I was an ordinary woman, with a husband who loved me and a warm family. My name is Li Xue and I am a senior manager of a large enterprise. In my heart, career has always been the most important part of my life.
But as you move up the ranks, so does the pressure of work. In this highly competitive society, I gradually lost myself and neglected the warmth of my family.
My husband Wang Qiang and I have been married for eight years. He is a gentle and considerate man, and he always bears everything silently for the sake of his family. We used to live happily together, sharing each other's joys and sorrows. But as my career grew, so did the distance between us.
At work, I met a man who made my heart flutter, his name is Zhang Lei. He was a senior consultant to the company, intelligent, humorous, personable and always able to easily grab my attention. Our relationship began at work, but soon transcended the boundaries of the workplace.
I found myself having feelings for Zhang Lei that I shouldn't have, but I couldn't control myself. Every look he makes, every smile makes my heart skip a beat. By his side, I felt more fulfilled and more confident. He became a powerful attraction in my life, and I began to get lost in his world.
But behind this emotion lies great pain. Every time I come home and see my husband's lost eyes, my heart is filled with guilt and pain. I know, I betrayed him, I betrayed our marriage. However, I couldn't get rid of my infatuation with Zhang Lei, and I began to escape from reality, hoping that it was all just a dream.
But the time to wake up always comes. One night, when I was having dinner with Zhang Lei, I suddenly received a ** from my husband. His voice was unusually heavy, and I could feel the despair and pain in his heart. He asked me about a**, and I rambled on a lie, but he seemed to know everything.
Back home, I saw my husband's exhausted face, and I knew I couldn't run away from it anymore. He confronted me, asking me what I was doing out there and why I betrayed our marriage. I can't answer because I can't face the question myself.
My husband's eyes were full of disappointment and despair, and he told me that he could no longer bear such a hurt and that he was going to divorce me. My heart was torn apart in an instant, and I felt an indescribable despair and sadness. I couldn't believe that I had lost everything I held dear to me the most, just for an illusory emotion.
In the days that followed, our relationship became more and more strained. My husband started packing his belongings and he told me that he needed to leave this sad place and start his life all over again. I couldn't stop him, because I knew I was responsible for all this.
The divorce formalities were completed quickly, and I looked at my husband's back in the distance, and my heart was like a knife. I know that I have lost him forever, everything we once had together. I felt an indescribable sense of grief and remorse, and I began to regret my choice and betray the people I loved the most.
But life still has to go on. In the midst of loneliness and pain, I worked hard and tried to prove my worth. But that happy time will always remain in my heart, and it has become a painful memory that I cannot erase.
I've learned to cherish what's in front of me and I've learned not to give up easily. I know that my career is important, but my family is the most important part of my life. I hope that in the days to come, I will be able to make up for the mistakes I have made and regain my own happiness.