Tonight was the day I agreed to meet Xiaolong, I looked at my watch, it was close to 8 o'clock in the evening, I tidied up my hair and clothes, and prepared to go out. "Mom, where are you going?”
Just as I was about to go out, my daughter Xiaoyu happened to pass by, and she looked at me dressed up beautifully and asked curiously. "Oh, Mommy's going shopping, you and your dad are going to eat first.
I pretended to be casual and hurriedly dealt with Xiaoyu. "I don't wait for my dad to go shopping. Xiao Yu muttered. "Your dad has a meeting, so I'll go first and come back soon. ”
I pushed her back to her room and walked out of the house quickly. Looking back now, the beginning of me and Xiaolong was really dramatic. Three years ago, on a rainy night, my car broke down in the middle of the road, and I had no choice but to stop on the side of the road, and I heard the thunder again, and I regretted that I had gone out.
At this moment, a silver sports car stopped in front of me, and the window rolled down to reveal a man wearing sunglasses: "Need help?"His voice was low**. I hesitated, but got into his car.
It was a stormy night, but when I talked to him, it felt very warm. He took off his coat for me, the heating was on in the car, and we just talked.
His name is Xiaolong, he is an entrepreneur, he is divorced, and he lives alone.
I dropped you off that night and watched you get out of the car and into the house, and I waited a little longer in the car. Later, Xiaolong told me. "Why are you waiting for me to come into the house?I asked him.
Yes, it was by such a chance that I met Xiaolong. After that, he reached out to me, and we started dating and dating. I know that this relationship is not normal, I have been married for many years and my husband is very good to me and my children.
But with Xiaolong, I feel like I'm alive again. He likes to take me to fine dining restaurants and drive me to scenic spots in the suburbs on weekends. Once, he even took me to the island, just the two of us, enjoying the sun and sand under the blue sea and blue sky.
Ame, are you happy with me?"Xiaolong often asks me. "Well, it's fun. I told him. Indeed, with him, I felt the passion and heartbeat that I had not felt for a long time.
It's not something my husband can give me, it's too plain and too stable. I enjoy the excitement and joy that the little dragon brings me. Xiaolong stood by the window and looked at me, with a faint smile on his lips.
He came over and hugged me and kissed me lingeringly. "I miss you so much. He whispered in my ear.
I also hugged him tightly and inhaled deeply, and the familiar smell of perfume on his body reassured me. We sat on the edge of the bed, and he took out the red wine and fruit he had prepared and poured me a glass.
How's your work going?He asked with concern. "It's okay, the company has been thinking about a big project recently, so it's busy. I smiled. "Then we might see each other less after that?
He was a little lost. "I'll adjust the time, I'm happiest to see you. I took his hand. We chatted casually, from work to daily life.
Little dragons always make me feel relaxed. "By the way, the last trip to the Maldives mentioned, I have already booked the flight and hotel. Xiaolong said suddenly. "Really?Great!"I was so excited.
My heart is full of anticipation, and the time I spend with Xiaolong is the best part of my life. That night, we leaned against the head of the bed and laughed, and before I knew it, I fell asleep in his arms.
Want to go home so early?He asked, confused. "Well, I need to go home and prepare breakfast, you can go to bed first. I kissed him lightly on the forehead. "Be careful on the road.
He told me. I drove home, thinking in my mind that I wanted to make the disguise seamless. When I get home, I try to look as calm as I normally would. "Ame, you're back?
The husband was having breakfast. "Well, I was too late to shop last night, so I stayed outside. "I'm proficient at telling lies. "It's okay, it's not safe for you to drive back so late. My husband nodded, believing my lie.
I breathed a sigh of relief and went into the kitchen to prepare breakfast for myself. On the surface, it seems to be a peaceful life, but there is a burning passion hidden inside. That's my unique double life.
At noon that day, I went to work as usual. As soon as I entered the office, I received a message from Xiaolong. "I miss you early in the morning, come to my company after work.
I looked at the message and laughed to myself. This straightforward little dragon is completely different from his colleague Mr. Zhang. Mr. Zhang is a very steady and introverted person who rarely expresses his feelings.
Over the years, he has been as kind to me as ever, regularly sending flowers and asking me out for dinner. But it lacks passion and is too peaceful. Xiaolong is different, he is enthusiastic and unrestrained, and likes to make me feel loved.
After work in the afternoon, I drove to Xiaolong's company. When he saw me, his eyes lit up: "My baby, here you are!"."Go to your office and don't let anyone see it."
