Qiqi can't remember what the first romance ** was now, and the deepest impression was "Liangsheng, Can We Not Be Sad" that I watched in the small dormitory in the third year of high school. I got good grades that year, applied to a small dormitory, and cried every night with MP4 in my arms.
The next day, her eyes were red and swollen, and the head teacher thought that Qiqi was working too hard, and persuaded her with a little distress that she should pay attention to the combination of work and rest.
Before I started working, I loved to watch idol dramas, and maybe since then, my love brain has begun to grow, and I am delusional that my future lover is 180 cm tall, handsome, considerate and rich.
Later, I found out that it was not that there was no such person, but that she could not meet this kind of person. Maybe many men don't understand why girls love to watch idol dramas and romances**, a kind of sustenance that the reality is unsatisfactory.
We believe that love exists, but we don't believe that love can happen to us. What is love?The couple is deeply affectionate, their hearts are connected, they never give up, and growing old together is love.
Qiqi does not envy those young couples who hug and hug, she envies the grandparents who hold hands and walk together in the sunset, they may have suffered a lot, maybe quarreled many times, but in the end they still chose to walk hand in hand.
Qiqi also tried hard to fight for it, but the results were unsatisfactory. It is said that Scorpio is free and easy, don't want what you can't get, and delete those who don't like it.
Sometimes she thinks negatively, if it's mine, it's mine after all, and if it's not mine, she can't grab it.
Is it her problem to even start reflecting?Is she asking too much of him?But it's the details that matter. He knew that she had a fever but excused himself from buying medicine, and he knew that she minded Sansan but kept in touch.
She wanted to get along with him, even if it didn't work out.
She saw a passage: Life is just a superposition of various experiences, as long as you want, you can do those seemingly meaningless things, such as being in a daze, watching the sunrise, your experience is the greatest meaning. Life is not necessarily about doing things that everyone thinks are meaningful, meaning is given by oneself. Life is a wilderness, not a track, as long as you are enjoying the moment, it is meaningful.
That's what she thought at the time, so what if there was no result?It was enough to be happy and content.
When do people need love?Love is an emotional need, and if there is enough friendship support, Qiqi doesn't want love at all, which is more bitter than sweet.
But there is no complete friendship, she can, her friend cannot. After graduating from college, friends who have a good time are all over the world, and it is difficult to see each other.
Former high school classmates are either adrift in the big city, or get married and have children, and they have long since lost a common topic.
According to the law of conservation of energy, the absence of one emotion needs to be supplemented by another, or it is not impossible to follow the same path as them.
It's a tragedy, and it's a reality that retreats to the next best. Love is like quicksand, but what about friendship?