My sister and I are twins, but my mother only likes my sister and doesn't like me.
Mom said that my sister has good grades and good personality, and she will definitely be able to marry a good family in the future and provide for her in the elderly.
And I'm good for nothing.
She spent a lot of money to buy luxury goods and brand-name cosmetics for her sister, but when I asked her for money to buy medicine, she said she had no money.
But she didn't know that that money might be my life-saving money.
My mom didn't like me since I was a kid.
I don't remember her smiling at me. But every time I see my sister, I will instantly become gentle.
She gave her sister a lot of pocket money every month, but what she gave me was barely enough to fill her stomach.
She buys her sister a princess dress, buys dolls, takes her to the playground, and takes her to the most exclusive restaurants.
And I, even my clothes are covered with dense patches.
When I was 15 years old, before the high school entrance examination, the school organized a unified physical examination for us.
After the medical examination, all the students left with the school bus, but I was the only one who was left behind.
They told me I was sick.
I knew that my mother would not pay for my treatment. So I used the money I had saved to ask the teacher to accompany me to the hospital for a check-up.
The teacher felt sorry for me and gave me a bottle of medicine money.
But just one bottle of medicine is only enough to take it for a few days. In the days I stopped taking the medication, my condition got worse and worse.
So for the first time, I put down my pride and begged my mother for money to buy medicine.
Predictably, she scoffed at my plea.
Jiang Yunci, you can't get my attention with this method. 」
I was dumbfounded.
How many times have I told you? Can't you be obedient? Do you have to think about these crooked ways? 」
I took out my medical records, but she didn't look at them and threw them at me.
But I'm really sick.
I tried to explain to her, grabbed her by the sleeve, knelt in front of her, and begged.
Please, Mom, I'll die if I don't have money for treatment. 」
But the disdain on my mother's face became more and more obvious, and in the end she didn't even want to look at me.
She turned her face sideways and looked at me condescendingly:
I've put up with you long enough, and if you continue to be so vexatious next time, don't want your monthly pocket money. 」
She ruthlessly shook off my hand, leaving me with an indifferent back.
I stumbled and fell to the ground.
Because of the doctor's treatment, I only have a few dollars left.
It's about to be the day of the monthly pocket money, and I need it, so I don't dare to go to my mother again.
I curled up alone in my shabby little bed, my heart aching slightly.
There was a sound of the door opening behind him, and it was Jiang Yunyi who came in.
As soon as she came in, she teased me: Yo, Jiang Yunci, I heard that you forced you to die in order to ask for money for your mother. 」
I didn't speak. Jiang Yunyi approached me and twisted my shoulders so that my face was facing hers.
She stroked **'s cheek with one hand and slowly brushed my eyebrows.
Poor worm, look at how hungry you've been all this time. 」
I still didn't speak, my eyes were not controlled to look at her, and my heart hurt more and more.
Syllable. She tossed a wad of money at her feet.
Come on, pick it up, pick it up and the money will be yours. 」
I didn't want my dignity to be thrown on the ground and trampled on, gritting my teeth and not picking it up.
But the pain in my heart gradually ate away at my reason, and fine beads of sweat from my forehead wet my hair.
With that money, I'll be able to get medical treatment.
Maybe I'll survive.
I give myself **, tell myself that life is more important.
After doing a good job of psychological construction, I endured the pain and wanted to reach for the money.
As soon as his hand stretched out, he was stepped on by Jiang Yunyi.
I couldn't help it, and I screamed in pain.
There was a sneer overhead, followed by a clear voice echoing through the empty room.
Over and over again.
Why don't you hurry up and die? 」
I didn't take that money.
Jiang Yun wanted to humiliate me with this, but he didn't want to give me that money.
My physical condition is getting worse and worse, and the high school entrance examination is approaching, and I don't have the strength to study anymore.
I started to get sleepy in class, didn't turn in my homework, and sometimes even skipped class.
My mother, sister, and classmates all scolded me, scolding me for not knowing the height of the sky, and not knowing how to study well at a young age.
Didn't she pretend to be a good student who studied hard before? Why don't you install it now. 」
I heard that she also slandered her sister before, saying that her sister stole her exam papers. 」
Oh my God, she can be so vicious with such an angelic face. 」
Don't you know? I heard that she had bullied girls in our grade before, and this news spread. 」
It's so explosive, she's actually this kind of person. 」
The gossip about me, whether true or not, spread throughout the school for a while.
Some of them spit on me, some threw stones at me, and some even stretched out their hands to push me.
The teacher who took me to the hospital last time also sensed that something was wrong and asked me to go for an appointment a few times, but only said a few kind words to comfort me.
But I don't need comfort, and I don't care about rumors.
After all, I'm almost a dead man.
I just want to do what I love for the rest of my days.
I simply gave up studying altogether and began to practice calligraphy wholeheartedly.
There was a classmate named Zhu Zhu in the class who was willing to be my friend, and it happened that her uncle was a calligraphy teacher who was willing to guide me.
He said I was making a lot of progress and was very talented.
It didn't take long for me to participate in a provincial calligraphy competition with my work.
I've loved calligraphy since I was in elementary school, but my mom didn't allow it.
She said that it was not a proper job, and it was not something that a student should learn.
