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Early in the morning on my 40th birthday, my husband Cheng Xiang got up early and cooked me a bowl of longevity noodles.
While I was in a good mood, Cheng Xiang quietly asked me: Wife, can you take a day off today?
I asked him, what's the matter?
He said, "Isn't this a day of two-person life with me?" It just so happened that my daughter was going to school, and the daytime belonged to the two of us.
Looking at Cheng Xiang's expectant little eyes, I nodded shyly.
Then, the two of us tacitly divided the labor. He sent his daughter to school and I cleaned myself up at home.
Since Cheng Xiang said that he was going on a date and asked for leave, I also put on light makeup for myself. Cheng Xiang came back and saw it, and said happily: Sure enough, my wife is the most beautiful!
I gave him a blank look and said virtuous.
Cheng Xiang said, leave this day to him to arrange, let me listen to him obediently.
He first drove me to a place and said he was taking me to a place, and when he was about to arrive, he deliberately covered my eyes with an eyepatch so that I wouldn't peek.
It's so mysterious, I want to see what Cheng Xiang wants to do?
After a while, Cheng Xiang took me out of the car, and he took me by the hand and got on the elevator. Then the elevator stopped, and he gently led me out.
Next, I heard what looked like a key opening the door, and then I was led into a space by Cheng Xiang.
Immediately afterwards, Cheng Xiang said that he wanted to help me take off the blindfold and prepare me psychologically.
I didn't know what he was doing, but I was a little expectant and a little apprehensive.
Unexpectedly, when I opened my eyes and looked at the layout, I was standing in a living room. I'm wondering, are we a**?
Cheng Xiang said to me with a smile: Wife, happy birthday! This is my birthday present to you, do you like it?
As he spoke, he handed me a large red notebook. Seeing my ignorant appearance, Cheng Xiang said, open it and take a look.
It's a title deed with just my name on it.
My eyes were a little sore, and tears flowed uncontrollably.
Cheng Xiang took my hand and went to visit the room, he said: Wife, this house is only 72 square meters, a little small, I will work hard for a few more years to change to a big one.
I couldn't hold back any longer, and suddenly threw myself into Cheng Xiang's arms and cried.
God knows, what have we been through in the past few years?
When I married Cheng Xiang, I was 27 years old and he was 29 years old. At that time, the years were just right.
Cheng Xiang and I are childhood sweethearts, my mother and his mother are teachers in the same elementary school, and we both lived in the teacher's room on campus when we were children. Cheng Xiang and I are also familiar with each other.
At that time, I still called him brother. Cheng Xiang is a role model for all the children in the family home, because he has good academic performance and is sensible.
But unfortunately, we didn't have a spark at that time. It wasn't until the third year after I graduated from college that I broke up with my ex-boyfriend because of distance.
During that time, I was very decadent, my mother was not worried about me, and she often came to the provincial capital from my hometown to accompany me.
One day, when my mom came, I went to the station to pick her up. Aunt Zhou is with her, and Aunt Zhou is Cheng Xiang's mother.
Cheng Xiang also happened to drive over to pick up Aunt Zhou. It just so happened that everyone had met, and the two mothers suggested that we go to dinner together.
Later, Cheng Xiang and I learned that this was deliberately arranged by the two mothers.
Actually, before that, I hadn't seen the process for almost 15 years. His family later moved to the west of the city with his father's job, and his mother moved to another school to teach.
And my mom and his mom got in touch again when the son of a colleague of theirs got married. Then the two mothers talked about their single children and had the heart to match us. That's when we meet again.
To be honest, if it weren't for the presence of two mothers, I wouldn't have recognized Cheng Xiang even if I saw him.
I was originally Yan Kong, Cheng Xiang was white and clean, wearing a pair of glasses, and it looked like Yushu was in the wind, which was completely on my aesthetic point.
We have been in love for two years, although there is also a noisy relationship in the middle, but every time it is Cheng Xiang who compromises.
Two years later, at the urging of the two parents, Cheng Xiang and I received the certificate.
The house was a down payment paid by two parents together, and we paid the loan 1800 a month. We both have good jobs, good incomes, not much pressure, and good life.
At that time, the clothes and shoes I bought were one or two thousand, and I didn't feel sorry for the money. Cheng Xiang spoiled me again, saying that he made money just for me to spend.
At that time, he was in a good state-owned enterprise with a good income. The only thing I can't stand is that he needs to travel a lot on projects.
Fortunately, my mother-in-law and mother are very good. Cheng Xiang is not at home, and the two of them will make an appointment to come together from time to time to see me, take me shopping, and go out to play.
