I am Qingqing, born in 1990 in a small mountain village in Weifang, Shandong.
I was content to live until now, and according to my mother, I had convulsions as soon as I was born, and the straw came to the house, and then an old lady fumigated me with wormwood.
Ten years ago, after graduating from university, I came to Beijing alone.
The reason why I chose Beipiao is very simple, because I am from Shandong, and Beijing is the closest first-tier city to my hometown. While I'm young, I want to go ahead and see if I can make a difference in this big city.
When I was 18 years old, my family had a huge upheaval. I used to think that my family was very happy, and my parents opened a restaurant in their hometown, which was not bad.
However, that year, I learned the truth that the restaurant run by my father had long been in debt, and he had incurred a lot of debt due to his long-term blind investment.
These debts have torn down the family's finances and made family relationships unstable. When I returned to school during the winter vacation of my sophomore year, my roommates were nostalgic for the joy of the New Year, but I was looking forward to returning to school on the first day of the new year.
The atmosphere in the house was tense, and once I was a little louder, my father slapped me. This made me very aggrieved and sad, and I began to have a cold war with my father.
Later, I received a ** from the counselor teacher, who told me that my father asked me to quit school immediately to work and earn money. I confessed my mistake to the teacher and asked him to help stabilize my father's emotions.
Aside from me, the relationship between my parents and my dad was already very strained. Dad is very egoistic, and Mom is very thoughtful and assertive, and I can see that they are not suitable for me from a young age.
Dad is always high-minded and machismo, and never takes into account his mother's opinion when making decisions, which makes his mother insecure.
That year, my father was in debt, and I took the opportunity to divorce them, although I might be scolded for being unfilial to my children and grandchildren. But I think divorce is good for all three of us, and it is.
After the divorce, Dad was no longer harsh on Mom. My dad had a girlfriend, and my mom and I lived together. Our lives are finally no longer full of chickens and dogs.
I studied international ** major in college and Xi in a foreign trade company for a few months, but what I really loved at that time was actually computers. So, I resolutely devoted myself to the computer industry and worked hard for three or four years. I started as a junior web editor and worked my way up to content operations and market development.
In the process, I have put in a lot of effort and achieved a lot.
Although my material conditions are not bad, I feel very lonely inside.
As a person who came from the countryside to the city, I dare not slack off. My colleagues met for dinner and shopping after work, but I could only stick to my job.
Even on weekends and holidays, I'm working overtime or improving myself. After a long time, it seemed that there was nothing else to do in my life except work.
Despite my hard work and tactfulness, it will take at least a dozen years to get promoted, let alone buy a house. And for those who have the resources, they are quickly promoted. You probably don't spend as much time as you do a few jobs.
My job is like boiling a frog in warm water. After all, no matter how bad the mix is, I won't starve to death. Day after day, I don't like this kind of life, but I am not willing to give up it, and my fighting spirit gradually wears off in the process.
The biggest problem faced by many people in Beipiao is not the hard work of work, not the grievances suffered, but the feeling of homelessness. In the process of moving again and again, when walking on the brightly lit streets of Beijing, looking at the warm lights of countless families, you will ask yourself again and again, when will I be able to have a home that truly belongs to me?
As I get older, I feel more and more lonely, but the firewood, rice, oil and salt in life also make me feel the color of life. I started more social activities, I also met my current husband, and together we built a small warm family. In just 40 days, we experienced the miracle of flash love and flash marriage.
I know that it takes courage to marry a Beijinger as a wife, because they have a very strong mouth, and they are poor, straight, and damaged. After all, people who grew up under the roots of the imperial city have seen all kinds of things since they were children, so their mouths are particularly eloquent, from astronomy to geography, from spring and snow to the people of Xiariba, they can analyze the Tao.
Over a decade of being married, we've had occasional petty arguments over different opinions. But we never hurt each other's feelings, and we never appear in those bloody plots that are common in TV dramas. We enjoy that kind of ordinary married life, which seems ordinary, but has real happiness and warmth.
However, I love this life and this energetic and passionate lifestyle. I believe that as long as we understand and support each other, our lives will be better and better.