For me, doing what I love is a luxury.
And this luxury, when the countdown to my life was approaching, came true.
During the days of waiting for the results, I was uneasy and apprehensive for several days, but fortunately, in the end, the results were good.
I won the prize, I won the first prize.
I suddenly felt a sense of relief. I thought to myself, it's better to die like this.
But when I was happy to read all the words on the screen, my smile froze on my face.
The winner is Jiang Yunyi.
There was a voice outside the door, it was Jiang Yunyi who came back from school.
Without hesitation, I pushed open the door and walked out.
In the midst of my excitement, I shoved her.
Jiang Yunyi didn't stand firm, and before he could say anything about scolding me, he fell and gnawed on the mud.
The mother next to me didn't think about it and slapped me.
I didn't care about the hot pain on my face, and pointed at Jiang Yunyi in a broken heart: Why are you robbing me of my award! 」
The only award that gave me some solace at the end of my life.
Jiang Yunyi ignored me. With tears in her eyes, she looked at her mother aggrievedly: Mom, look at her, she doesn't do her job all day long, and she is still jealous of others winning awards. 」
After that, she paused and added: That's what I worked hard to get after a long time. 」
I just felt that Jiang Yunyi in front of me was getting more and more noisy and annoying. I didn't listen to her hypocritical quibbles, pulled her by the collar, and questioned viciously
Why are you stealing my prize! Why are you stealing my prize! Why am I dying and you are still bullying me like this! 」
Jiang Yunyi was shaken uncomfortably by me, and his expression began to be hideous.
My mom came and forcibly broke my hand and slapped me again.
I touched my face with my hand and it was bleeding.
If you go crazy again, get out of this house! I don't have a vexatious daughter like you! Those who don't die every day don't learn well! 」
I stood quietly in the living room, and it took me a while to come to my senses.
Looking at Jiang Yunyi's triumphant eyes, I realized that I had been tricked.
How could anyone want to be my friend?
That day, I heard from people outside that Jiang Yunyi posted a circle of friends.
The accompanying text is The light boat has crossed the Ten Thousand Mountains and has got a new skill. 」
There is a ** with her red certificate at the bottom.
That certificate was red.
It reminds me of the redness in my palms after touching my face that day.
After that day, I locked myself in my room, never ate or drank water.
Two days passed, and no one came to me.
Even if I die, they won't know.
Sickness attacks from time to time. I thought to myself, I don't seem to have any desire to live now.
The world is so big, but I can't find my place.
Just when I felt that I was really about to die, Jiang Yunyi came.
She put the fragrant ** chicken on my bedside table and looked at me with a smile.
is like a good sister with deep brotherly affection, and there is no trace of the viciousness of the past.
Look at you, I haven't seen you for two days, and you've lost so much weight. 」
She ruffled my hair and scrutinized my face.
I didn't have the strength to open my eyes to her, and I didn't want to see her.
You're not like me anymore. Jiang Yunyi said.
The aroma of chicken was getting closer and closer to me, and Jiang Yunyi fed a small piece of chicken into my mouth.
But it was too late, and even the food couldn't keep me.
Eat more, you still have to take the high school entrance examination for me, and you will be more like me if you are fatter. What kind of dead man do you look like now? 」
Rao is that I don't have the strength anymore, and I can't help but open my eyes and give her a blank look.
I said in an angry voice, "No more." 」
I have a hunch that I won't survive the day of the high school entrance examination.
Jiang Yunyi was not angry, and still fed me spoonful by spoonful.
Heck, don't be so anxious to refuse. As long as you are willing to take the high school entrance examination for me, I will give you your last money, how about it? 」
Jiang Yunyi is really shameless.
With a little strength, I opened all my eyes, and through her eyes, through her rotten heart.
No more. I'll take it word by word.
Today is my birthday and Jiang Yunyi's birthday.
Although I have been fed by Jiang Yunyi recently, my spirit seems to be getting better and better.
But I still have a hunch that I won't be in this world for long.
When I go to sleep tonight, I'll probably never wake up again.
Maybe it's a return to the light, and today's spirit is particularly uplifting.
I got up and got out of bed and rummaged through the drawers, which still had dozens of dollars in them.
That's all the savings I have left.
I took the dozens of dollars and went out to the cake shop to buy a small cake.
I haven't eaten cake in years and can't remember what it tasted like.
Jiang Yunyi and I have the same birthday, and every year my mother will organize a birthday party for her with great fanfare.
The living room is covered with pink wallpaper, and the four big words Happy Birthday are hung on the wall, and the surrounding area is decorated with star lights and ribbons.
In the evening, the guests arrive one after another, and the house begins to liven up.
Jiang Yunyi's room was filled with all kinds of gifts, listening to blessings from all over the world.
She made a wish in love and applause, hoping that God would give her more gifts.
Gorgeous princess dress, bright lights hit her body.
At that moment, she seemed to be the center of the world, the protagonist of the world.
And I hid in the room, and the door opened a small crack.
In the crack where even the little finger can't be stretched into, like a flower on the side of the road, ** the happiness of others.
As a child, I used to wonder what I was doing wrong.
I thought about it for a long time and didn't figure it out, so I didn't want to.
Maybe I didn't do anything wrong, maybe I did something.