My name is Li Mei, I am 32 years old, I was born and raised in a small village in the countryside of Jiangsu. When I was 18 years old, through a blind date, I married and went to Beijing to start a new life.
In the past eight years, I have lived very well in Beijing, found a decent job, achieved a successful career, and lived a more and more prosperous life. However, my relationship with my husband, a Beijinger, has become weaker and weaker over the years.
On this day, I was going on a business trip to the south, and I happened to pass by my hometown, so I decided to visit my old mother, who gave birth to me and raised me. My mother is in her 70s and lives alone in a dilapidated house in our hometown.
I knocked on the familiar door, and there was the sound of hurried footsteps inside. The door opened, and my mother hugged me excitedly, with tears in her eyes: "Mei'er, you're back to see me!."”
I was so excited that I couldn't speak, and I hugged my mother and was silent for a long time. My mother's hair was all white and her body was much thinner, but her eyes were still so bright, full of longing for me.
Mom, I miss you. I finally spoke.
You think you can't think about it!Mother hurriedly said, "I have been looking forward to you coming back to see me every day all these years, and I am finally looking forward to it!."”
My heart was sour, so I quickly changed the topic and exchanged pleasantries with my mother. My mother warmly pulled me down in my shabby room and poured me a glass of water. I looked at her trembling hands and wrinkled face, and my heart was thrilled and distressed. This small house still has my childhood memories, the walls are peeling off and the furniture is shabby, but my mother's eyes tell me that she has been waiting for me here.
Mom, let me make you something delicious!"I offered to surprise my mother.
Okay, good!Mother said happily.
I went to the kitchen and checked the pots and pans and ingredients. Although the conditions were simple, I tried my best to prepare a few of my mother's favorite dishes.
By the time I was done, my mother had already set the table. She excitedly beckoned me to sit down and added me a bowl of poached egg noodles.
This is made by Mom just for you, your favorite food when you were a child!She laughs.
I ate with relish, while my mother looked at me intently, her eyes full of love.
Mom, the noodles you make are still so delicious!I couldn't help but admire.
Of course, it's Mom's craft!She said happily, "How about we go for a walk by the river after eating noodles?"”
Okay!I readily agreed.
After lunch, my mother and I went to the river, where we used to go when we were children. This small river still has my childhood memories, and I still remember that my friends and I always loved to play by the river, and my mother always watched us from the shore worriedly.
Remember when you were a child?My mother asked me with a smile.
Well, I remember it all. I nodded, staring at the flowing water.
When are you coming back?* My husband's indifferent voice came from the other end.
Just two days?Come back quickly, there are still things to do at home. He urged.
My hands shook unconsciously, and my face became ugly. My mother looked at me suspiciously, and then at the phone in my hand.
Got it, got it, you just have to come back quickly. He said impatiently.
After hanging up**, I stood by the river with an ugly face, and my mother came over and looked at me with concern: "Mei'er, what's wrong?".”
Mom, it's okay, my husband called ** to urge me to go back to Beijing, and I said that I would stay at home for two days. I forced a smile.
My mother nodded, didn't ask any more questions, just quietly accompanied me along the river. My mind had already flown thousands of miles away, and I began to seriously think about my relationship with my husband.
We've been married for eight years, and our relationship is no longer as sweet as it was at the beginning. I am busy with work in Beijing, and my husband often travels on business, so the communication between us is becoming less and less, and the relationship is gradually fading. That call just now made me realize that he didn't really care about my feelings, and only regarded me as a labor force in the family.
I don't want to live this life anymore. Perhaps, I should divorce my husband and start a new life.
Mom, I want to divorce my husband. I plucked up the courage to say to my mother.
My mother looked at me in surprise: "Mei'er, what's wrong with you?".Are you not in a good relationship?”
We're out of feelings, Mom. I sighed, "Over the years, we have been communicating less and less, and my husband doesn't care about my feelings, he only treats me as a tool." I'm tired of living like this. ”
My mother was silent, knowing that I was telling the truth. After a while, she whispered, "Mei'er, Mom understands your choice. As long as you're happy, Mom will be relieved. ”
Hearing my mother's support warmed my heart. Maybe I can really start a new life and no longer be controlled by my husband.
Thank you mom for your understanding. I'll start all over again, and I'll find my own happiness. "I hugged my mother, and my heart was determined.
Mom, the noodles are still so fragrant!"I couldn't help but admire.
Remember to come back to see me often. "This will always be your home." ”
I will, Mom. I nodded, my eyes affectionate.
Back at home in Beijing, I took a deep breath and decided to talk to my husband in person and tell me what I wanted to do.
My husband came back soon, he took off his coat and asked me nonchalantly, "Are you back?".How have these two days been?”
Husband, let's talk. I plucked up the courage to say.
What to talk about?He looked at me puzzled.
I want a divorce. "I got straight to the point.
My husband was stunned, and it took a while before he reacted: "What did you say?".Divorce?What are you kidding!”
I'm not kidding. I said word for word, "Our relationship is gone, and I want to start over." ”
You're crazy!The husband raised his voice, "We have been married for so many years, how can you say that we will leave?"”
Please calm down and listen to me. I tried to be rational, "Over the years, our relationship has become weaker and weaker, and you don't care how I feel." I don't want to spend my life in an emotionless marriage. I want to pursue happiness that is truly my own. ”
My husband seemed to be stung by my words, and his expression changed from anger to pain: "It's me who is bad, I should care more about you." But divorce is too extreme, and we can slowly repair the relationship. ”
I shook my head slightly: "Restoration requires consensual thinking. But the problems between us cannot be solved overnight. I've thought about it and still want a divorce. ”
My husband was speechless for a moment and paced anxiously around the room. After a while, he whispered, "If this is really your decision, I respect you." I will contact a lawyer and we will negotiate the divorce settlement. ”
Thank you for your understanding. I whispered.
In the following days, we began to negotiate the division of property in the early stages of divorce. Although the husband is in pain, he is quite rational. We tried to be as calm as possible and eventually reached an agreement that was acceptable to both parties.
On the day the divorce agreement was signed, my husband looked at me with reluctance in his eyes: "I've worked hard for you all these years." In the future, they will be well. ”
Well, we're all going to find our own lives. I nodded.
Mom, I'm officially divorced. I told my mother.
* Mother's reassuring voice came from the other end: "Mei'er, Mom is happy for you." Leaving an emotionless marriage and starting a new life is a brave choice for you. Whatever comes your way, stay optimistic and courageous. Mom will always support you. ”
Thank you mom for your understanding. I was moved to say, "I'll try to start a new life." ”
Hang up**, I'm sitting in my new empty home with mixed feelings. Looking back, I don't regret choosing to divorce, but I'm still nervous about the future. Should I start a new life?