In 1963, Li Min, who had spent 14 years with his father, made a major decision: to leave Zhongnanhai. Behind this choice, Li Min's deep emotions and thoughts are hidden, and her thoughts are like a turbulent river, constantly looking back on the past years.
Back in 1949, Li Min at that time, accompanied by his aunt He Yi, left his mother He Zizhen and returned to the arms of his father. For ***, this is the first time in eight years to reunite with her daughter Jiaojiao, and the excitement in my heart can be imagined.
When Li Min recognized that the burly man in front of her was her father***, whom she had seen many times in the pictorial, she couldn't help but throw herself into his arms and called excitedly: "Dad! * hugged Li Min tightly, kissed her cheek, and whispered softly: "Jiaojiao, my little Jiaojiao."
Under the protection of ***, Li Min's life is full of happiness and warmth. They live together in Xiangshan Shuangqing Villa, and whenever night falls, ** will hold Li Min's hand, stroll on the path of the park, and share each other's joys, sorrows, and sorrows. He would ask Li Min about her life in the Soviet Union, learn about her mother, He Zizhen, and teach her to recite ancient poems to inherit the essence of Chinese culture.
Li Min also cherishes every moment she spent with her father. She often offered to play games with ***, and laughter echoed in every corner of the villa. Even when *** is busy with work, Li Min will come to interact with him, and *** will never blame her for this, but will play with her dotingly.
However, as time passed, Li Min's life gradually got on the right track. While enjoying her father's love, she also felt the strict requirements of *** for her. After going to school, ** insisted that she live in the school and take public transportation to and from school like ordinary children. Despite his busy schedule, he still finds time to have dinner with Li Min on weekends and cares about her studies and growth.
In the communication with Li Min, ** found that she was not very interested in liberal arts, and her language level needed to be improved. So, he decided to help her daughter improve her language skills. One summer vacation day, ** specially called Li Min, led her into the study, pointed to the room full of books and said: "Jiaowa, read more than 10,000 volumes, and write like a god." If you want to make a breakthrough in the language, you have to make up your mind, read one book at a time, read one book and then read another, and you will see your own progress. After speaking, he picked up a copy of "Journey to the West", told Li Min several interesting stories, and guided her to read "Dream of Red Mansions". Under the guidance and encouragement of her father, although Li Min felt a little difficult, she still firmly started her journey of reading world classics.
On a scorching summer day, Li Min spent time immersed in a sea of books. After the start of the school year, she was still keen to borrow books from school and continue to read deeply. Whenever *** walked into Li Min's room, he could always see her reading attentively, which made him feel very gratified.
With his father's company, Li Min is always excited, but he is busy with work, and Li Min can't help but miss him from time to time. On a sunny morning, Li Min accidentally fell during a physical education class, resulting in a fracture of her right leg. After a hospital examination, she was also diagnosed with acute hepatitis. For these two months, Li Min had to stay in the hospital to receive **.
During this time, many uncles, aunts and classmates came to visit Li Min, including the **Marshal, who was also hospitalized in the hospital at that time. **The marshal took into account that *** was busy with work, and Li Min was still young, so he took the initiative to accompany her, tell her stories, read poems, and spend happy times with her. However, despite the marshal by her side, what Li Min misses most in her heart is her father*** She longs to see her father, even if it is only for a short time. But she also understands that her father is busy with work, and the chances of coming to see her are slim.
Although *** did not visit Li Min in the hospital in person, his love for his daughter has never decreased. He often told the guards to bring Li Min food, toys and books, and asked her about the progress of her illness with concern. Whenever the guard reported to *** that Li Min's condition had improved, his tightly knit brow would stretch slightly.
At the same time, ** is also thinking about Li Min at home. In order to express his longing for his daughter, he once wrote a poem for Li Min. The poem is written with a brush on rice paper and is full of the father's deep love for his daughter. When Li Min received the poem, she was thrilled. Every word in the poem made her feel her father's kind smile and deep love. This poem is still treasured by Li Min at home and has become the most precious memory between her and her father.
