"I've never done anything bad in my life, why do this to me?”
On April 1, 2003, superstar Leslie Cheung committed suicide by jumping off a building.
Just when countless fans are immersed in the grief of losing their idols,This sentence in Leslie Cheung's last words made the public doubt the cause of his death.
However, Leslie Cheung's sister later announced that he died of depression, and the speculation gradually disappeared.
Unexpectedly, more than ten years after his death, his former friend Ma Weidu actually told the truth about Leslie Cheung's suicide.
It's because he's been abandoned!
The day Leslie Cheung left was April Fool's Day, and many people's first reaction when they heard the news was: deceitful.
Heaven did make a joke on this day, but it was a sad joke.
Leslie Cheung, whose career is at the peak, suddenly committed suicide, which is an incredible thing.
The sentence "Why did you do this to me" in the suicide note made this matter even more confusing.
So many people speculated: "Was Leslie Cheung bullied?".”
Could it be that jumping off the building is forced to be helpless?”
It's not like someone kills the killer and then covers it up with suicide. ”
When all kinds of speculations were flying, Leslie Cheung's sister stood up and explained in order to avoid implicating the innocent.
"He just had depression and couldn't bear the pressure in his heart before he chose to end his life, I hope everyone will stop speculating. ”
In fact, Ma Weidu, who later revealed the truth about Leslie Cheung's death, also mentioned depression.
The two met when Leslie Cheung was about to film "Farewell My Concubine".
In order to film this drama, Leslie Cheung specially went to Beijing to study opera.
In Beijing, Leslie Cheung's friend introduced Ma Weidu to him.
Ma Weidu said that in fact, Leslie Cheung's behavior at that time was different from others.
He often shuddered uncontrollably, and he couldn't do anything to lift his spirits.
After a long time, when the two met again, Leslie Cheung confided his heart to Ma Weidu.
"I'm ready to leave our country and change to an unfamiliar environment, and I don't want to be affected by domestic events anymore. ”
Although he did not directly say what he suffered and criticized, Ma Wei already knew it.
Because a few years before Leslie Cheung passed away, his heart had been traumatized.
The world-known love affair has been repeatedly criticized, the award ceremony has been publicly humiliated, and the most important person has passed away.
At that time, Leslie Cheung felt abandoned by the whole world.
Now when it comes to Leslie Cheung, the first thing that many people think of is his vigorous relationship.
Even today, same-sex love is hard to accept.
Not to mention the period in which Leslie Cheung lived.
In 1997, 41-year-old Leslie Cheung generously announced his relationship at the concert.
However, unexpectedly, not only did he not receive the blessing, but also suffered an overwhelming malicious evaluation.
It's all just because his love interest is someone of the same gender as him.
At that concert of public romance,Leslie Cheung used a song "Love for You" to tell his love for Tang Hede.
Later, he used "The Moon Represents My Heart" to announce their relationship to the world.
The sentence "Tang Hede is the most beloved person in my life" made everyone realize the weight of Tang Hede in Leslie Cheung's life.
The world says that Tang Hede is not worthy of the shining Leslie Cheung, but who knows that he is Leslie Cheung's "life-saving straw".
It all started from the day the two met.
In 1982, Leslie Cheung was still a nameless little artist.
When participating in the event, he met Tang Hede, and the two hit it off at first sight and chatted very well.
And just like that, they slowly became friends.
Although Tang Hede is 3 years younger than Leslie Cheung,But by that time he had already achieved a successful career.
Working in the bank, he is a well-deserved financial elite.
Tang Hede is a native of Shanghai, and his family conditions are very good.
But at that time, because Leslie Cheung didn't want to rely on his family, not only did he have no future, but it was even difficult to maintain his daily life.
After knowing Leslie Cheung's condition, Tang Hede did not hesitate to take out his savings to help him.
If there is no Tang Hede, maybe Leslie Cheung will not be able to become famous.
For the sake of Leslie Cheung, he was even willing to give up the opportunity for promotion.
Everything he did was remembered by Leslie Cheung.
Later, when asked why he was so good to Tang Hede, what Leslie Cheung said also proved this.
"At that time, I was not famous, I had no money, only he treated me sincerely, how could I not be moved and cherished?”
The two were just ordinary good brothers at first, and getting along day by day made them find that their feelings for each other were no longer pure.
After clarifying their hearts, they took a brave step despite the eyes of the world.
But with Leslie Cheung's explosion, everything about him was exposed to the public's eyeballs.
Although he had tried his best to protect Tang Hede from being disturbed, he still couldn't withstand the ** long gun and short cannon.
Since then, the world's evaluation of Leslie Cheung is no longer just praise, and there are many unbearable words around him.
Leslie Cheung, who is already delicate, can't hold on to the pressure brought by the outside world.
Tang Hede was very distressed when he saw his lover in such a situation.
In order to take care of Leslie Cheung, he quit his job and became Leslie Cheung's assistant.
But then Leslie Cheung still couldn't resist the pressure, and he decided to stay away from these disturbances for the time being.
After six years of rest in Canada, their state of mind has changed.
Even in public, they do not hide their love for each other.
Like many lovers, their relationship has gone through several break-ups and reunions.
According to rumors, after they broke up sometimes, Tang Hede started a new relationship.
Leslie Cheung, who lost his lover, feels that life has lost its meaning.
It was as if he had returned to the hardest time, but this time he was on his own.
At that time, Leslie Cheung had lost the ability to heal himself, and then he was diagnosed with depression.
Being "abandoned" by his lover did not completely crush Leslie Cheung, and being publicly humiliated and the departure of his loved ones was the "last straw" that crushed him.
