It was already dark when I walked back from the village last night. When you walk to the township, there are street lights, and the rest of the time it is dark, and the villages near and far are lit up, with the occasional neon-lit simple sign on the roadside. In some villages, there are people who set off fireworks, which are particularly brilliant on the black canopy, and can be seen from a long distance, and are many times more beautiful than in the city, as if you have made a picture a black background board, and each color is gorgeous.
When you get home, stop the car and call your parents as soon as possible, this process is something to keep in mind.
Otherwise, they will wait while worrying, and they will keep entangled: they want to call ** to ask if they forgot to tell them when they got home, and they are afraid that it will be unsafe to pick up ** while driving. Of course, I'm the same, if they are in the village and they don't pick up, I will also be anxious, and I will make up for 80,000 unexpected situations ......
One summer, my mother was at my brother's house, and my father stayed at home in the countryside by himself. The two of us continued to play ** while preparing to go home, just as we were about to leave, a neighbor uncle went to the vegetable field to find the father who was not doing farm work with **. It's really hard to express that feeling.
From now on, parents will pay special attention to holding the phone at all times, and we, as children, will also pay special attention not to miss the connection**. Some time ago, one day, I was almost nine o'clock in the evening, and I bought a particularly delicious baba orange in a fruit store, and I remember that my brother-in-law and niece were very fond of eating and bought two more copies, and called ** to call my brother to go home at the door of the community for a while. There are more daily WeChat contacts, rarely calling, and even less at night. My brother's reaction to receiving ** was: "I'm scared to death, I thought our parents were uncomfortable." ”
When people reach middle age, they have all kinds of fears that they dare not say. Just like "Voldemort", everyone was only deeply frightened and did not dare to mention it. These fears are often referred to as "unlucky" and the like, as if they are not mentioned and do not exist.
I arrived home a little after eight o'clock last night, and the one-and-a-half-hour journey took an hour and a half. There are few cars on the road, and it is very smooth. Hurry up and call ** back, the first time I was on the phone, the second time I was on the phone, and the third time I thought that my mother would hit my dad if I didn't answer again**. It was my dad who picked up my mom's **. Just now, an elder brother who is closer to the same village called ** to my mother, my third master is not good, let my mother go and see. said that he was going to dress the three masters.
My mind flashed home some time ago, it was raining lightly on a cold day, my mother and I went to the town to buy pancakes, and met the three masters who had just finished buying, he was thin and small in his eighties, and he just walked to his electric tricycle, with an old hat, and approved a piece of plastic sheeting, which could slightly block some rain, but fortunately, the rain was not heavy, and our village was not too far from the town. My mother said distressedly while greeting her, "I didn't see you coming to buy pancakes in the village, if you do, let's go together, look at it, it's still raining......”
I called my mother again in the morning, and my mother picked it up**, and I said: The third master is gone? My mother said: The third master is gone.
My mom has four older brothers and one sister, and three uncles have passed away in the past few years. Yesterday my mother said, "If you have time around fifteen, come back and come back with me to see your eldest uncle, aunt, second aunt, and third aunt."
Over the years, or because they have been bringing babies to their children, or the epidemic, or for various reasons, they have few opportunities to meet each other. My mother is the youngest in the family, and she has always been pampered by her brothers and sisters-in-law. I feel a lot of guilt.
After my third uncle passed away last year, I told my mother, "If only I had learned to drive earlier, I would have taken you to see your uncles more." My mother said, "People always have to have a lot of regrets, and this is something that can't be done." It's like you will have your difficulties, I will have mine, I want to replace all your difficulties, you want to replace all my difficulties, and no one can replace anyone, whose difficulties can only be endured by whom, no matter how close you are, it is useless. So don't be sad. ”
Many years ago, my grandfather and an older grandfather in the neighborhood, who were smoking cigarette pouches and basking in the sun next to the corn stalks at the base of the south wall, said, "Second uncle, do you think that if people are going to die, will they be uncomfortable?" My grandfather took a puff of his cigarette and pressed the end of the cigarette in the pot: "If it's good, can you still die?" ”
A long time ago, talking to my father, he said that he was afraid of cremation. Because what if, when a person looks dead, he actually feels it? It hurts.
A long time ago, I was afraid of the dark, afraid of ghosts in the night, my mother said: What is there to be afraid of ghosts, it has the ability not to die.
My aunt, my dad's eldest sister. Once I went to see her, she said: You see that the grandfather ** grandmother is gone, your grandfather (ranked second) grandmother is gone, and the old aunts are long gone, so there are still three grandfathers and three grandmothers left. Your grandparents' stubble is almost finished, and the next generation will be us, my boss, it will be my turn.
I was so afraid of death, of my own death, of their death.
I'm especially afraid that they are not afraid of death, and I am afraid that they are not afraid of death because they feel that they are too short to live.
I'm very afraid of death, so I really want everyone to live well, live a good life. At the beginning of the new year, we must all live vigorously.