I am Lin Mei, an ordinary housewife. My husband Li Kai, a businessman, is engaged in import and export. We've been married for ten years, and life is still passable.
Three months ago, Li Kai suddenly suffered a stroke and was paralyzed in bed, and I had to drop everything I was doing and take care of him at home full-time. During the day, I washed Li Kai, fed him, and wiped his body, but at night I had insomnia and couldn't sleep, guarding by the bedside.
Fortunately, Li Kai's business partner helped him take care of it, and the family didn't have to worry about money for the time being. I'm just physically and mentally exhausted, and I can't care about anything else.
Just a month ago, a new neighbor, Uncle Zhao, came next door. He is a middle-aged man in his fifties, with a slightly chubby build, gray hair, and a very kind person.
One morning, I pushed Li Kai to take a walk in the sun in the community as usual, and met Uncle Zhao. He greeted me warmly: "Girl, the new neighbor Zhao Moumou, please take care of me when we meet for the first time!."I nodded politely to him.
In the days that followed, I could see Uncle Zhao in the community from time to time. A few times, I happened to wait for the elevator together, and after saying hello, they were busy. Lao Zhao sometimes takes the initiative to help me press the elevator, and others are really kind.
I'm starting to look forward to meeting him by chance, which adds a little surprise to my monotonous life. Once, there were only me and Lao Zhao in the elevator, and he took the initiative to talk to me and introduced himself that he had retired, because his children were abroad, so he bought a house and lived in the city alone. I also briefly told him about Li Kai's condition. I found Lao Zhao really easy to get along with, and talking to him made me feel relaxed.
Chatting with Uncle Zhao made me, a person living in the shadow of my husband's illness, seem to see a glimmer of life. I began to meet frequently in parks and supermarkets, and chatted with Uncle Zhao for an hour or two. When I was with him, I felt like I was alive again.
One day, Lao Zhao asked me to go jogging in the park together. I didn't think about it, so I said yes, and I couldn't wait to change into my running shoes and come to the park. We were running and talking, and I hadn't exercised so vigorously in a long time. Tired of running, we rested on the park benches. Uncle Zhao looked at me and said in a serious tone: "Meizi, with you, I feel that I am more than ten years younger, and I seem to have returned to when I was young, and I can talk to the girl I like." I listened with a red face, my heart beating fast.
When I got home, I began to reflect on my relationship with Uncle Zhao. I know that frequent meetings and long conversations are beyond the scope of ordinary friends. I shouldn't let this feeling continue to grow, otherwise I'm sorry Li Kai. But the happiness when I was with Lao Zhao really reminded me of the taste of a happy life. What should I do?
After that, Lao Zhao and I started an underground relationship. During the day I was still that good and virtuous wife, taking care of my sick husband. In the evening, I secretly ran out and spent a short and exciting time with Lao Zhao. When I was with Lao Zhao, I felt that he was the perfect other half in my mind. He is considerate, attentive and generous. It is a world of difference from Li Kai's ten-year cold marriage. I know I shouldn't be like this, but every time I feel guilty, I still run to Lao Zhao's arms. This kind of irritant stimulation and passion is my poison, and I can't extricate myself.
After a few days, I finally met Lao Zhao again in the community. I excitedly went up and took his hand to apologize to him. Unexpectedly, Lao Zhao suddenly shook off my hand, and his face was ugly. I hurriedly asked him what was wrong, if he was still angry with me. Lao Zhao looked at me coldly and said, "Lin Mei, are you embarrassed to ask me?"You're having an affair with me behind your husband's back, and you want to continue to do it like crazy?You'd better stay away from me!I was desperate to hold on, saying that I really care about you, and I'm sad not to see you these days. I will definitely accompany you as long as I have time. Lao Zhao sneered: "I understand, in your heart, I am just an on-call venting object." Come to me when you need me, and abandon me when you don't, don't you?Lin Mei, I really misjudged you!After that, Lao Zhao left angrily.
And so I spent months in despair. Late one night, I suddenly received a strange **, on the other end of which was a little girl's cry: "Auntie, save my grandfather!".I hurriedly asked her what had happened, and she cried that her grandfather, Lao Zhao, had suddenly fainted and fell to the ground, covered in cold sweat and convulsions, and was in critical condition. I was so frightened that I hurriedly asked for the address and called a taxi to rush over. When I came to Lao Zhao's house, I saw that Lao Zhao had woken up with the help of the doctor. He lay on the bed with a pale face. The little girl next to me told me that her grandfather had a serious heart attack and had a sudden illness tonight. I was so distressed that I immediately decided to stay and take care of Lao Zhao.
After that, I began to move to Lao Zhao's house one after another to live with him, going back to take care of Li Kai during the day, and helping him rehabilitate, cook, and rub medicine at Lao Zhao's house at night. Lao Zhao's health is deteriorating, and I do my best to take care of all his daily life. I found that I really cared about Lao Zhao and was willing to give all my heart and soul to him. I don't bother with Li Kai anymore, so I just run at both ends.
Lao Zhao watched me busy before and after, and sometimes smiled bitterly: "Meizi, you're tired." In fact, you can completely choose your own happy life, and you don't need to take care of two patients in such a different place. I shook my head and said firmly: "Lao Zhao, I chose you, and I will be responsible for taking care of you until you **." Hearing me say this, Lao Zhao often has tears in his eyes. Lao Zhao was finally moved by me and agreed to stay with me. I can't wait to prepare for my cohabitation with Lao Zhao. I helped him find the best TCM specialist, and then made an appointment to the most advanced nursing home through connections. Lao Zhao's body has improved significantly under the best care and medicine. I've also started to prepare for the renovation of the house we live in together in the future. I sat across from Lao Zhao, and my mind was a mess. I couldn't believe that the person I loved was actually the executor of a plan of revenge, and I had been used and deceived by him for so long.
Why?I asked Lao Zhao with red eyes, "I have paid so much to you, but you have been calculating me, just to take revenge on Li Kai?"Is this how you love me?”
After that, I turned around and left, ready to pack up my things and move out of Lao Zhao's house. I don't want to see him again, this **!
The days that followed were terrible. I kept regretting my decision to sign the divorce, and I could have spent my old age with Li Kai in respect of each other. And now I have nothing, and I'm on my own. I hate Lao Zhao, and I hate myself.