How many thirty years are there in life?When the wheels of time rolled forward, leaving behind not only dust, but also a trace of regret and guilt that was not easy to detect. Sometimes I wonder if I could do it all over again, would I make a different choice?
It was a sunny afternoon, I was walking down a familiar street, and suddenly, a familiar figure came into view. I rubbed my eyes, thinking I was wrong. How is that possible?That's her, my first love. She was no longer the young, energetic girl she was, but full of gray hair, wrinkles creeping up her once smooth face. My heart was instantly filled with guilt and pain.
We sat on a park bench and talked about those younger days. Those young smiles, those ignorant dreams, seem to be still vivid. Today, we are two worlds. I have a stable life and a successful career, but she ......I know she's not doing well, and that makes me feel even more guilty.
At the beginning, because we were young and vigorous, because we didn't know how to cherish, we missed each other. Now that I think about it, how childish and ridiculous those disputes and misunderstandings were. If I could go back in time, I would like to go back to that summer, the summer when we first met. I will hold her hand tightly and tell her that I will cherish her and will protect her forever.
There are no ifs in life, only consequences and results. I looked at her face full of vicissitudes, and my heart was mixed. I know it's all caused by me. It was I who had left her with so many years of pain and loneliness. I wanted to make it up to her, I wanted to tell her that I still loved her, but I couldn't say anything.
After that day, I knew we couldn't go back in time. But I hope that in the days to come, I can do everything I can to make it up to her. I would silently watch over her and lend a helping hand when she needed it. I will tell her with my actions that I have never forgotten her, that I have never forgotten our past.
Time is the fairest referee and the most ruthless killer. It takes away our youth and leaves behind regrets that cannot be erased. Whenever I was in the dead of night, I would always think of her gray hair. That is the eternal pain in my heart, and it is also the motivation for me to move forward.
I know that such feelings are complicated and painful. But I'm willing to endure all this, just for the sake of her who missed out when I was younger. I want her to understand my heart and know everything I've done for her. Life is like a dream, and there is you in the dream. Both the beauty and regret of first love have become an integral part of my life. I will cherish this feeling and make it the most precious memory of my life. No matter what the future holds, I will turn this guilt into motivation to create a better life.
Maybe one day, when we meet again, we will look at each other and smile and let go of the baggage in our hearts. Maybe then, we will find that time flies so fast, thirty years is just a moment. And our youthful and regretful past are a thing of the past. All that was left was the faint longing and endless emotion.
So, dear you, if one day we meet again, I hope you can give me a smile. A smile that makes me forget all about the past and embrace the future. Because you are the memory of my youth, the eternal pain and strength of my life. I will spend my life cherishing the beautiful and regretful first love you gave me.