It was a silent and gloomy night, and I stood in front of the window, staring at the rain outside. The world outside the window seemed to be blurred by my choices, just like my perception of myself.
Once, I was a woman who was polished by life, a wife who cared for her family, and a kind mother. But the shadow of my first love quietly broke into my life, like a gust of wind, and swept me into an irreparable abyss.
My first love was a dream I had when I was young. In the passage of time, I thought that I had long forgotten that relationship I had had, but when he appeared in my life again, everything became out of control.
With a smile of vicissitudes, he said to me gently: "You are still so beautiful. "I feel like I'm back in the days when I was young and frivolous, and I was deeply moved by the memory of my first love. I fell into the tenderness of the past and gave up on the reality in front of me.
So, I abandoned my husband and children and eloped with my first love. During that time, I thought I had found the happiness I had lost for a long time, but fate inadvertently dropped a cruel bomb on me.
The emotions of my first love were not as strong as I thought. He began to grow cold and drift away from me. I was stunned and overwhelmed. What was once a passion has now turned into a fog, and I can't see my future clearly.
Finally, he left me, leaving behind a place of sadness and endless confusion. I am alone, in a foreign land, but my heart has long been drifting in the distance. I began to wonder if I had been running away from reality, from responsibility, from the home that once belonged to me.
Faced with the betrayal of my first love, I decided to go home. I understand that no matter what happened in the past, home will always be my warmest harbor. But when I came home and saw my husband's indifferent eyes and my child's innocent gaze, I really felt the mistakes I had made.
What did you come back for? The husband asked lightly, his eyes full of disdain and disappointment.
I know I'm wrong, but can you give me a chance? I choked up, tears blurring my eyes.
He sneered: "You still have to be shameless, and you dare to come back." ”
My heart was like a knife, and I realized in despair that I had lost everything. I used to think that my first love was the person I was destined to be, but now he has become a disaster in my life. I paid a heavy price for my impulsiveness and blindness, and reality ruthlessly revealed the truth to me.
When I was immersed in despair, my husband's words hit me in the heart like a heavy blow: "You brought it on yourself, don't blame anyone else." You want the freedom and passion, now you see, right? ”
I was speechless and could only silently accept this reality. I understand that I am reaping the consequences of my own choices. First love is not the end of my life, but a process that costs me.
Looking back, I reflect deeply on what I did. I learned the importance of responsibility and the preciousness of home. In this tortuous and painful experience, I learned the price of growing up and the value of cherishing the people in front of me.
Perhaps, this experience was a compulsory lesson in my life and brought me to wake up from my confusion. I am determined to be a new person, to make up for my mistakes with sincerity and hard work, and to create a new home.
Life will go on, and I will no longer run away from it, and I will no longer make rash decisions, because I understand that home is my truest destination.