Gu Cheng looks at the world with the eyes of a child, while Haizi embraces the world with the heart of a child. "In this materialistic world, they tirelessly search for a haven for the soul and a utopia of their dreams. Gu Cheng took his wife to Waiheke Island in an attempt to build the ideal place he dreamed of, but in the end, the dream broke off and self-destructed, choosing a tragic end.
Haizi, the lonely poetic soul, used the words "Facing the Sea, Spring Blossoms" to paint a picture of an ideal life, simple and pure happiness touches people's hearts, as if the sea is his spiritual home. However, as a "son of the sea", he never really embraced the sea, but chose to end his life on the railroad tracks shortly after the poem was completed, and his death caused many people to grieve and wonder.
Haizi, whose real name is Zha Haisheng, was born in an ordinary farming family in Anhui Province, and the simplicity of his family and the sacrifices made by his parents for his education made him feel pressured and study harder. At the age of 15, he was admitted to the coveted law department of Peking University with excellent results, and became the pride of his family.
In that era, the poems of Shu Ting, Gu Cheng, Beidao and others were all the rage on campus, touching Haizi's heartstrings, and he also began to embark on the journey of poetry creation. In 1983, at the age of 19, Haizi graduated from Peking University and entered the editorial department of the University of Political Science and Law.
During his days at the University of Political Science and Law, Haizi met his first love, and the two knew and fell in love with each other because of poetry, but due to various obstacles in reality, this relationship finally ended without a problem. This experience has become an eternal regret in Haizi's heart, he has changed from a confident young talent to an inferiority complex and sensitive, and several successive love failures have made him feel lost and lost.
Haizi's heart longs for freedom and romance, but he is bound by the shackles of reality, and his heart is tormented and struggling in the conflict between the material world and the spiritual world. In 1989, shortly after he wrote "Facing the Sea, Spring Blossoms", he chose to end his life by lying on the rails and committing suicide at the age of 25. All he left behind was a book, a note, and endless confusion and incomprehension of the world.
Haizi's death caused a huge shock in the literary world, and people began to take a fresh look at the young poet, whose little-known works were widely praised after his death. Regarding his death, some people think that it was an emotional loss, while others see it as a martyr of poetry.
Maybe Haizi's choice is not so complicated, he may just be unable to bear the fragility of his heart and the harshness of reality, as well as the huge gap from the ideal life of "facing the sea and blooming in spring". His sensitive mind could not withstand a succession of blows, including career disappointment, emotional failure, and prolonged mental loneliness.
For Haizi's family, his death is irreparable trauma. They put all their hope and effort into the pride of this family, but they did not expect it to end in such a tragic way. His father even decided not to let the other children continue their education so that they would not repeat the mistakes of the past.
Haizi's departure freed him from this world full of contradictions and struggles, but what he left to the world was not only his touching poetry, but also a profound reflection on the meaning of life. His life and death are a reminder to pay attention to those souls who are struggling between the spiritual world and the real world, and to give them more understanding and support.