I will never forget the day my mother died, it was the most painful day of my life.
Her mother's name is Zhang Xiuying, who is 55 years old and an ordinary retired female worker. She raised me with her single parents and raised me with both hands**, I am her only relative.
I remember the day my mother retired, she happily said to me: "Xiao Ming, my mother has finally retired, and she can finally realize some of her little dreams!."It's been a hard life, and now it's time to rest and have fun. ”
I was very busy at work that day, and I hurriedly said to my mother, "Mom, congratulations on your retirement." Have fun on your own, but pay attention to your body, I've been too busy lately and probably won't have time to play with you. ”
I immediately asked for leave from the company and drove to the hospital. Along the way, I couldn't stop crying, and my heart was full of remorse and self-blame.
Mom, you said we would fulfill your dream together, but now that you're quietly leaving alone, we can't fulfill our dream anymore. It's all my fault, I shouldn't be so busy, I shouldn't have let you go out alone. You still want to go out and see the world so much, why can't I fulfill you?”
When I got to the hospital, I went straight to the intensive care unit. However, before I could enter the ward, the doctor on duty came to me and said, "I'm sorry, but your mother has died after resuscitation. We've done our best. ”
I sat down on the ground, tears welling up in my eyes: "No, how could my mother just leave?"Doctor, you can save her again, please, I will pay all the medical bills. ”
Both the doctor and the ** came to persuade me: "Young man, we understand your pain, but people cannot be resurrected from death." The death of your mother is a fait accompli, and we all regret it. ”
I yelled hysterically and threw myself over my mother's already cold body.
Mom, how could you just leave me like this?We still have so many places that we haven't been to and so many things that haven't been said yet. It's all my fault, if I had found out sooner, you wouldn't have left so suddenly. I'm sorry, Mom, it's all my fault, I shouldn't have let you go out alone, and I shouldn't have been here so late to see you one last time. I should be with you to fulfill your dreams, instead of working all day. Mom, did you hear that?It's all my fault, I shouldn't have left you alone. Can you forgive me, Mom?”
I hugged my mother's already cold body and cried bitterly, and the medical staff around me looked at me, helpless and sympathetic.
Then the doctor on duty came to me and said, "Young man, calm down first. We're not done yet, we need to deal with the bodies first. We have your mother's relics here, so take them first. ”
Holding back my tears, I took my mother's bag from the doctor, which was an old handbag that she often carried with her, and it felt very dear. I cautiously opened my handbag, which contained my mother's ID card, wallet, and a sealed envelope that read "To my dear son". I opened the envelope, and inside was a letter written to me by my mother's own hand.
Dear Xiao Ming:
These days, I'm out on my own, reliving the moments of my youth. Suddenly received a ** from the old buddy Xiaohe, saying that he had just retired and returned to his hometown, and we hadn't seen each other for many years, so we made an appointment to meet immediately. The moment I saw my old friends, I was so excited that I felt like I had returned to my youth, and we talked about all kinds of stories from our work, remembered the times when we struggled together, and revisited the places we frequented.
All this made me realize that I had lived a simple but colorful life. I felt very satisfied and happy. So, my son, don't feel bad if I leave you suddenly. As a mother, being able to watch you grow up safely is my greatest wish in this life.
Over the years, I've been too focused on my work and rarely have been with you. Now that I think about it, I'm not a good mother. However, I'm sure you'll understand my intentions. You have to know that no matter what happens, Mom will always love you. No matter what difficulties you encounter, take care of yourself and live well.
My life is very simple, and I don't have many regrets. I am grateful that you have given me a home and a chance to love. Now, it's time for you to love yourself well. Remember, I'm always proud of you. Go for the life you want, and I will bless you in the Spirit of Heaven.
Mom will always love you.
After reading this letter from my mother, I burst into tears. I understand my mother's good intentions, she really has no regrets, and I shouldn't blame myself for it.
Thinking of this, I can't help but recall all kinds of bits and pieces of my mother's life. She is a traditional Chinese mother who works very hard and never worries about the hardships of life, as long as the family is together, she feels happy and content. My mother always cared about my school life Xi life, and even if I didn't listen to her, she rarely beat and scolded me. Whenever I encountered setbacks and unhappiness, my mother would always gently persuade me and support me.
Mom may not have received much education, but she has super life wisdom. Her lively and cheerful personality infects everyone in the family. I remember when I was a child, she would sing and dance with me and weave beautiful stories to make me happy. My mother always made the home warm and comfortable, which made me feel that the safest and happiest place in the world was my mother's arms.
Now that I think about it, I understand my mother's good intentions. Instead of blaming myself for her passing, I should be grateful to reminisce about the time we spent together, to live the life I wanted, and to live out her unfulfilled dreams. That's what my mom wants me to do, and it's the best thing to miss her.