I reminded him. "Don't worry, it's just me and the secretary. "Xiaolong brought me into the office.
His assistant had already sensed the delicate relationship between us, and just smiled and left. Kobayashi closed the door and hugged me eagerly. I was nervous, for fear someone would break in.
It's not convenient here, let's go home. I gently pushed him away. Xiao Lin was a little disappointed, but still agreed: "Then let's drive back to my house." "When I arrived at Kobayashi's apartment, I finally breathed a sigh of relief.
He prepared a sumptuous dinner and champagne for me, and as night fell, we sat on the balcony and chatted while enjoying the night view. "From now on, I will bring you here every month to live as our love house. ”
Kobayashi said. I smiled and nodded, thinking that I would find an excuse to hide from my husband, Mr. Zhang. I got up on my own and looked at the completely different layout of the room, everything here made me feel fresh and excited.
Before leaving, I noticed the picture frame on Kobayashi's desk, which was my **. It turned out that he was thinking about me all the time.
When I got home, my husband and children were there, and the family was sitting at the table for lunch. "Ah Mei worked late last night. The husband said with concern. "yes, the project is in a hurry.
I lied with a smile on my face. "Mom, don't be too tired. "My daughter Xiaoyu looked up at me. I smiled weakly, I didn't expect that I had been secretly dating Xiaolong for many years.
However, just when everything seemed to be calm, I suddenly received a message from Xiaolong, saying that he needed to go abroad for a month recently. I'm a little lost, I haven't seen Xiaolong for a month, it's too long for me.
Although it is possible to connect, not being able to get close to each other still makes people feel empty. One day, a colleague said to me, "Amei, your face doesn't look good, is it because of too much work pressure?""That's when I noticed that I looked depressed because I missed the dragon.
Maybe it's the change of seasons, and I'm starting to pay attention to keeping warm. "I found an excuse to cover it up. My colleague's words reminded me that I had to maintain a normal life and not let my husband, Mr. Zhang, notice my abnormality.
So, I started grooming myself, buying new clothes, putting on light makeup, and looking refreshed. In the evening, Mr. Zhang saw the changes in me and said with a smile, "Amei, have you gained a little weight recently?"
Looks much more energetic. "yes, maybe I've had a better rest lately. "I continued to pretend. "Dad, is Mom in love, that's why she is so energetic?”
Daughter Xiaoyu said with a wink. "What nonsense!I pretended to reproach her, but I was suffocated with nervousness. The agreed month passed quickly, and on the day Xiaolong returned, I drove to the airport to pick him up.
Seeing him appear at the exit, I was so excited that I almost cried out.
Me too, and I'm so happy to see you back. ”
In the joy of our reunion, my good mood was broken. One day, I received a ** from a strange woman, who claimed to be Xiaolong's ex-girlfriend Qin Sisi. "Hello, who are you from Xiaolong?
I asked warily. "I'm his ex-girlfriend and just want to say hello, after all, he now has a new love. Qin Sisi's tone sounded very leisurely. My heart immediately sank: "What did you say?".Xiaolong has ever been married?”
Ah, I don't think he told you. Qin Si thought clearly, "We've been breaking up for a year. But the relationship is not bad, so I will say hello when he comes back from a business trip.
I felt that the world was spinning, and it turned out that Xiaolong was hiding such an important thing from me. I immediately questioned Xiaolong, who was obviously confused by my sudden question. "You came back from a business trip and you met your ex-girlfriend?I asked excitedly.
I suddenly realized that he was begging me to calm down and listen to his explanation. I listened to him explain and felt mixed emotions in my heart. I needed time to think about the impact this had on our relationship.
In the days that followed, I couldn't help but think of Xiaolong's lies. He would message me from time to time, but it would take me time to regain my trust in him. One day, Xiaoyu saw me sitting in the yard in a daze, and came over to me and asked, "Mom, have you been in trouble lately?"Always looks annoying. ”
Mom is fine, it's just a little annoying at work. "I pretended to be relaxed. "Mom, if you have any sadness, just say it, you taught me before. ”
Xiaoyu said coquettishly. I softened my heart, hugged her and said, "Mom will be fine, trust me." "Perhaps what really matters is to face the problem and rebuild trust.
I shouldn't completely dismiss this relationship because of Xiaolong's mistakes. So, I sent a message to Xiaolong and invited him to go for a walk in the countryside and have a good talk.
