When I returned to my hometown after quitting my job, my biggest anxiety was social loneliness.
At the beginning of the year, I resigned and left Beijing, quickly packed my bags and returned to my hometown in the south, and I quickly became an "outlier" among my peers.
One is that there is no job but there is a freelance income, and the other is that there is no food in the gender market, and making friends is a problem.
When I went home, I was afraid that I would fall too far behind, and I would have no confidence if I didn't have money, so I took a lot of private work for myself
Set an income cap every month, and if your income is not up to standard at the end of the month, you will be so anxious that you can't sleep well all night.
In addition to the work volume, I also roll the lifestyle, take my social platform as an example, I can't see that this is a person who has returned to his hometown to live.
My lifestyle is very detached from the locals.
I can't stop going to the gym every week, I will set the plate seriously for breakfast, I often go to the coffee shop to bask in the sun, and occasionally I ask friends to go to Brunch, and I will also go to some bars.
Later, I tried to use social media to open up the local circle, but I soon found that this trick didn't work, and I couldn't find anything like it here.
The circle of old classmates is too traditional, and when I make an appointment for dinner, I will be pigeon at any time because of miscellaneous things at home.
The boy on the social software is too boring, regardless of the multi-stream of consciousness of the ** shooting, the temperament of the artist, and the difference, as long as he chats a few words, he is tired, why don't you know about these 800 years of stalks?
Especially since they don't have any books, audio-visual hobbies, and dating is also running to stabilize their relationship, they can't wait to meet immediately to get to the bottom of their families.
Jump out of the software to make friends, even if it is an offline gender market, I can't go up or down, and I'm very divided in the middle.
Because I am freelancing, I get the same income as the frontline, and the local 9-to-5 people will earn a lot less than me, but they also value a stable job.
Even if you have a little money, eighty percent of them are local second generations, or have studied abroad, I have no job, no house and no car, and I can't mix in the cycling group if I want to play a ride, so it is difficult to melt into the circle of rich people.
Due to the frequent social problems in my hometown, I hang up on the WeChat dialog box with my friends in Beijing every day.
The conversation is all about the current topics in Beijing, I can know when it snows, which day it is at home, and which one has laid off employees.
Originally, when I resigned, I imagined that I would take the income of the first line and live in the second line, which was both relaxed and leisurely;
As a result, I seemed to be in the second-tier land, and I was once again wrapped in the rhythm of the first-line land.
In the first half of the year, I often felt a sense of loneliness that "this place is not suitable for a long time", but now it is a little better.