Even if my daughter was born, I didn't worry about it, and it was all brought up by my two mothers.
was spoiled by two mothers and loved by Cheng Xiang, and everyone said that I had a good life at that time. Even my sister said that my life was good, unlike her, my brother-in-law was busy with work and often traveled everywhere. What annoys her the most is the relationship between her mother-in-law and daughter-in-law, because her sister's mother-in-law is very strong and has to take care of everything.
Compared to my sister, my mother-in-law is really like a mother. My mother has a strong personality, and my mother-in-law is more gentle and has a good temperament. After marriage, my love for my mother-in-law is better than day by day.
The most important thing is that my mother-in-law doesn't have much to do, doesn't interfere with our small family, and asks Cheng Xiang to say to me that no matter what happens, we want to live together for the rest of our lives.
With my mother-in-law like this, I feel that I am really the happiest woman in the world. I thought that this kind of happiness could last forever.
Unexpectedly, at the age of 34, my life changed dramatically. First, my mother was diagnosed with lung cancer, and although we tried desperately to cure her, we took her to Beijing and Shanghai, but in the end we couldn't keep her.
Nearly a year after my mother died, my husband Cheng Xiang was clamoring to quit his job to do engineering, saying that he wanted to give me a better life. My in-laws and I did not approve of Cheng Xiang's resignation, but he insisted and had to follow him in the end.
In the end, Cheng Xiang finished the work, but the project party owed us money, and we owed others material costs and triangular debts.
The project party has no money to us, and we have no money to give to others, and we are being collected for debts every day. When my in-laws found out, they took out all their savings and gave us 500,000. It's just that this money is a drop in the bucket, and we still owe more than 1 million.
At that time, my house blocked the door every day, and they even went to my in-laws' house. One day, early in the morning, the debt collector went to his mother-in-law's house, and his father-in-law probably couldn't bear it, so he fell to the ground and never woke up.
After the father-in-law was gone, the mother-in-law also suffered a huge blow, and her health deteriorated day by day.
In order to repay the debt, Cheng Xiang also went to apply for a loan, and every month my salary arrived, and it was deducted by various loan repayments at once.
And Cheng Xiang was busy collecting debts everywhere, and he didn't have the heart to go to work, and I was the only one to make money to support my family, and the pressure was not ordinary.
In the past, I wore one or two thousand clothes. Now I have no money, so I can only go to the stall to buy three or four pieces of clothes, and shoes are also dozens of yuan.
My sister felt sorry for me and subsidized me from time to time to buy some good clothes for my daughter.
However, I can't drag my sister down all the time. I used to spend money from a point of view, but I not only learned to be budget-conscious, but also learned to cook by myself.
Before my mother died, I was the only one who couldn't do it, she thought I couldn't cook, I couldn't do housework. In the past, we used to hire part-time workers, or my mother and mother-in-law to help.
Now that my mother is gone, my mother-in-law is not in good health, and she has been recuperating in her hometown for a long time, so it would be good to take care of herself. And I learned to cook and cook cakes after work, in front of online tutorials, just to save money.
Cakes and small snacks are my daughter's favorite food. In the past, no matter how expensive it was, I was willing to buy it for her. Now, I have empty pockets and can only learn to do it myself in order to save money.
My daughter's training class, which could be stopped, was basically stopped, leaving only one of her favorite calligraphy and paintings.
But with thousands of tuition fees per year, I still have a headache. Once, my daughter's calligraphy and painting class had to pay again, and I cried when I saw that there were only a few hundred yuan left in the card.
The most important thing is that the poor couple mourned, and Cheng Xiang and I began to quarrel. At first, I blamed him, he didn't let him resign in the first place, he had to resign. Later, I thought what was the use of saying this?
I won't say anything. But it does not hinder the coldness of our feelings. I don't say it, it doesn't mean that I don't blame Cheng Xiang, I have a grudge against him.
I blame Cheng Xiang for dragging me into this big quagmire. I think I used to be the daughter of my mother in the palm of my hand, but now I have become a rough woman.
In order to live, I have to carry it desperately. Cheng Xiang has no income, so I will work hard to make money to support my family and pay off my debts. But the money is far from enough to spend, and he is driven to despair by debt collection.
I have been depressed for a long time, I cry at every turn, and after crying, I pretend that nothing happened, after all, I still have a daughter, and I have to not worry about my father and my sister.
My dad himself is not in good health, and my sister has her own housework, so I can only rely on myself.
When I was 37 years old, there was a period of time when I was under a lot of pressure at work, I felt a headache and a bad night, and I wanted to cry at every turn.
I thought there was something wrong with my body, and at the urging of my sister and mother-in-law, I went to the hospital.