Two months later, Li Min's body finally **. She couldn't wait to return home and throw herself into the arms of ***. Hold her tightly and say happily, "You're finally back, Daddy welcomes you!" Although he hadn't seen his father for two months, at that moment, Li Min was blessed like never before.
As Li Min grew up and started going to school, she spent less and less time with her father***. **Work is so busy that sometimes even weekend reunions become a luxury. Whenever this happens, Li Min has to return to school with a sense of loss, looking forward to the arrival of the next weekend. However, ** knows that his daughter misses him. On a sunny holiday, he suddenly appeared in front of Li Min's door and happily invited her to go out for a walk with him. Seeing that it was his father *** calling himself, Li Min was excited. She immediately ran to her father's side, walked out of the house with him hand in hand, and enjoyed a rare parent-child time.
As the children of great leaders, Li Min and Li Ne may be the lucky ones who enjoy glory and wealth in the eyes of outsiders, and live a carefree life. However, this is not the case, and they are no different from the children of ordinary families, and even inferior to them in some ways.
In the home of ***, privilege and enjoyment do not exist, let alone any sense of superiority. Here, hard work and thrift are the eternal theme, and it is the attitude of life that we always adhere to.
Once, someone brought some cocoa, coffee and milk powder to ***'s family. When the chef saw this, he thought about changing the taste of the children and improving their lives. However, a few days later, Li Min and Li Ne were called to their side by *** and said that they were going to hold a family life meeting.
After the children arrived, they asked the chef to report the accounts for those days. When it is found that the cost of food exceeds the prescribed standard per day, ** immediately becomes serious: "The food standard is as much as it is, and it must not be overspent at will." This is a matter of principle. ”
So, Li Min accepted ***'s criticism along with several other children and the chef. Since then, breakfast has returned to the original "three things": gruel, steamed buns, and small pickles. But Li Min has no complaints about this, she understands that this is her father's education for them.
As she grew older, it was time for Li Min to talk about marriage. When *** learned that his daughter was in love, although he was very happy, he was also worried. So, he called Li Min to his side and asked with concern: "Jiaowa, Dad knows that you are in love." I have always advocated that children should make their own decisions about their marriages, and adults should not interfere. But do you know anything about the boy's family? Who is his father? Working in**? ”
Faced with his father's question, Li Min was a little hesitant: "This ......."It's ......I really didn't ask, and he didn't say it. ”
Seeing her daughter like this, ** sighed softly: "Parents don't know who it is, how can you talk to someone casually?" It's still better to know more. ”
Li Min respects her father's words very much, and she knows that this is her father's love for her. So, she told her boyfriend Kong Linghua about these problems.
After understanding clearly, Li Min truthfully reported her boyfriend's family situation to ***. After listening, ** showed a satisfied smile: "It turns out that Xiao Kong's father is General Kong Congzhou, we are very familiar." Good, good. ”
Li Min was very happy to be recognized by his father. One day in July 1958, she took her boyfriend Kong Linghua back to Zhongnanhai to visit her father. **After seeing Kong Linghua, he looked at it carefully for a while, and then smiled at Li Min. Li Min knew that her father was very satisfied with her boyfriend.
With the acquiescence of ***, Li Min visited her mother He Zizhen during the winter vacation and revealed to her the news that she was in love. He Zizhen expressed his support after learning that *** was satisfied with Kong Linghua: "As long as your father agrees, I have no problem." ”
With the double affirmation of his parents, the marriage between Li Min and Kong Linghua was quickly put on the agenda. On August 29, 1959, ** hurried back from Lushan and personally officiated the wedding of his daughter Li Min and son-in-law Kong Linghua in Zhongnanhai.
For most people, this wedding may not be prominent, but in Li Min's heart, it is extremely grand. Not only because this is presided over by my father himself, but also because every detail, including the preparation of the wedding list, the preparation of the 400 yuan banquet, and the invitation of relatives and friends to the movie, are all handled by my father.
At the wedding, the ***, who is usually not good at drinking, frequently raised his glass, how could Li Min not remember this joy and pride?
After the wedding, ** sighed to the staff around him: "My daughter has grown up and got married." The staff felt the pride and a subtle sense of loss in ***'s words. Fortunately, Li Min chose to stay with his father after marriage, which undoubtedly brought a relief to ***'s heart.
