She is a girl who craves the warmth of her parents, but is considered superfluous from an early age. After she was born, because she was a girl, her parents never paid enough attention to her. The father is machismo, often violent, and the mother is an honest rural woman who listens to her father for everything. The older sister was taken with her while she was thrown to her grandparents. She thought that she could win the attention of her parents by studying hard, but her parents never praised her. At that time, she hardly wore new clothes, all of which were worn by her sister.
However, even so, she still longs to be loved by her parents one day. When I was a child, I was rarely taken to visit the New Year, because there were always many things to do at home. And whenever I had a conflict with my sister and brother, I was always beaten alone. This unfairness made me want to give up, but I struggled to grow like a tenacious weed. After finishing elementary and junior high school in the countryside, I was admitted to a key high school in the county, but my father did not approve of me continuing my studies. After lobbying by the village chief, my father reluctantly agreed.
When I was in high school in the county seat, I felt the prosperity of the city, but I also deeply felt the gap between myself and others. Although I studied hard, my father thought that I should go to work to earn money. I insisted on continuing my studies, and even wrote him an IOU, promising to pay him back in the future. At that time, I was slapped by my father, but I was already numb. Since then, I have been more frugal, eating only rice and vegetarian dishes, and even secretly looking for a place to eat. After a long time, I had physical problems, but fortunately I had the help of my homeroom teacher and classmates.
After three years of hard work, I was admitted to a 211 university in another province, and I saw my father smile a little because of me. But the smile quickly faded because I mentioned the tuition fees. I decided that I would rely on my own efforts to finish college no matter what, whether it was my father's money or applying for student loans on my own. In the four years of college, I have been struggling, except for going home during the Spring Festival, the rest of the time I have been on the way to work-study and part-time work. I earn my own living expenses and work hard to save for school fees. I told myself that I could only rely on myself.
In the process, I was deceived and disappointed, but I persevered. In college, I met a lot of kind classmates and kind employers, and even met my significant other. At first, I never thought he would notice me, let alone fall in love or get married, because the shadow of my family terrified me. He was the deputy head of the publicity department of the school's student union, and I saw him most often when I was working in the student union, cleaning various offices. I was always obscure and just worked seriously.
Maybe it's because I've been used to housework and labor since I was a child, so these jobs are simple for me. I didn't feel embarrassed because it was my way of earning my living expenses. At that time, he was not handsome, he looked a little tall, but he was not serious at all, and he was always smiling. It is said that many girls have a crush on him, but he has never dated any of them. Occasionally, I would secretly look at him and wonder why those girls liked him, but I didn't like him myself, I liked the kind of steady guys who gave me a sense of security.
Although I know he's nice to me and will say, "The office doesn't need this, you can take it back." Who left this thing, if you don't take it, you will throw it away. But I never thought much about it, because I don't have a background, I don't know how to socialize, and I can be recognized by others just because I look good, but I'm rustic and simple. Every holiday, I also receive a text message from him to me, the content is very formal and polite, he says yes. I just replied lightly: "Happy holidays to you."
Gradually, I could feel his special attention to me, but I pretended not to know. Before graduating from college, he found me and confessed to me, and he said he liked me. I asked him, "How long can a person's liking last?""In the end, I didn't promise him. It's not because I don't have a good impression of him, but because I know that I don't have a foundation for love now. I also have to give him back all the money my father paid for my schooling. After graduating, I came to Hangzhou, where I got a job and started my career.
What I didn't expect, however, was that he found me through various channels while working in Shanghai. I thought we would just be passers-by, but he told me he couldn't forget my stubborn figure. Eventually, after he pursued me for more than two years, I became his girlfriend. She has always been insecure, but she longs for love. She wants to find someone to walk through this life together. In those years, most of the money she saved was sent home, and she felt that she didn't owe anything to her parents anymore.
When she told her parents that she was going to get married, they politely said, "Don't blame us, the family was poor and ...... back then."She thought she should let go of this, after all, her parents gave her life and made her feel the beauty of this world. She had been through an unhappy marriage, and it was a scar in the history of her marriage. But she did not give up her desire for love because of this. Eventually, she meets a man who can give her a sense of security. At that time, she finally dared to speak out about her heart's deepest desires.
She wants a true love, a relationship that can be inseparable from each other. In those years, in order to save money, she lived a very frugal life every day. Most of her money was sent home, and she didn't want to owe her family anything. She knew that her family was also working hard, and there was no way they could provide her with better conditions. She felt that she had to change her life on her own. Now, she is finally getting married. When she told her parents the news, they spoke in a polite tone, as if they were apologizing to her.
But she didn't blame them, after all, they gave her life and made her see the beauty of this world. She knows that she has to work hard for the future of herself and her family, and will not let life knock her down again. She believes that her future will be even brighter.