In the evening, when Nudahai and Yan Ji were alone, Nuda Hai could no longer be silent, and he said to Yan Ji, "I don't think it is possible for you to understand everything between me and the new moon, and it is impossible for you to understand all this, but I still hope that you will accept the new moon!" ”
Don't you care about anything anymore? She asked angrily, "Don't you even care about Jiyuan's feelings?" ”
I can't interfere anymore! "She had tears in her eyes, I don't know, what were her tears for? He took a deep breath and looked up at her, his eyes filled with deep sadness and pain. "I really can't release her anymore, even if I make my child feel sad and make your heart feel like a knife, I feel helpless! Yan Ji, I beg your forgiveness! ”
Nudahae resolutely swears his sovereignty to Yan Ji and makes it clear that he believes that Crescent Moon must be his wife without considering the emotions of his family.
What Nudahai said caused harm to Yan Ji. This 17-year-old young girl, just because of her youth and beauty, has completely won the heart of Nudahai?
In my opinion, Nudahai has its own strategy and plan for every step of the crescent. From the moment they first met, Nudahai had her own plans and thoughts. While the outside world may think that he likes the youth and beauty of the new moon, in my eyes, a 40-year-old man, because of his outstanding record, could like a girl who is younger than his daughter, and his reputation and interests will be damaged for her sake?
In my opinion, the new moon does not represent true love, she always has her own unique thinking and strategy.
The crescent moon is not only young but also beautiful, and has a strong attraction for the 40-year-old Nuda Hai, but this is only a superficial phenomenon.
Nudahai, who is over 40 years old, has a boy and a girl in his family, and his parents are still alive, and the two have a harmonious relationship.
He had always been the emperor's trusted man, and for many years, he had only married Yan Ji, and the generals under his command had their own side rooms, but he had never chosen to do so.
The outside world generally thinks that he is a competent and good man, and Yan Ji also feels that she has a deep relationship with her husband, and her husband has never changed his mind.
Their eldest son, Jiyuan, is nineteen years old this year. Luo Lin was born in the same year as New Moon, but she just turned seventeen this year.
This pair of children has always been a source of pride for Nudahai. Compared to his impressive achievements, this makes him even more happy and proud.
However, when Nudahai is over 40 years old, is he really happy with his current life?
For him, Yan Ji is just a virtuous and virtuous wife who has been with him for many years, but for other emotional needs and life visions, Yan Ji never seems to really understand him.
No one wants to share the confusion and confusion of this man who often participated in wars and was ready to sacrifice his life for his country, although his warm family life may have plunged him deeply.
Nudahai is by no means an ordinary person, he is known as a "hero" in the eyes of everyone, and he is also the emperor's right-hand man, who has made great contributions to the country.
The emperor ordered him to go to Jingzhou to rescue him, and he succeeded in rescuing Xinyue. Faced with the loss of his parents, he resisted the grief in his heart and told her, "I have a daughter of your age, and her name is Luolin. Whenever she was treated unfairly, she would hug me tightly and cry. There's really no need for you to hide your tears in front of me! ”
At home, only Ama and E-Niang would call me 'Crescent Moon', but from now on, no one will call me Crescent Moon anymore! These are the first words a mother can say to her child. The more she spoke, the more her heart ached, as if "everything is gone!" ”
Seeing the pitiful appearance of the crescent moon, Nudahai called out "crescent moon", and the crescent moon immediately threw herself into the crook of his arm, crying silently.
Since that incident, a deep understanding has formed between her and Nudahai that is difficult to describe in words. She is a person who is very fond of expressing her feelings with her eyes. Often just by looking at or moving, you can gain insight into a certain emotional fluctuation in the other person's heart.
Perhaps from this moment on, the new moon began to transfer her strong desire for fatherly love to Nudaha, who was about the same age as her father. Not only did Nudahai save her life, but she herself had very little contact with men. The heroic temperament displayed by Nudahai is enough to make a young girl fall for it.