Back in 1997, this year was not only the year when Leslie Cheung announced his relationship with Tang Hede.
It is also the time of the release of "**" starring him and Tony Leung.
This is a same-sex film directed by Wong Kar-wai.
Many people didn't expect that two superstar characters would play this kind of **.
But for them, actors can't be limited to a certain type of character.
There is no distinction between high and low characters.
They treated this role very carefully and put in 12 points of effort during the filming process.
So much so that after the filming ended, Leslie Cheung said frankly: "I'm so tired, it seems to have lost a layer of skin." ”
Fortunately, their efforts and acting skills were seen by the public.
Leslie Cheung was nominated for the Golden Horse Award for this film.
He must have never imagined that this awards party would make him suffer unprecedented humiliation.
The hosts on the stage, Qin Han and Liu Ruoying, used some very excessive words when introducing "**".
For example:"Male-to-Male Love", "Disgusting", ".
They even used vomiting to express their feelings about the movie.
The cameraman who is not too big to watch the excitement kept cutting the camera to Leslie Cheung's face during this period.
Leslie Cheung, who has always been gentle, did not show any displeasure on his face, he tried to make an arc at the corners of his mouth, and clapped calmly with his hands in front of him.
However, the two presenters on stage did not intend to let him go.
Liu Ruoying said: "Leslie Cheung is very gentle and temperamental when he plays this role, and he really puts himself into it. ”
Qin Han continued her words and said: "He is very brave, if it were me, I'm afraid it would be difficult to show that kind of feeling, maybe this is what he really looks like." ”They started laughing as soon as they finished speaking.
If you look at these two sentences alone, you may think that it is nothing.
But if you combine them with their previous evaluation of the film, you will understand that this is not a compliment, but a public humiliation.
Originally, the Golden Horse actor throne that year was none other than Leslie Cheung.
But because of his relationship, the judges felt that he was just acting in his true colors in the movie, and had nothing to do with his acting skills.
Leslie Cheung missed out on the trophy as a result.
In that era of conservative thinking, Leslie Cheung's announcement of his relationship with Tang Hede was tantamount to putting himself in the whirlpool of **.
The result of a bold and open relationship is to be publicly ridiculed, despised and ostracized.
A trophy does not prove the quality of Leslie Cheung's acting skills.
But the humiliation brought to him by these people is a wound that can never be erased.
Leslie Cheung, who should have enjoyed flowers and applause, was "abandoned" by the whole world because of his feelings.
But fortunately, at that time, he still had his lover and loved ones by his side.
"Sixth Sister is the best person for me in this life. ”
Leslie Cheung's words show the weight of the sixth sister in his life.
Although it is difficult for Leslie Cheung, who has just debuted, to even maintain food and clothing, don't think that he is really a poor boy.
Leslie Cheung's father is a very famous clothing store owner, and his family has been very wealthy since he was a child.
But his father is busy with his career every day, and he has a bad relationship with his mother, so Leslie Cheung's favorite when he was a child was the sixth sister of the nanny.
Although the sixth sister is just a nanny, for Leslie Cheung, she is already a relative whose blood is thicker than water.
Leslie Cheung is unfortunate without parental care, but lucky.
Because the sixth sister's love for him has surpassed father's love and mother's love.
The sixth sister, who is not highly educated, can't teach Leslie Cheung theoretical knowledge, but she teaches him how to behave.
Others said: "The sixth sister is too fierce." ”
But Leslie Cheung said: "She is very gentle. ”
The fierce sixth sister in the eyes of outsiders will accompany Leslie Cheung when his acting career is not going well, and make breakfast for him every day.
No matter how much pressure he faces, as long as the sixth sister is there, Leslie Cheung feels that there is a reason to persevere.
However, he didn't expect that Leslie Cheung got another big bad news after being "abandoned" by the world and his lover.
The sixth sister is sick.
Leslie Cheung tried everything to cure her, but was stopped by the sixth sister.
I know you're sad, but my illness can't be cured, so don't waste any more effort on me. ”
That was the first time Leslie Cheung felt so powerless.
In the last days of the sixth sister, she suffered physical torture, and Leslie Cheung suffered mental torture.
But no matter how difficult it was during that time, they at least had each other's company.
Not long after, the sixth sister left Leslie Cheung in the torment of illness.
The departure of a loved one made Leslie Cheung completely devastated.
This time, even his last pillar "abandoned" him.
"I don't want to suffer anymore. ”
This is Ma Weidu's summary of the reasons for Leslie Cheung's suicide.
Many people think that Leslie Cheung's suicide was a sudden decision, but it is not.
Because he not only wrote a suicide note, but also distributed his property to the people around him.
A total of HK$4 billion.
2 billion was given to his beloved Tang Hede, 80 million was given to his two nieces, and 20 million each of his six brothers and sisters.
The maid, the driver and his ex-girlfriend Mao Shunjun all got a portion of the money.
He gave the rest to charity.
Tang Hede, who learned the news of Leslie Cheung's suicide and death, was extremely remorseful.
He asked himself, "Why didn't you stay with him?".”
But the deceased is gone, and it's too late to say anything.
After Leslie Cheung left, Tang Hede has been alone, and he will post a commemoration of him every year.
Although Leslie Cheung has been out of this world for 20 years, fans have never forgotten him, and his lover has not forgotten him.
His works and deeds during his lifetime will always be remembered by the public.
It has been said, "True death is not to leave the world, but to be forgotten by the world." ”
Therefore, Leslie Cheung will always live in the hearts of the public!