Have you ever experienced the feeling of loneliness hitting the door like a substance?
Yesterday, I sent my wife and children back to my hometown, and I want to live in my hometown for a while. Due to the weather, there was a blizzard in my hometown, and I had to go to work on Monday, so I drove to Zhengzhou early in the morning. The sleet kept falling along the way, and the car rang with my carefully selected **, but I always felt that something was missing.
Since getting married, it is rare for such a person to drive long distances, usually the back seat is with his wife and children, and the children's laughter is full of warmth along the way. What would normally be a three-hour drive, today drove for almost four hours. When I arrived in Zhengzhou, the rain was mixed with Xiaoice, and the eggs were quite heavy. I parked the car and went upstairs with a box of duck eggs given by my mother-in-law.
When I opened the door and pushed it open, looking at the silent living room, a sense of loneliness hit my heart hard. I breathed a sigh of relief and stepped inside.
After I packed my things, I sat on the couch and didn't know what to do, turned on the TV, and searched through all the channels and didn't know what I wanted to watch. But I didn't dare to turn off the TV, and there was no movement in the huge room except for the sound of the wind outside the window and the sound of rain hitting the window.
I saw my daughter's usual favorite building block table, and I smiled happily at the slide that my daughter had built the day before yesterday, and then stayed where I was.
A pot of wine among the flowers, drinking alone without a blind date. Raise a glass to invite Mingyue, and the shadow becomes a trio. I think Li Bai's state of mind when he wrote this poem was just like that.
I remembered that I used to quarrel with my wife, and I felt that she was sometimes vexatious and always wanted to be alone and laugh quietly. My daughter is always pestering me, and my father plays with me on the slide for a while, and my father plays with me for a while, and my father plays games with me, and I am a little impatient in my heart. Now think about how ridiculous my thoughts were.
At this point, I finally understood what happiness is and what life is. Whether it's noisy or laughing, as long as it's around, it's the happiest. When you suddenly lose one day, that sense of loss will arise spontaneously.
Deciduous trees, cold lights and lonely nights. Thinking about the future, I will have to live alone for a while...
Don't say anything, quickly pick up the phone, call my wife, and see if my dear daughter misses her father too.