It was suddenly cold a few days ago, and it is said that the cold in many places broke through a ten-year record low!Many people also joked that Guangdong could not enter the winter, but they did not know that Guangdong did not enter the winter and went directly into the freezer, and saw a lot of shivering pedestrians on the road, and saw a lot of trembling colleagues at work, and the first greeting was basically "cold or not?"."It's so cold!”
This kind of severe cold weather, such as the elderly or critically ill people at home, we must pay great attention, the cold is the life-killing knife of the elderly and the sick, and many elderly and critically ill people are difficult to survive.
The night before, the old father in the countryside suddenly called, and his heart was inexplicably nervous. After all, my father rarely takes the initiative to give me **, and I am lazy - of course, it may also be due to no topic, or it may be due to the generation gap between the two generations caused by the stereotyped father-son relationship that has lasted for decades. And the father who stayed in the mountain village is over 80 years old this year, and his mother has a mental disorder. In the past two years, my father's physical condition has obviously deteriorated greatly, and he looks powerless. So I always have a lot of worries, but I have to wander in a foreign land to make a living, and I really can't help myself!I believe that many people who are children but have to leave their homeland will have this kind of helplessness!The so-called is, the sky is not afraid of the earth, and the most afraid of the parents suddenly coming**!
Fortunately, after talking to his father on the phone, he realized that there was nothing serious, but when he wanted to take a bath, the water heater couldn't start, and he didn't know how to do it, so he called ** to ask. I understood the situation, but I didn't understand, so I had to ask him to find a maintenance person in the countryside to see!
My hometown in the countryside is hundreds of kilometers away from me, and I have to walk a long and rugged mountain road, which is not a big holiday or special reason, and it is rare to go home in normal times!In the countryside now, the vast majority of young people have gone to the city or gone out, and these old people who stay in the countryside can generally only live a self-reliant and lonely life, when they are healthy, they plough the fields and grow vegetables during the day to raise livestock and poultry to maintain their lives, and guard the lonely villages at night, counting the loneliness and emptiness day after day. In their daily life, even if there are many difficult things, such as illness, sudden accidents, etc., they generally do not want to mention it to their children who are working hard, so as not to worry their children, and endure the hardships of life until the end of their lives. My father is such a person, so he basically won't take the initiative to give me ** when it's not necessary!It's sad to think about!
This is my hometown, beautiful and poor!）
It is precisely because of my father's forbearance that I can't make up my mind to do some of the things I want to do, because I know that my father doesn't expect us to be by his side, but he wants us to have a happy life!And what I've wanted to do most over the years is, as I said in the previous articleI want to leave everything behind and go into silence forever。Actually, what I wrote at the time was:I want to abandon my wife and daughter and live in seclusion in the mountains and forests。I was afraid that after my wife and daughter saw it, they would sweep me out of the house without me abandoning it, so I had to change it to a text to the same effect. Later, she also talked to Sihua, she understood, and only said: "You earn enough money for your children to study and live and your parents to support the elderly, you can go!.""Well, it seems that if you want to be an outcast, you really have to be blessed, otherwise there will be a lot of baggage that you can't shake off. A prince like Siddhartha is blessed with great fortune, and he doesn't have to worry about supporting his family, just decisively break that emotional dependence!Having said that, in fact, I also know that everyone comes to this world with a certain number of food and clothing, and there is no endless road, so this is not the main thing that affects me to do what I want to do, the biggest obstacle should be that I can't let go of my parents' hopes, my father's life, because of my mother's mental illness, not only to be a father and a mother to raise us, but also because of my mentally deranged mother from time to time scolded him and made it difficult for him, he lived too helplessly, It's too hard, and it's too desperate to live, and because of it, he committed suicide, if he hadn't been found crying loudly by his sister when he committed suicide, which involved his emotions, it is estimated that he would have decided to go!In the end, my father chose to survive because he saw that our siblings were still underage at that time!Therefore, I believe that the hope of a father is to see his children have a happier life!
And in the first half of my life, it can be said that I was a very disobedient son, but when I should study, I learned to steal chickens and dogs, when I should have done business, I learned to fight and kill and not do my job, and when I should manage my marriage and family well, I went to the wind and snow, and the flowers and grass ......Let my father and his family break their hearts, fortunately, they later learned traditional culture, and because they were learning Buddhism and practicing, they slowly corrected themselves and continued. So far, although nothing has been accomplished, at least it can be comforted by the father, and what I have reached is a picture of the prodigal son's return to the gold: there is a young and beautiful wife who knows etiquette and righteousness, a healthy and lovely child, a small career (even if the company is small and the efficiency is not good, it is considered an executive), and there is a house and a car......Isn't this kind of happy and peaceful life exactly what the world is pursuing?What more could you ask for?And I, what else do I want to do, I still want to be a god?Do you still want to learn Buddhism for liberation?This is obviously incomprehensible in the world, and even less incomprehensible to the father of traditional thinking!
I didn't have the courage to shatter my elderly father's hopes again, so I could only live with the flow of life. I also know that there are some karmas that can only be borne by the pastSome debts in the past world can only be paid off, otherwise they will not be completed in this life, and they can only be repaid twice in the next life, or even repaid in the next life. This kind of cognition of cause and effect, I am very grateful to us for giving us Dharma in easy-to-understand language, so that I can remember it and make a more rational choice, avoiding mistakes again and again. Master, it is indeed like a reborn parent!
Tai** said:"The food that the monks eat is a debt, and if you get it, you have to come back to support them. When you become a bodhisattva, look back, wow, I actually ate so many people's offerings, and it takes so many people to become a Buddha, and none of them are fuel-efficient lamps, you will regret it!If you are lazy in this life, you will have to wear fur and horns in the next life. ”