In that era of ups and downs, I, Lin Fengyun, was a fighter for the cause of education. When I was young, I was like a proud phoenix, soaring in the ocean of knowledge. From junior college to undergraduate, I was self-taught and became a well-respected teacher in the town. At that time, I was full of confidence and vitality, and I was full of expectations for the future.
I've never been interested in marriage. I feel free to live my life and not need to be bound by a man or family. None of the men around me could arouse my interest, and they were even more reluctant to marry the so-called elite in the countryside. I chose to be alone, sailing in the rivers and lakes of life, like a lonely heron dancing. This pursuit of freedom makes me proud.
However, the years are merciless, and time flies. When I retired, I found myself without someone to accompany me, without someone to care about, without someone to take care of. Loneliness was everywhere, I had to live in a nursing home or hospital, pay for a nurse, and I was just a stranger. In this world, there is no one who is willing to really accompany me.
Lin Fengyun, how are you feeling today?The nurse asked with concern, but I just smiled and didn't answer. These people who took care of me, although thoughtful, lacked real companionship. I was like an abandoned eagle, hovering alone in the sky, unable to find my home.
In the dead of night, I look out the window of the nursing home, and the stars are like diamonds dotted in the deep night sky. I began to regret my choice, only to find that time would not be turned back. Looking at other elderly people, there is the company and love of children, and the warmth and joy of children. I felt so envious and lost that I began to regret my persistence painfully.
Lin Fengyun, do you want to drink some hot water?The nurse's voice broke my silence and I shook my head and smiled and said, "No thanks." They left the room, and I sat alone on the bed, looking out the window at the moonlight. I think of my former self, and I think of the woman who used to be confident and proud.
Perhaps, life is a practice, and I lost my way on the way to practice. I regretted not being at the beginning, lonely and helpless, and could only pray for myself silently in the lonely time. I hope that in the rest of my life's journey, I can find a trace of warmth to soothe the strength of my youth. I hope that in this lonely sky, I can find my own home.
One day, I was sitting in front of the window in a daze, and suddenly there was a knock on the door. I looked up and saw a young nurse, she smiled and said, "Aunt Lin, someone has come to see you." I looked to the door in amazement and saw a young boy looking at me with concern on his face.
Hello, Aunt Lin, I am a community volunteer, and I heard that you are alone, so I came to visit you. Is there anything you need help with?The young boy asked warmly. I was stunned, and a warm current welled up in my heart. Perhaps, in this lonely sky, there are still people who will accompany them.
I smiled and nodded, and said gratefully, "Thank you, young man." I'm just a little lonely. He smiled, then took my hand and said, "Then let's go out for a walk together and see what is interesting in this community." ”
Walking on the path of the community, I felt the warmth that I had not felt for a long time. He kept me company, chatting and laughing about the trivial things in life. At that moment, I suddenly felt that I was no longer a floating eagle, but had found a harbor of my own.
Aunt Lin, your smile is so beautiful. He said suddenly. I smiled, mixed emotions surging through my heart. Perhaps, I found a little solace in loneliness, and that young man became my unexpected companion.
As the days went by, he would often chat with me and help me tidy up my room. With him by my side, I seemed to have regained my former self-confidence and pride. However, as time went on, I also understood that it was only a short-lived warmth. After all, he has his own life and can't be by my side all the time.
One day, he came over to say goodbye, saying that he was going to be away for a while, and that he might not be able to come to see me for some days. I felt bitter in my heart, but I smiled and said, "Young man, you have to work hard, and I will always bless you." He nodded and handed me a note that read, "Aunt Lin, write to me if you have time, I'll reply." ”
After he left, silence returned to the room. I picked up the note, and there were many emotions in my heart. Perhaps, in this lonely sky, I found a warm sunshine. Perhaps, my loneliness will finally usher in warm companionship. I held the note in my hand and began my days of writing letters to young people.
Honey, how am I doing these days?I'm so proud of you when I hear you're struggling outside. Everything is fine on my side, and my heart is very warm with your greetings. Looking forward to hearing from you and wishing you all the best. Respectfully Aunt Lin. "I write these words with my heart every day, expressing my deep concern for young people.
In the silence of the day, I seem to find a serene joy. During that time, I became no longer lonely, and I could feel the warm companionship even through the words on paper. And this companionship made me re-examine the pride I once insisted on.
Perhaps, life is a practice, and I finally found my way on the road of cultivation. I no longer complain about the choices I have made, because every experience is a precious treasure in life. I think, perhaps, that young man also found a warmth that belongs to him through my life.
The vicissitudes of time, life is like a dream. In this lonely sky, I found my own harbor again. Perhaps, the proud phoenix also needs a warm land to place that once lonely heart. And I, Lin Fengyun, finally no longer regret not being at the beginning.