That afternoon, I sat in the hallway of the hospital, staring vacantly at the wall opposite. Xiaojie's condition is getting worse and worse, and the cost is snowballing. I couldn't afford it, so I could only pray for a miracle.
Suddenly, the silence was broken by the phone's vibrating. It was a message from my father-in-law: "Jing, come to the house in the evening, and have something to discuss." Those words seemed to weigh a thousand pounds, and I couldn't breathe.
After dinner, I stood at the door of my father-in-law's house, took a deep breath, and pushed the door in. In addition to her father-in-law, there are also her husband's sister Xiao Yun and her husband Xiao Gang in the house.
Still, sitting. The father-in-law's voice was serious. I sat down, my heart racing.
I also know Xiaojie's condition, and the cost is not small. "We have a proposal." ”
Xiao Yun took over the conversation, "Sister, we want you to sell that 750,000 house." ”
I was stunned, it was a home that Xiaojie and I had worked hard for many years to buy.
Why don't you sell your shop?I couldn't help but ask.
My father-in-law was silent for a moment, "That shop is our pension." ”
I looked at my father-in-law, and my heart was filled with a sense of powerlessness.
Jing, this is for Xiaojie's good. Xiao Gang tried to comfort me.
I got up silently, and my mind was full of thoughts.
Back at the hospital, I stood in front of Xiaojie's bed, tears blurring my vision. Xiaojie's hand was cold, and I held his hand, my heart full of helplessness and anger.
A few days later, I met my college classmate Kobayashi at a café near my company. He is now a successful businessman with a great deal of demeanor.
Quiet, long time no see. Kobayashi smiled.
We chatted about how we're doing. When I mentioned the plight at home, Kobayashi's brow furrowed.
I can help you. Xiao Lin's words were like a ray of sunshine, piercing through my gloomy mood.
Really?"I can't believe it.
Of course, I can lend you some money first. "Kobayashi's words gave me a glimmer of hope.
When I got home that day, I told Xiaojie the news. He grabbed my hand weakly, "Jing, I'm sorry for dragging you down." ”
I shook my head, "No, we'll get through it together." ”
The next day, I met with Kobayashi, and he handed me a check, "That's enough for you to use first." ”
I took the check, but I was a little apprehensive. I know that this money is not so easy to pay off.
A few days later, the father-in-law convened the family meeting again. I sat on the couch in the living room with mixed feelings.
Jing, how are you thinking about it?The father-in-law asked.
I took a deep breath, "I found a temporary solution to not have to sell the house. ”
Father-in-law and Xiao Yun glanced at each other, seemingly surprised.
How did you fix it?Xiao Yun asked.
I was silent for a moment, "A friend borrowed it for help." ”
The father-in-law frowned, "Borrow money?."Is that really good?”
I nodded slightly, though I knew in my heart that this was only a temporary relief.
After the meeting, I went back to the hospital. Xiaojie's condition still did not improve, and I handed over the borrowed money to the hospital, but the deep anxiety in my heart always followed.
A few days later, Xiaolin came to visit me and Xiaojie in the hospital again. He seemed extraordinarily concerned.
Jing, if you have any difficulties, just tell me. Kobayashi's words were full of sincerity.
I nodded, but in my heart I was thinking about the meaning behind this "selfless" help.
Soon, I began to feel that Kobayashi's concern went beyond the scope of ordinary friends. He often messaged me and sometimes even offered to have dinner together. I started to get hesitant and restless.
One night, I was in the hospital with Xiaojie when my phone rang. It was a message from Kobayashi: "Jing, I think we are not just friends. ”
As I read this message, a huge wave rose in my heart. I know it's beyond my reach.
The next day, I found Kobayashi, and Masaseki rejected his ambiguity.
Xiaolin, I thank you for your help, but Xiaojie and I are husband and wife, and I can't accept this relationship. ”
Xiao Lin's face changed, and he finally nodded, "I understand, I'm sorry." ”
When I got home, I found Xiao Yun and Xiao Gang arguing with my father-in-law.
Why do we care so much about her?Wouldn't it be solved by selling the house directly?Xiao Yun's voice was sharp.
I stood in the doorway, listening to their arguments, and my heart became heavier.
Xiao Yun, that's your brother's home!The father-in-law's voice was equally excited.
I walked in, "I've found a way to solve the problem of money, won't sell the house." ”
Xiao Yun glared at me, "How did you solve it?"It can't be that you did something dishonorable, right?”
I took a deep breath and replied calmly, "I didn't do anything to be sorry for Xiaojie, I just borrowed some money." ”
Xiao Gang watched from the side and did not speak.
That night, I was lying in bed with a lot of thoughts. Xiaojie's illness, family disputes, Xiaolin's loans, everything weighed on me like a heavy burden.
A few days later, I met an old colleague Xiao Wang in the unit. He looked anxious.
Jing, have you heard?The company may have to lay off employees. ”
I was shocked, "Really?".”
Yes, the economy is not good right now, and everyone is worried. ”
I went back to the office with a heavy heart. What should I do if I am also made redundant?
During that time, Xiaojie's condition was good and bad, and my relationship with my family became more and more strained. Every day, I spend it under stress and uneasiness.
One night, when I was in the hospital with Xiaojie, my phone suddenly rang. It was an email from the company informing me to attend an important meeting the next day.
I looked at Xiaojie and knew in my heart that it might be a meeting about layoffs. That night, I barely closed my eyes.
The next day, in the company's conference room, the atmosphere was dreary. The manager announced the layoffs, and my heart sank to the bottom. Although I am safe for the time being, I don't know what the future holds.
