A few years ago, I learned that Chen Biqiu had died of illness in Zhouzi's ***, and I was embarrassed.
At that time, I had a herniated disc in my lumbar spine, and the pain was unbearable, and I could not sit for a long time, so I could only lie flat. Throughout the Spring Festival, because of nerve compression, I had a very depressed Spring Festival.
Today, my waist and legs are still painful, sitting in front of the computer, the pain level is bearable, while there are not many things just started, I will take a look at my thoughts and write some words to mourn this hard-working brother.
The first meeting with Chen Biqiu should be in late October 2011, at that time, the headquarters of Wugang Renwang was still on the edge of Songshan Lake, Gao Yuan stationmaster was full of ambition, the old spy was a popular fried chicken, the business of tofu and plum looked very beautiful, the tiles of Zhongnan were sold all over the country, and the listed companies were booming, Miaoyu operated pork belly chicken in Nanning, and the six princes often took the princess and Gege to the ......headlinesThe brothers and sisters are on the rise in their careers and are carefree. On that day, Gao Yuan asked us to ride Songshan Lake together, that is, on that day, I met Chen Biqiu brother of Wugang Forum and Wugang People Network for the first time. It was on this day that I learned that the Biqiu brothers' part-time life was as hard as mine: he worked as a warehouse manager in a factory in Chang'an, Dongguan, and I worked as a copywriter in a company in Futian, Shenzhen.
Like most netizens, everyone's image of Chen Biqiu is a brain supplement for all kinds of self-imagination: elegant middle-aged, full of economy, lotus tongue, pointing at the country and scolding Fang ......
As soon as I met offline, I found out that Chen Biqiu was a wooden little boy next door: not tall, not one meter seven, black and thin, dressed plainly, compared with the vertical and horizontal on the Internet, in reality, the Biqiu brothers are not good at words, and their words and deeds not only reveal restraint, but also have a trace of inferiority, which is also the real reason why he has not met with us netizens for many years.
Riding in Songshan Lake for a day, very tired and happy, that night I, Biqiu, Zhongnan three people slept in a room, that night we chatted very late, the topic has nothing to do with literature, not even a word related to literature, nothing more than the mutual understanding of their respective situations, lace anecdotes in life, etc., because Chen Biqiu is a little boring, Zhongnan and I intentionally or unintentionally tease him, asking him to open his heart to pick up girls, rather be a scumbag than a single dog Yunyun.
Perhaps Zhongnan's open-minded and even unscrupulous joking behavior with me touched him a little, and he slowly let go, and also catered to our topic, and from time to time he showed an unspoken smile. In the days that followed, he was noticeably more cheerful and interacted more with us.
Regarding the situation of the party that day, Chuang Piao made a post:
From 2006 to the end of 2013, Wugang people network because of the literature column attracted a large group of people who like to write words, but also let a few of our amateur part-time editors become hardcore friends, since the 2014 New Year's Day "these years, those things" after the publication of the collection, my own work has become more cumbersome and busy, so I recommended Chen Biqiu to the stationmaster and boss to be a full-time editor, just like that, Chen Biqiu became a full-time copyeditor of Wugang people's network, It wasn't until December 2016 that he was diagnosed with uremia, and then left his job in mid-2017 and returned home.
During Chen Biqiu's full-time editor, I can clearly see his changes, although his work is not very idle and his income is not particularly high, but his job is stable, and he can be regarded as worry-free, and he is doing the job he likes, and his mental state has improved, and he is no longer the previous thin, yellow-faced, listless image, plus later he has a girlfriend who can cook Wugang food, and his life is very fulfilling, and he has gained weight. In those days, we met at least once a week, talked freely about everything, and I was secretly happy about the change in my brother.
I don't know how he and his girlfriend met, but one morning, a female netizen ran to Shenzhen from out of town, from a netizen to his girlfriend, Chen Biqiu didn't have time to pick up people at the station, or another editor "Stupid Bird Flew First" to pick people up for him. After I heard about it, I joked with Chen Biqiu on QQ, saying that honest people do solid things, and they can do it in one step without making a sound.