Xiaolong was so excited that he came to my house early in the morning to pick me up. As we slowly walked along the trail in the countryside, I took a deep breath and opened up to the dragon again.
Finally we sat by the lake, and I leaned on the shoulder of the little dragon. The fog that fills the surface of the lake also seems to wash away our past. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have hidden. He whispered.
I've forgiven you. "I closed my eyes. We all need courage to keep going. After regaining trust with Xiaolong, I started thinking about my marriage.
Mr. Zhang is a good husband and father who has given me a lot of peace over the years. However, our lives are too dull and lack passion. One night, Mr. Zhang saw me sitting on the edge of the bed in a daze, and asked with concern, "Have you encountered any problems recently?"Always sad face. ”
Oh?Is it?Maybe it's because the work is a bit stressful. "I came to my senses. "But also pay attention to your body and don't wear yourself out. Mr. Zhang gently persuaded me as usual.
Suddenly, I had an urge to confess my double life to Mr. Zhang. "How would you react if you found out that I did something sorry for you?I asked tentatively.
Mr. Zhang thought for a while: "If we can still fix it, I will choose to understand and forgive you." After all, the relationship needs to be maintained by both parties. I was surprised by his mature and sensible answer.
It seems that Mr. Zhang is much more reasonable than I thought. He was in a meeting and the secretary told me it might be an hour. I chose to wait at a nearby café.
However, to my surprise, in the café, I saw Mr. Zhang and a young and beautiful woman smiling sweetly. It turned out that Mr. Zhang also hid something from me. He's out there, too, looking for the missing half.
I didn't bother them hastily, but left silently. It seems that our marriage has long since died in name. On the way home, I felt incredibly relaxed. It turns out that I am not the only one who has secrets, and so is Mr. Zhang.
Perhaps behind all tired marriages, there are unspeakable secrets. Mr. Zhang and I both have issues that need to be dealt with. So I plucked up the courage and sent a message to Mr. Zhang, saying that it was time for us to have a good talk.
On the weekend, Mr. Zhang arrived as promised. We sat at our favorite restaurant, eating and talking about our hearts. Eventually, we all spoke up honestly.
If the relationship has deteriorated, there is no point in continuing to reluctantly. "Maybe we need to calm down for a while and it will be better for the people around us. Mr. Zhang finally said.
I nodded, and the stone in my heart fell to the ground. A new journey is about to begin. After separation, I will spend more time with my children and work. Xiaolong will also understand my choice.
The most beautiful ending of some emotions is to let go of each other and move forward calmly. After a series of changes, I decided to put aside my ties with Xiaolong for a while and focus on my own life.
At first, Xiaolong begged me not to leave him, but he said that he would correct his problems and give me all his heart. I understand his intentions, but I need to be independent. After expressing my thoughts gently, Xiaolong reluctantly accepted the fact of the breakup.
If you want to start all over again in the future, I will always be here. "On the day of the breakup, Xiaolong said to me with red eyes. I nodded, my heart filled with gratitude to him. This relationship allowed me to experience another life, but I knew it couldn't last forever.
Returning to my daily life, I re-examine my life. As a middle-aged person, I still have a long way to go. After separating from Mr. Zhang, I tried not to rely on anyone anymore and live alone. At first, I thought time was passing very slowly, and I stayed home alone and waited for nightfall.
In my free time, I began to look for ways to enrich myself, such as signing up for Xi cooking and gardening, and exploring the unknown on my own on weekends. One day, my daughter Xiaoyu said to me, "Mom, you seem to be refreshed and beautiful lately!".
Hearing my daughter's praise filled my heart with joy. It turns out that I don't need to rely on others to live my life to the fullest. Occasionally, I think about the meaning of life.
We come into this world, and no one can live a wonderful life for us except ourselves. I started to dedicate myself to my work and took on challenging projects on my own initiative.
When my colleagues saw the changes in me, they praised me for my strong dedication. I feel a great sense of satisfaction from my work achievements. I also find time to spend with my family and share my heart-to-heart with my daughter.
I no longer need the commitment of the opposite sex to achieve happiness because I have found ways to make myself happy. One day, Xiaoyu said to me, "Mom, you are like a luminous body now. ”
Is it?Then mom must keep it up. I replied with a smile. Through the ups and downs, I have become more mature and confident. Under the sun, I continue to bloom the splendor of life.
I am grateful for all the experiences in the past that have shaped me into who I am now. In the future, I will continue to move forward with determination, bravely and comfortably towards a new chapter of life.