At this moment, the new moon is not sure whether she really likes Nudahai or prefers the feeling of both fatherly love and heroic temperament in Nudahai.
After the new moon returned to the palace, the Queen Mother could not bear to place her and her brother in the palace, fearing that there would be too many rules, but Nudahai volunteered to take on this heavy responsibility.
The new moon was naturally full of joy and followed Nudahai, giving her a sense of security, so she agreed to Nudahai's request without hesitation.
Crescent Moon lost both of her parents at the age of 17 and felt insecure.
When she and her brother first set foot in the palace, she noticed that Nudahai's family, especially his wife, Yan Ji, were full of selflessness and honesty in her eyes, which were both noble and elegant.
Her heart was beating violently again, and she choked in her throat, and she looked around, only to find that she could not say a word.
She was afraid that she would not be able to fit into the family, and when her parents died, she lost her support, and she had a young brother who lived under the protection of others, so she had her own plan, and in the days to come, she would follow Nudahai.
After that, Crescent Moon's younger brother Keshan unfortunately fell ill and was dying, which made Crescent Moon feel extreme heartache. She guarded her brother with doubts and confusion, and when Nudahai saw this, she did not hesitate to risk her life and also joined her team to take care of her brother together.
This touched her deeply, and whenever she needed the company of others, Nudahai was by her side to help her through difficult times.
From this moment on, Crescent Moon's affection for Nudahai is no longer just a simple liking, she longs to be with him forever.
Regarding the inner world of the new moon, Nudahai will definitely not be ignorant. He is well aware that his son has a crush on Crescent Moon and that his daughter is about the same age as Crescent Moon and is his close friend. However, he still couldn't control his emotions and took the initiative to break this complicated relationship. Nudahai kissed the crescent moon affectionately, causing the crescent moon to completely fall into the vortex of emotion.
Nudaha's friendly behavior makes Crescent Moon suddenly realize, and she becomes more courageous and takes the initiative to express her feelings to Nudahai.
Yan Ji discovered Nuda Hai's abnormal behavior, and after Yan Ji's persuasion, Nuda Hai finally calmed down, overcame her emotional barrier, fought alone, and successfully avoided the new moon.
However, when Crescent Moon witnesses Nudahai leaving, she unexpectedly goes alone to find Nudaha. During this period, Nudahai suffered defeat and injury, and his heart was very heavy. But when Crescent Moon comes to her, the relationship between the two undergoes a profound transformation.
At this moment, the new moon, facing Nudahai's loved ones, simply expressed this opinion: "My purpose is to join this family, not to destroy it." ”
In that historical period, it was common for men to practice polygamous marriage. When Crescent Moon sees that every member of Nudaha's family is doing well, she recalls her family, where she has no parents and only a younger brother. Therefore, from her point of view, if she likes Nudahai, she will also accept every member of Nudahai's family.
She longed for the warmth of that lost home from Nudahai's home, especially considering that she was only 17 years old.
Therefore, what she said is completely in line with her actual situation and inner state. But to her surprise, Yan Ji, who is usually regarded as noble and friendly, seems to have changed her face after experiencing Nudahae's betrayal and begins to target her.
Crescent's family is disgusted with her and even strongly hostile to her, which deepens her dependence on Nudahai. Despite the fact that she is still young, this behavior of hers has caused harm to everyone.
She chose Nudahai mainly because Nudahai was not only the savior of her life, but also filled with a deep care for her and developed a deep emotional bond with her.
After the double whammy of war and the loss of her parents, Crescent Moon has a strong desire for security as a traditional woman. In her limited field of vision, only Nudahai can provide her with this sense of security.
The purpose of marrying the new moon is to get rid of the crisis of midlife.
Nudahay saw his son, daughter, and wife all berating the crescent moon, and it made him feel terrible pain in his heart. He doesn't hesitate to want to protect the crescent, but as he wants to protect it more and more, the hostility towards the crescent grows.
