I have experienced a week of mental torture, another week of illness, another week of business trips, and now this week is experiencing mental torture again.
For a week I seriously doubted that I was denying myself mainly due to work, but as a mom I had to live my life calmly and in a regular way.
One week I probably couldn't stand it mentally, my body had a serious low immunity, I had a fever one night, I drank six whole glasses of water, went to the toilet six times, I still continued to pick up and drop off my children during the day, one night I was cold, I couldn't sleep all night, my throat hurt during the day, but I had to continue to pick up my children to class. On the third night, I wanted to sleep well, I took a lot of medicine, I fell asleep in a daze, after a while I was dizzy and I felt like I was about to go to heaven, I thought of the sleeping child next to me, I forced myself to get up and vomited once, I knew that I had taken too much medicine, I cheekily gave my mother-in-law a **, because I could feel that if I went on like this, I would die suddenly, so we came to the hospital in the middle of the night to get a drip, injection, I didn't sleep that night, because it was uncomfortable, and my mother-in-law showed me an infusion, I think I'm embarrassed, too. On the fourth night, I was finally able to get some sleep, but it was accompanied by a violent cough. And the children at home also have infusions, so I stayed in the hospital for six days.
One week, after I was discharged from the hospital, I went to work, continued to be busy with trivial work, continued to supervise the children's homework after work, and took time to continue the housework, fortunately, I was finally able to sleep peacefully at night, working during the day, and the children's homework and housework at night. I also washed all the sheets and covers, and I wanted to say goodbye to my physical discomfort. The next is a business trip, I didn't want to go out for training, the leader said that he would dismiss if he didn't obey the arrangement, I had no choice, I went on a business trip for five days, and I was accompanied by headaches and dizziness, but I slept well at night and it was already very good, so it was quite stable.
Another week, I went home on a business trip, my husband came home to take the children in the past few days on a business trip, I also looked forward to a family reunion, I didn't expect me to be seriously stimulated again, I came home and saw that the floor was not mopped, the table was messy with garbage, the bathroom was unwashed socks, I also saw the child's clothes that had not been changed for five days, I felt very aggrieved, I recalled my husband, I wanted to know why, I asked him he didn't reply to me, I calculated that I called ** to him, his impatient tone, I endured, When the children fell asleep, I cried for a long, long time.
I continued to work during the day, trying to adapt to the rhythm of work, but the result was terrible, as a salesperson, my performance was not good, the pressure was very high, and I worked overtime every night, and the children at home were alone, I wanted to regain my strength, catch up at work, and continue my life step by step, but looking back on this month, I couldn't help but cry for a long, long time.
I failed in marriage, I failed at work, and my children's studies were average. I actually want to say goodbye to the present and live in a different way, but I can't bear to. I want to cry when I clean up the desk, and I want to cry when I help my kids with homework......
The tears are about to dry up, and I wish all these bad things would flow away with the tears.
Tomorrow the sun will still rise, I will still have to go to work, I will still have to take care of my children, but I pray that everything will be fine.