"Wow, you have light in you!”
Because I'm a mirror, I reflect the light on you!”
After work today, my office colleagues have already packed their things and are ready to go home. A colleague suddenly received a customer's **, saying that he still needed to communicate something.
Except for her, we all got off work happily.
As soon as I got home, I received a message from this colleague, who said that she didn't know what the meaning of our daily work wasWithout social security, the salary is only enough for one's daily expenses.
Some of them are just after dealing with the daily work every day, and there are all kinds of troublesome things waiting for customers who can't be dealt with.
I asked her if she had ever considered taking the public institution or public examination, or switching to other jobs that she was interested in. She said that she had thought about it, but she didn't know that she had been confused since she graduated for two years.
I feel that I am the worst person around me, I have nothing, I can't do anything well, and I haven't saved a penny after two years of work.
She is a new colleague who has just come to our company, and she usually has a good relationship, so I talked to her about some of my experiences in the past few years. The first thing is that I have worked for 5 years and have not saved a penny. The second is that I have nightmares and auditory hallucinations all year round. The third thing is that many of my friends work in Fortune 500 companies, either state-owned enterprises or central enterprises, and I myself am still similar to a newcomer after working for 5 years.
The five years since graduation have been the worst five years of my life, and they are also the five years of self-growth. It has nothing to do with savings, work ability, or even anything external such as relationship and marriage, I care more about my own growth.
In the past few years, I went to work normally during the day and laughed with everyone. When I returned to the rental house in the evening, I immediately lay down in bed and started emo, not because I wanted to emo, but because of the sadness and negativity, I took the initiative to find me, so that I began to be sad and sad for some reason, and lost enthusiasm for everything.
What do I do in bed after work and on weekends?Staring at the ceiling or sitting at the bay window and looking out in a daze, something makes me sad and cry every day. I also have nightmares every day, and as soon as I close my eyes and just feel sleepy, I start having nightmares. My brain will always be on time for horror movies, never missing points and absenteeism.
I never told my family about my auditory hallucinations, they only knew that I had nightmares and cried a few times at night when I came home from vacation because of nightmares, but what they didn't know was that I had nightmares almost every day.
After I finished talking about these experiences, my colleagues said that I was too strong, I had survived so many painful days alone, and I had been ** myself for so many years.
He also said that I now look like a little sun, with a glow on my body. Bringing so much sunshine and warmth to the people around me every day, I can't imagine that I have experienced so many difficult days before.
But it doesn't matter how I get through the painful days, the important thing is that I tell my colleagues, "You see me shining, because I am a mirror that reflects your light." ”
Although it is a little oily, she said that she has received a lot of encouragement, and she has to believe in herself more and strive to do better.
We all have to be our own little suns