When Kiki Shirin stood in her early 20s, a beautiful and moving age, she chose to marry a repertory actor Mori Kishida.
However, this seemingly perfect marriage ended only 4 years later with "life is too dull".
Young Kiki Shirin expects more passion and excitement, and is not like other ordinary women, who just want a peaceful marriage. So she resolutely left Kishida Mori and embarked on the path of pursuing her passion.
In 1973, at the age of 31, Kiki met a man with similar interests to her, rock musician Yuya Uchida. Uchida Yuya's cool appearance and uninhibited soul deeply attracted Kiki Shirin.
The moment the two restless hearts collided, they stirred up a thousand sparks. They quickly got married, and their married life should have been happy, but it soon fell apart in the shadow of domestic violence.
Hiroshi Uchida also became violent and unreasonable under the influence of alcohol and drugs. Kiki Shirin had to pack her bags and leave the house, but no matter what, she could not forget the years of burning passion that Yuya Uchida brought her.
After that, Uchida Yuya was even more alcoholic, smoking**, and openly cheating. All her relatives and friends are trying to persuade Kiki Shirin to leave the man who has exhausted her physically and mentally and go away.
However, Kiki Shirin couldn't let go of her feelings for Uchida Yuya no matter what, and she would rather swallow her anger than divorce and break up. This seemingly absurd relationship has continued to be maintained for 43 years in this way.
Kiki Shirin is a maverick woman, and her personality can be summed up in the words "I do my own thing".
Having been in the show business industry for many years, Kiki Shirin has never signed a contract with any agency, and all job offers are made directly through the fax machine at her home.
Fame, fortune and worldly views can't affect her in the slightest, and Kiki Shirin just wants to be true to herself and live her life.
Therefore, in his career, Kiki Shirin has also formed a distinctive personal style. She is good at playing a variety of mother roles, whether it is strict or loving, she can portray different maternal loves vividly.
In countless movies and TV series, the mother image successfully portrayed by Kiki Shirin is deeply rooted in the hearts of the people, and she is affectionately called "national grandma" by fans.
When 61-year-old Kiki Shirin was diagnosed with breast cancer, everyone thought it was time for the veteran artist to retire and recuperate. However, Kiki Shirin proved himself to be different.
Not only did she not quit the film industry, but her workload increased, and she continued to appear in many movies and commercials. In the midst of her illness, Kiki Shirin still shines, she does not bow to fate, and faces the challenges of life with an optimistic spirit.
In the last years of his life, Kiki Shirin was also interviewed. She comfortably said that she had lived a full life and was unwilling to start her life all over again.
Because she has been loyal to herself all her life, living willfully, and has no regrets.
In the face of death, Kiki Shirin is also free and calm. She said that when people die, they become cosmic dust, and she hopes that she will be a shining wisp of dust, flying beautifully in space.
Despite the great pain of this failed marriage, Kiki Shirin never chose to leave Yuya Uchida.
Because she knew that once this person was out of her sight, he would bring disaster to more innocent people. So she chose to suffer and refused to let go.
It is an almost masochistic love, even if it is let down and hurt, it will not hesitate.
When Kiki Shirin was diagnosed with cancer in her later years, what she needed most at this moment was a shoulder to lean on.
A miracle happened, and Yuya Uchida, who was originally indifferent, returned to her side and began to visit and take care of her frequently. Perhaps out of guilt, or perhaps out of the last bit of attachment to love, they briefly regained the warmth of husband and wife.
In 2016, Kiki Shirin was a lively and cute photo shoot in a magazine interview**, and she joked to the photographer "You can take a posthumous photo for me".
When everyone thought she would**, a year later, Kiki Shirin still passed away so suddenly, just as suddenly as she came. She left with the last bit of attachment to this marriage, with those indelible pains and sweetness.
In the days after Kiki Shirin left, Yuya Uchida worked and lived alone as usual. Occasionally, when he is alone in the memories of the past, he can't help but regret and blame himself for what he has done.
He wondered if the marriage would have gone to another end if he had been less willful and violent. There will be no ifs in life, and the mistakes of the past cannot be remedied, and he can only think about this love-hate woman for the rest of his life.
And Shu Shirin has used her life to achieve a kind of truth and infatuation that is different.