After the meeting, I walked home with all my thoughts about the plight of Xiaojie and his family. Suddenly, my phone rang, a voice I almost forgot – my former colleague Xiao Chen.
Jing, I've heard you've been in some trouble lately, and I might be able to help. Xiao Chen's voice was full of concern.
My heart moved, Xiao Chen used to work in the financial field and has a lot of experience in this field.
We met at a café. After listening to me, Xiao Chen pondered for a while.
I have a suggestion," he said, "that you can consider taking out a mortgage on your home so that you don't have to sell your home and you can solve your immediate needs." ”
I listened to Xiao Chen's suggestion, and I had mixed feelings in my heart. This is indeed an option, but it also means greater risk.
When I got home, I told my father-in-law and Xiaoyun about this suggestion. They were a little hesitant when they heard this.
It's too risky. The father-in-law shook his head.
But that's the only way. "I insist.
After some discussion, my family finally agreed with my decision. In the days that followed, I started to get busy with the banking and various procedures.
However, at this moment, Xiaojie's condition suddenly deteriorated. I hurried back to the hospital, my heart was like a knife.
Looking at Xiaojie in pain on the hospital bed, my heart ached. Xiaojie grabbed my hand and said with difficulty: "Jing, I'm sorry, I can't accompany you through this journey." ”
I burst into tears and held his hand tightly, "No, you have to persevere, we still have a long way to go." ”
But fate was merciless, and Xiaojie's condition continued to deteriorate. A week later, on a bleak morning, Jay left us.
Xiaojie's death plunged the whole family into deep grief. I almost lost my motivation and was in a state of confusion all day.
After the funeral, I returned to my empty home, and there was Xiaojie's shadow everywhere. That night, I sat in the dark, feeling alone and helpless like never before.
A few days later, I received a notification from the bank that the mortgage formalities had been completed. I looked at the cold paper and felt like I was making a deal with fate.
At this moment, Xiao Yun and Xiao Gang came to my house. Xiao Yun's eyes were full of worry.
Sister, we know you're sad right now, but we still have to think about what to do next. Xiao Yun said.
I looked at them and was at a loss.
We need to think about how to repay the loan, and....Before Xiao Gang could finish his words, I interrupted him.
I know, I'll take care of everything. "My voice is cold.
After Xiao Yun and Xiao Gang left, I sat on the sofa, Xiao Jie's voice and smile echoing in my head. The stress of reality and the pain of losing a loved one almost suffocated me. But I knew I couldn't just put it like that.
I began to sort through Xiaojie's belongings, each of which carried our shared memories. The process was painful and long, but it also made me gradually accept this harsh reality.
While dealing with Xiaojie's relics, I found one of his diaries. I opened the diary, which recorded Xiaojie's love and concern for our life, as well as his fear and helplessness about the disease. Reading these words, I felt a strong heartache, but at the same time, I also felt the courage and strength of Xiaojie's life.
A few days later, I started working on the loan. I worked hard and despite the physical and mental exhaustion, I knew I couldn't stop. I started looking for extra income** outside of work, such as taking on some part-time jobs.
In the process, I encountered many difficulties and challenges. Sometimes, I almost broke down, but every time this happens, I think of Xiaojie's words, our shared dreams and plans, and these memories give me the strength to keep going.
Over time, I gradually stabilized my finances. I started to have more time to think about the future and how I could get my life back on track.
One day, I received a ** from Kobayashi. He heard about his passing, expressed his condolences, and asked if I needed help.
Thank you, Kobayashi. But I guess I need to figure these things out on my own. "I politely declined his help.
* After hanging up, I took a deep breath and felt a little stronger again. Although life was still challenging, I began to learn to face it on my own.
After going through this series of tribulations, my relationship with my father-in-law and Xiaoyun also improved. We started to communicate and understand each other more. Xiao Yun also started to help me with some family and financial matters, which made me feel a little warm.
At this time, the company's environment also changed. Thanks to my hard work and dedication, I was given a chance to be promoted. This is a huge encouragement for me and a recognition of my efforts.
As time went on, I began to gradually come out of the shadow of losing Xiaojie. I began to cherish the people and things around me more, and I cherished every day of my life even more.
One day, I found an unfinished travel plan in Xiaojie's belongings. Looking at those plans, I suddenly had an idea. I decided to complete this trip as a memento of Xiaojie.
I started planning this trip. In the process of preparation, I felt a kind of excitement and anticipation that I had not felt for a long time. This trip is not only a memorial to Xiaojie, but also a new life for me.
Begin. In the process of preparing for the trip, I encountered many difficulties, especially financially. But instead of giving up, these challenges inspired me to be more creative and determined. I started doing some part-time jobs online, like writing and translating, to earn extra money.
This experience taught me how to manage my time and money more effectively. I began to focus more on the quality of life than on material possessions. I also learned how to find the little things in life, the things that seem insignificant but actually bring joy and fulfillment.
Finally, after months of hard work, I was ready for the trip. I'm planning to go to some of the places where Jay and I once dreamed of going. This is not only a commemoration of Xiaojie, but also my own journey of inner growth and **.
In the course of my travels, I met all kinds of people and heard their stories. These experiences made me realize that everyone's life is unique and complex. I learned more empathy and began to appreciate every moment of my life more.
I photographed many ** during my travels, documenting the beautiful landscapes and interesting people I saw. These ** and experiences have become my precious memories and my special gift to Xiaojie.
When I came back from my trip, I felt like I had been reborn. While the pain of losing Jay remains, I've learned how to live with it rather than be controlled by it.
I started to be more actively involved in work and social activities. I also started writing a book about me and Jay, and how I grew and changed after losing him. Writing became a way for me to express my emotions and myself.