I stood in front of the window, looking out at the brightly lit night scene, but my heart was full of chaos and pain. I am a family man with a wife who loves me dearly and a lovely child. However, I fell in love with another woman outside of my marriage.
I knew it was wrong, I knew I should stop, but I couldn't control myself. Every time I am with her, I feel incredibly happy and satisfied. Her smile, her eyes, everything about her fascinated me. I began to look forward to every meeting, every hug, every kiss.
I started to alienate my wife and children, and I started to neglect my family. I began to feel that I could only find my true self if I was with her. I'm starting to feel like I'm inseparable from her.
I know I'm on a path of no return, and I know I'm stuck in it. I know I've made an irreparable mistake. I know I've hurt the people I love the most.
I began to wonder if I was addicted. I began to wonder if I couldn't control myself anymore. I began to wonder if I had lost my mind.
I started asking for help, I started looking for a way out. I started reading psychology books, and I started consulting a psychiatrist. I started trying to self-reflect, I started trying to redeem myself.
However, I found that there was no turning back. I found that I couldn't undo what I had done. I found that I could no longer make up for the damage I had done to my family.
I know that I have completely ruined myself. I know that I have completely ruined my family. I know that I have completely ruined the people I love.
I know, I'm addicted. I know I can't help myself. I knew I was hopeless.
I can only stand here, standing in front of the window, looking at the night scene outside the window, silently bearing the pain and remorse in my heart. I can only be here, waiting for that day to come, waiting for that moment to end. Emotion