Poverty, a cold word, was an inescapable shadow in my life. It was like a heavy mountain that weighed on my heart and left me with endless stress and pain.
In my childhood, because of poverty, I saw the gap between me and my classmates, and without good and correct guidance, I formed a psychology of vanity and inferiority.
When I was young, because of poverty, I felt that I was backward, the environment limited my vision and way of thinking, I lacked sufficient educational resources, my thinking was slow, and my ability to accept and understand new things was poor, which aggravated my inner lack of self-confidence.
In adulthood, because of poverty, I felt the difference between me and the world, often unbalanced, delusional to change my life, but I didn't have the courage to fight hard, material deprivation made me feel inferior, anxious, and even showed mental immaturity in interpersonal communication, this immaturity is reflected in my attitude towards problems, often self-righteous, unable to look at the facts objectively.
In life, cowardice, even if you wear the coat of self-confidence after growing up, it can be full of loopholes, and the self-confidence of deliberate practice is very weak. Selfish and ignorant, they put their own interests first, and their views of the world are defined only by their surroundings. Be cautious and careful, never take care of yourself first and then take care of the overall situation, always please others, always want to be recognized, care too much about other people's opinions, and live carefully.
In the relationship, it is easy to trust others, see yourself very lightly, can humbly beg for the charity and dependence of others' feelings, longing for emotions to be sustenance, wanting to redeem yourself by feelings early, being sensitive and suspicious of each other in the relationship, wanting to rely on and distrust, suffering from gains and losses.
But one day you will recognize these problems, and if you are willing to change, you will become a strong man, an invincible man, a person who can hurt you except yourself.
These dilemmas and challenges made me gradually realize my problems, and I began to reflect on my behavior and attitude, and strive to seek change. I learned to listen to others and respect different points of view, which broadened my horizons. I also began to study hard to improve my abilities and qualities to better adapt to the needs of society.
In the process, I came to realize that poverty is not a personal label for me, and it does not determine my destiny. I can change my destiny through my own efforts and struggles. This realization allowed me to gradually come out of my psychological predicament and start to face life's challenges positively.
Later, I decided to raise myself all over again, if there is only one life, I can't decide in the first half of my life, and I have the absolute power to change in the second half, maybe you still can't become a rich man, but in addition to money, you will find that you will have a confident and strong self, fearless and free from the shackles, and from then on life will become light.
I lacked knowledge of the world, so I began to watch a lot of documentaries, I couldn't find the answers, I began to read widely, I didn't have good expression skills, so I began to learn to speak, imitate him, cultivate myself to practice deliberately, form a complete logical link, I don't know too much etiquette, I began to make plans to learn and practice, through relevant books and ** continue to achieve myself. I found all the points where I was weak and had no self-confidence, wrote them in my plan, re-cultivated myself one by one, and persevered myself, that easy-going, calm, confident and generous look, everything became worthwhile.
The only thing is to face the seemingly destined fate, don't give up on yourself, don't go with the flow, you're just a little late, not impossible.
Remember, late ripening is a pearl covered with dust, brushed away from dust, just as radiant.