The son drifted away from him, the daughter turned a deaf ear to him, and the once gentle Yan Ji now became incomprehensible and confronted him. She tortured Crescent Moon in all ways, including splashing water and kicking her feet, and she always believed that it was because of Crescent's young and beautiful face that her husband would stay away from her.
Therefore, she expressed this opinion to her daughter Luolin: "I can't hold your Amma's heart firmly and I can't resist a young face, why is that? ”
From my point of view, Yan Ji never seemed to be aware that in fact, whether or not the new moon appeared, there had been some twists and turns in her marriage relationship with Nudahae, although on the outside everything seemed to be harmonious.
As people enter middle age, Nudahai is actually at risk for their careers.
The book mentions that if that crescent moon hadn't followed, Nudahai might have ended his life long ago.
He looked up and sighed deeply, gripping the handle of the sword in his hand, and the sword was pulled out of its sheath. "General, what shall we do? Behind him, his close friend Ahsan led a group of surviving brothers, all of whom fell to their knees. "General, think twice! The crowd shouted in unison: "General, think twice!" He said, "Let's go!" "Is there anything else to think about? He turned his head and said firmly to everyone present: "You must all retreat!" ”
Therefore, the appearance of the new moon brings a powerful impetus to Nudahai's heart. He explained why he would commit suicide if he lost the battle. For a general who has been commanding the army for a long time, he cannot be so fragile inside, mainly because of his family background.
Since it is widely believed that Nudahai's actions are wrong, and Nudahai realizes this, he decides to go on an expedition to get rid of his emotional distress and hopes to end his hopes for the new moon by dying.
However, Yan Ji knows nothing about all of this, and despite her deep love for Nudahae, she has never been able to truly understand her husband.
Therefore, there is a problem in the marriage between Yan Ji and Nuda Hai, and it is not just because of the participation of the new moon, but Yan Ji has never realized it.
When Nudahai suffered a setback, she would never choose to let go of everything and care for and comfort him wholeheartedly. Because deep down in her heart, she thinks everything is traditional and doesn't know that even the most powerful men can have moments of vulnerability, helplessness and lack of love.
Bacon once expressed the opinion that "as powerful as men appear to be omnipotent on the surface, they are in fact controlled and dominated by the great love behind them." ”
In fact, what Nudahai is looking for is a partner who can comfort him emotionally and support him spiritually.
Men are also flesh and blood beings, and they also need to be understood and loved. Even the great general Nudahai, who has experienced countless battles and enjoyed a lifetime of honor and outstanding achievements, no matter how determined he is on the outside, there is inevitably a vulnerable and helpless part in his heart.
However, Yan Ji blames Nudaha's change of heart entirely on lust and love, and from this point of view, she is destined to take a completely different path from Nudahai.
Nudahai is facing a mid-life dilemma, and his marriage is also facing challenges. He chose the new moon, but he actually had his own plan behind it. As time goes by, his heart grows old, and he needs a woman who understands him to comfort him.
After that, Nudahai died to protect his son, and Crescent Moon lives and dies with him, even though the love between them hurts everyone emotionally.
Despite this, Crescent Moon's feelings for Nudahai have reached the point of life and death. From this point of view, perhaps only the new moon can help Nudahai realize his dream of love.
Despite this, Nudahai's deep love and concern for the new moon makes a 17-year-old young girl willing to give up her precious life just to follow him, a fate that is full of emotion.
Crescent Moon is completely immersed in her love, but she forgets her young brother Katsusun and what her parents told her before they died. From this point of view, it also reflects the immaturity and irrationality of the new moon.
Hayao Miyazaki once said, "Don't rely too much on one person, because it will become your norm." When we are apart, it is not a specific person that is lost, but your spiritual support. No matter where you are, you should learn to move on your own, which will make you walk more calmly. ”
In fact, love is not the whole of life, for everyone, there are more important things than love, no matter what stage of life you are in, as long as you have not fallen, you should move on.