Since then, whenever he hasn't seen Li Min for many days, he will take the initiative to visit his daughter and son-in-law. Every time they met, Li Min's face was filled with a happy smile.
In 1962, when *** learned that Li Min was pregnant, he was overjoyed and began to look forward to the arrival of a new life. In October, Li Min gave birth in the hospital, and due to his busy official duties, ** was unable to go in person, but he sent someone to keep an eye on him. When he learned that the mother and daughter were safe, ** nodded with relief: "It's good to be safe." ”
He lit a cigarette and looked out the window, his eyes slightly wet in the smoke. Recalling the scene when her daughter first came to her side, and now she has become a mother, how can this growth and transformation not make *** deeply excited?
Soon after, Li Min returned to Zhongnanhai with his son. **In his spare time, he often visits his daughter and grandson. Whenever the child is awake, he bends over and teases; When the child is asleep, he looks at it quietly.
However, this warmth and happiness did not last long. In 1963, after careful consideration, Li Min decided to leave Zhongnanhai. Facing her father, she said with tears in her eyes: "Dad, for the sake of your work and body, I think it's better for me to leave this home." ”
Hearing Li Min's decision, ** was stunned, and a trace of tears flashed in his eyes. He is nearly 70 years old and has a growing attachment to his children. Li Min has suffered a lot from snacks, and she is naturally reluctant to leave. But he also understands that his daughter has her own considerations and difficulties.
After a long time, ** sighed softly: "The palms and backs of the hands are full of meat." ”
Li Min knew his father's reluctance, and his heart was full of struggle. Her eyes were slightly red, and she held ***'s hand tightly: "Dad, we will come back to see you often." ”
Nodding his head, he instructed, "Live well and take care of yourself." ”
In 1963, Li Min's family moved out of Zhongnanhai, and a simple flatbed truck loaded with all their memories.
Soon after, He Minxue came to Beijing. This time, ** did not meet in person, but asked Li Min to visit on his behalf. Li Min told his uncle that he had moved out of Zhongnanhai, and He Minxue sighed: "You have lost your daily closeness to your father, who will take care of you in the future?" ”
Li Min was silent for a long time. She once thought that even if she moved out of Zhongnanhai, she would often go home to visit her father. But the reality is cruel, and the red wall has become an insurmountable gulf between their father and daughter. Although distance produces longing, longing is difficult to fill the gap of distance.
In September 1976, Li Min learned the news that *** was seriously ill, and his heart was like a knife. She immediately rushed to Zhongnanhai, and this time, she finally walked into ***'s bedroom. Seeing his father lying on the hospital bed, surrounded by medical equipment, Li Min burst into tears. She called softly, "Daddy." ”
**After opening his eyes slightly, he saw that it was Li Min, and held her hand tightly: "Jiaojiao, are you here?" Why don't you come and see me more? I miss you so much! ”
Hearing his father's thoughts, Li Min was heartbroken and silent. She just pressed her father's hand to her chest and expressed her thoughts with her actions.
** Asked again: "How old are you this year?" ”
39 too. "No, you're 38. "* Painstakingly corrected.
Li Min was teary-eyed, she knew that her father had always remembered her. After a moment, ** closed his eyes and let go of his hand. Li Min gently put his hand back into the quilt, looked at him affectionately, and left.
She didn't expect that this would be the last time she would see her father.
On September 9, 1976, ** passed away at the age of 83. Li Min was taken to Zhongnanhai, and when she saw that her father was covered with a white sheet and the medical equipment around her had been removed, she was grief-stricken and threw herself on her father and cried: "Dad, the baby has come to see you, open your eyes and look at me."
But no matter how much she called, her father, who loved her dearly, never opened his eyes again. After his death, Li Min followed the people to line up and came to his father's mourning hall to say his final goodbye to him.
Even years after ***'s death, Li Min still dreams of him from time to time. She once said: "Once, I dreamed that I saw my father at the Shuangqing Villa in Xiangshan, and he smiled lovingly and called me 'Jiaowa'. I woke up excited, but reality told me that it was just a dream and that my dad had left me forever.