My father left us forever in February of this year, having passed away from a lung infection caused by a long stay in bed after a second cerebral hemorrhage. After his illness, he was bedridden for a full year, and never left the hospital from the time he was admitted to the hospital until he died. During this period, although his consciousness was very clear and his language function was basically normal, he finally died because his lung function was too seriously degenerated and there was no good ** effect. In the dying days, although his father was reluctant to give up on the world, he also had a general ** about his ending, and finally had to accept it helplessly. My eldest brother and I are very sad about my father's departure, but every time we see his poor quality of life in the hospital, we are also very entangled in our hearts, neither do we want him to leave us, nor do we want to watch him suffer so much every day.
During the long time my father left us, I would occasionally look through the ** that the nurse sent me during his hospitalization, and I would also recall his life in the dead of night. But in the past year, he has never been willing to write about him, everything about him, it's not that he can't write it, it's really hard to say, and the pain he suffered from illness in the last year is mostly caused by his bad life Xi habits. I don't want to remember everything about him, mainly because memories have to face both his loving side and his own incompromising side. Over the years, my eldest brother and I have lived a relatively decent life through unremitting efforts and hard work, and my father could have enjoyed his old age in peace, but his bad Xi of daily drinking eventually killed him, and finally put his life into it.
My father was very fond of drinking, and he had to drink almost every day after work, and he had to drink it properly, that is, he would get drunk every time he drank. Although he will lie down and sleep quietly when he is drunk, such a long-term drinking Xi brings endless trouble to his mother, and he must be taken care of at all times. More than ten years ago, I worked in Chengdu, my eldest brother worked in Qingdao, and my mother and father lived in Gaomi. My mother was taken to Qingdao by my eldest brother to carry out whole-body health conditioning. During the three months that my mother lived in Qingdao, my father hated drinking at his brother's house and was not free, so he stubbornly asked to live alone in Gaomi. He drank alcohol every day at home by himself, and every time he boiled eggs in boiling water for snacks, he was hospitalized with a sharp increase in cholesterol. Mom returned to Gaomi from Qingdao overnight to take care of him, but less than a month, he was in a car accident in Malushan and left us forever. My mother's unexpected departure caused my eldest brother and me the greatest pain in our lives, and I still can't let go of it to this day. At the same time, my eldest brother and I also had a lot of opinions about my father's undisciplined behavior in life. In our hearts, although my mother's departure was an accident, there was a direct reason for my father's drinking. With such complicated feelings, in the days when my mother left us, we persuaded my father every day to take good care of our body, and that we could drink alcohol, but not alcohol. But my father never listened to our advice, and continued to go his own way, until the day before he fell ill and fell ill, he drank nearly a pound of wine every day. My eldest brother and I were angry about this, but we couldn't do anything about it, and we asked him to live with us, but my father refused us because he was not free.