Chen Biqiu was still a little confused about this matter, and asked me to help him come up with ideas, I forgot what specific things I talked to him about at that time, which basically means follow my heart and be together when I meet my eyes, otherwise don't get involved too deeply. I'm a more traditional person, although the joke is a bit scaled, but I am very cautious in the face of the relationship between men and women and marriage, so my idea is completely based on my personal worldview and outlook on life. There is another episode here, he showed my chat history with him to his girlfriend, and his girlfriend also sent me a message: Brother Yi, are you against me being with Chen Biqiu? It was quite embarrassing for me, but then they got together and we got acquainted, and we laughed it off.
In December 2015, I left Shenzhen and returned to Changsha, and I have not seen the Biqiu brothers since. In December 2016, when chatting with Biqiu on the Internet, I learned that he was sick, his creatinine was high, and he was diagnosed with uremia and needed to go to the hospital for dialysis every week. When I heard the news, I chuckled in my heart and secretly screamed that it was not good, but I still tried my best to comfort him, and even found an example around me to cheer him up: so-and-so suffered from uremia, adjusted his mentality, and was positive, almost 20 years have passed, and he is still alive. I didn't tell him that this person had changed the matching kidney source because of his good family conditions. At this moment, I can only encourage mentally, and I can't help other aspects, and I feel annoyed.
After Biqiu's illness, the group of old friends of Wugang People's Network also donated generously, and the boss of the company and the boss of the Wugang Chamber of Commerce also lent a helping hand. After Biqiu returned to Wugang, I often kept in touch with him, moral support only, suggested that he ** at the same time, but also engaged in his own hobbies, he listened to the suggestion, opened a calligraphy hobby *** but did not operate for long, it was gone.
In the past few years in Wugang, Biqiu must have spent time in loneliness and helplessness, and after he returned to Wugang, his girlfriend broke up with him immediately, which must have been a fatal blow to him. Once, when I was talking to him on the phone, he pretended to be relaxed: "This is no way, who wants to be with me, who is about to die?" Understandable. ”
Later, I couldn't contact him, I didn't answer the **, and I didn't reply to the message. On New Year's Day 2023, I got together with Zhouzi in Wugang, and I talked about Biqiu that day, and I also tried to contact him, but unfortunately I couldn't get in touch. I know that he has completely closed himself off and will no longer contact us, before the master Chen Biqiu on the Internet, Shenlong saw the beginning and the end, but we can still see his words occasionally on the Internet, and now he completely hides himself until he passes away quietly.
Looking back on the years of dating Biqiu, we were all working children for life, although we got acquainted because of our love of writing, but in real life we never discussed literature, and we talked about firewood, rice, oil, salt, sauce, vinegar and tea. Including interacting with other people, I have never been with others**How to write articles, how to polish works, writing is just the spice of my life, I don't make a living from writing, writing for me, is a way to let myself vent and relax, if I am still so demanding in this regard, isn't it too boring? Therefore, when chatting with friends, I basically laughed and scolded and seemed to be uninhibited, and what I presented was basically a positive state, and my private chicken feathers were basically not open to the public. Biqiu is very envious of my mentality, and has said to me more than once: First brother, envy your good attitude, carefree all day long.
It's a pity that my good attitude has not been maintained well in the past few years, and when I reach middle age, many unsatisfactory things follow one after another, and I once fell into a state of confusion, my life is a mess, and my external social interaction is also semi-closed. Therefore, since I didn't contact Chen Biqiu several times, I never took the initiative to contact him, I felt that my state was not good, and it was difficult to infect others; For his situation, he can only pray silently.
Over the years, I have also participated in the funerals of relatives and friends several times, and what I saw at the scene was basically the liver and intestines of the immediate family members who wept silently, and most of the people who ate the banquet regarded this as a party, and there was a troupe singing and dancing the night before the funeral. Birth, old age, sickness and death are stories for others, and a sigh of sadness is the greatest respect for the deceased.
Chen Biqiu, a master on the Internet, has now become a story among our acquaintances and friends; In reality, Zhou Xiaoming has escaped the torture of illness and died.
If there is a parallel world, I hope that the Zhou Xiaoming brothers will rise again in that world, be free of diseases and disasters, and live happily for a lifetime; If he travels to another world, I hope that Master Chen Biqiu will cultivate to become a big man, be happy in the rivers and lakes, and have no regrets in the world.