large sum of cash. I was so surprised that I wanted to excuse myself, but Ms. Lin insisted that I accept it.
It's my savings when I was a kid and I haven't spent it. Auntie, you can take it to buy some daily necessities, or do something you like. This is my heart for you, please be sure to accept it. ”
I looked at Ms. Lin's expectant eyes, and finally couldn't bear to refuse, and took her heart.
After Ms. Lin left, I looked for a job at a nanny agency again. The new employer is very happy with me, and in addition to the working hours, my life has become more comfortable.
Occasionally, I will receive a letter from Ms. Lin or **, and I am very pleased to see that her work and life are on the right track. On the road of life, she and I have both grown up. Thank God for allowing us to meet each other and make me grow old and wiser. I will continue to swim, walk, do what I love, and enjoy the little blessings of life.
In my new job, I learned to look at life more positively.
Once, my new boss, Mr. Wang, suddenly lost his temper with me because he thought I hadn't cleaned the house.
Aunt Li, you are so sloppy, what are you still looking for when you are like this!Mr. Wang reproached.
I was stunned at first, thinking that in the past I would immediately refute "I have cleaned carefully", but this time I figured it out and said calmly: "I'm sorry Mr. Wang, I didn't check carefully enough, and it will be improved." ”
Mr. Wang didn't seem to expect that I didn't resist, and his face softened: "Well, then you should pay attention next time." ”
I nodded, knowing that everyone has bad moments and that I should be tolerant.
Facing the tribulations of life calmly has been my most precious gain over the years.
One day, I suddenly received a call from my ex-husband, who said he wanted to see me. Hearing this voice, which I can't remember, my heart skipped a beat, and memories of the past flooded back to me.
Li Shulan, I want to see you one last time and apologize to you, is it okay?The ex-husband's tone was tired.
I was silent for a long time, but I agreed to meet him.
On the day we met, my ex-husband was wrinkled and weak, and he was completely like two people in my impression.
Shulan, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have abandoned you back then... Now I regret not doing it at the beginning. When I heard that your life is still passable, I was relieved. ”
I looked at his cloudy eyes, and somehow, the resentment in my heart had dissipated without a trace: "I live well now, and you can take care of your health." ”
Thank you Shulan, my legs and feet are not very flexible, and I can't take care of life, so I want to see you for the last time, and say sorry to you, so that my heart can be at peace...
My ex-husband said, tears couldn't stop sliding down, and I gently patted the back of his hand: "It's all over, don't be sad, take care of your body." ”
Before leaving, my ex-husband insisted on letting me accept a sum of money, but I refused, saying that he owed me, so I accepted it, but I didn't take it to heart.
Life is long, and I've had so many ups and downs. Now I can finally face it calmly, because every bit of life is my growth.
I began to learn to enjoy solitude, go for a walk in the park alone, read a book by the lake, taste different foods, appreciate the beauty of nature, and feel the joy of life.
I will also take care of myself regularly, do my hair, buy beautiful clothes, take some pictures of my life**, and record my new life status.
Occasionally, I would dig out Ms. Lin's letters, and when I saw that she was working well and living a positive life, I couldn't help but feel that we are all living the glory of life in our own way.
I often think about my life and feel that the more I experience, the more I appreciate what I have now. When I was unhappy, I told myself that the wind and rain are temporary, and the sun is ahead.
I believe in the beauty of life and am grateful for the opportunities it has given me to grow. In the future, I will continue to work hard, enjoy life, enrich myself, and look forward to the next 10 years of life.
Over the years, I have gradually learned to plan my life on my own instead of following the crowd.
I started to teach myself some courses, such as calligraphy, cooking, painting, etc. After spending all my time at work and housework, now I'm going to set aside some time to develop my hobbies.
In the beginning, my calligraphy was ugly, my food was not delicious, and my paintings were not aesthetically pleasing. But I was not discouraged and continued to practice. I have found that a person's progress in life is gradual, and you can't just give up because the initial situation is not smooth.
Slowly, my calligraphy began to take shape, my cooking skills improved, and my painting gradually developed its own style. I feel very relieved and satisfied with this sense of accomplishment.
Sometimes I take photos of my work and post it on social media, and I am pleasantly surprised to find that there are people who like and comment, and my self-confidence has also increased a lot.
I began to learn to make friends on my own initiative. Aunt Liu, who learns calligraphy together, Sister Yang from the gardening community, and Lao Wang next door who dances square dance, we often get together to chat, eat, and encourage each other. Life becomes abundant.
Over time, I've seen a lot of the past. For example, the pain caused by divorcing her ex-husband, and those wayward employers afterward. I no longer complain about the sky, but feel that life is like this, full of ups and downs.
I used to be swayed by my emotions, but now I have learned to take the initiative to change my emotions and stay positive. Get up early every day to do health exercises, bask in the sun for a walk, and listen to **, you will feel in a good mood.
I also re-examine my life. When I was younger, I thought that getting married and having children was the only goal in life, but now I understand that the most important thing is to live a rich and colorful life. I want to live my life to the fullest.
Leaving behind the baggage of the past and starting a new journey is the wisest choice in my life.
It's another year when the Spring Festival comes, and I celebrate the New Year alone as usual. I don't feel lonely like I used to, and now I enjoy this solitude. Eating Chinese New Year's Eve dinner alone and watching the Spring Festival Gala, I also felt very satisfied and happy.
This year, I finally saved up enough money to sign up for a study tour to Europe. It was a dream I had when I was a kid and now it's finally coming true!
When I stood under the Eiffel Tower and looked up at the night view of Paris, and when I stood in the Venetian water city and felt the exotic atmosphere, I was deeply shocked by all this in front of me. The world is so big, and there are infinite possibilities in life!
I know that time is short, but I want to live more fully and let life shine.
After returning to China, I excitedly posted the travel ** to the circle of friends one by one, and everyone was happy for me.
Sister Shulan, you are amazing!Let's go on a trip together in the future!Aunt Liu left a message.
Let me see the world too!Sister Yang said with a smile.
I was very moved. I think life has become more colorful because of the company of a confidant.
I will continue to work hard to live, enjoy the joy of life, and find the meaning of life. In your lifetime, you must love yourself and the people around you, and face difficulties bravely, because the sunshine will always come.
I believe that there will be more wonderful stories in the future, and I will always be on the road to growth.