Unexpectedly, all the tests that should have been done were done, and the doctor said that my heart and cervical spine were fine, and asked me to go to the psychiatric department for a look.
In the end, the diagnosis came out, and it was major depression. I knew I was a little depressed, but I didn't expect it to be so serious.
Even if the doctor prescribed me medicine, I still didn't give up, and I went back in the evening and found a few tests on the Internet to do it, and the results were the same, I was still severely depressed.
I know that I occasionally have thoughts of wanting to die, and I feel that life is not interesting at all. Because for me, opening my eyes and closing my eyes is to repay debts, which is a mountain that weighs on my and Cheng Xiang's hearts. I also know that I am about to lose it.
However, I still have my daughter, my mother-in-law and my father, my sister, and my husband, and I still have to think about them.
Yes, I'm so tired.
Knowing my situation, Cheng Xiang also panicked. He said that he was sorry for me in the past few years, and he was the one who dragged me down. He also felt very sad and powerless, and it was his mistake.
In the end, the two of us hugged our heads and cried.
Yes, I never thought that my fate would go to such a low point, and Cheng Xiang probably never thought about it. His life was smoother than mine.
It's just that after crying, we still have to face it.
Cheng Xiang said that he had inquired, and our house could be sold for 1.5 million, and there were still 1.3 million in debt. Why don't we sell the house first? Right now my illness is the most important thing, he used to be a bastard, didn't pay attention to my emotions, and blindly immersed himself in his own sadness.
After thinking about it, we really don't have any other way to repay our debts.
Luckily, when my daughter was one year old, my mom and my mother-in-law thought about it for us and contributed a part of the money to help us pay off the loan.
It's just that this house is sold, when will we be able to afford it?
But if you don't sell it, it's not a solution. In order to repay the debt, my dad also supported us with 200,000 yuan, and almost emptied the money he had on hand.
It's not what we want. We are both middle-aged, and we are not doing well, and we are implicating our parents, which is the last thing I can bear.
Cheng Xiang said, let me rest assured that he will work hard and will definitely buy me another suite.
Seeing his determined look, I said, I have faith in him. Actually, I knew very well that they were words of comfort to him, because I didn't dare to think about what the future would look like.
After all, at that time, I had been in the dark for a long time, and I couldn't see the light.
The house was sold quickly. On the day of the move, my daughter cried into tears, she was reluctant, and we were reluctant.
However, there was no debt, and Cheng Xiang and I were both relieved.
With my diagnosis report, I went to the unit to apply for half a year of leave. Cheng Xiang said that he was going to take me out.
During that time, he was not in a hurry to find a job, but took me to morning exercise every day. During the day, when my daughter went to school, he would drive me to the suburbs. When my daughter was on vacation, the two of them would accompany me to a slightly farther place.
I found that I could sleep better at night, and slowly the medication began to halve and the doctor said I was recovering well.
In this, Cheng Xiang's company is very important. He didn't know how to cook before, but he started to learn to cook for me, even if it was stumbling at the beginning, it wasn't very good, and it wasn't delicious, but it improved little by little.
Cheng Xiang also began to learn to do housework at home. He said that he had made me suffer before, and that every day from now on, he wanted me to live like a queen.
My mood became more and more stable, and when I could do without taking medicine, Cheng Xiang began to go out to work. In order to make money, he got a job in sales. No matter how tired he is, as long as he is at home, he will massage me every night and soak my feet with me.
Our love is slowly recovering. My mood is getting better little by little. Even my daughter said that I smiled more.
I didn't expect Cheng Xiang to give me such a big surprise on my 40th birthday.
I asked him about the money he came, and he said that in addition to the 80,000 yuan supported by my sister, the remaining 300,000 yuan was his salary and bonus in the past few years.
Cheng Xiang said, he understands, I have always felt that if you have a house, you will have a home. He used to owe me a debt to me, and from today onwards, he will listen to me, work hard, and try to make my daughter and me live a better life.
The past hardships also made him reflect on himself, and he also understood better what he was suitable for and what he was not suitable for. Thank you for not leaving!
The style of the new home is arranged according to my appearance, and Cheng Xiang said that there is also my sister's staff officer. I know they're all for my good.
That night, Cheng Xiang went to pick up his daughter from school early. I prepared a table of good food at home, and in addition to my birthday, I also celebrated our housewarming.
My sister's family, as well as my father, and my mother-in-law were all taken over by Cheng Xiang.
I have experienced darkness once, and I am grateful to my relatives for accompanying me and supporting me all the way. Without them, I wouldn't be where I am now.
Blowing out the candles, in everyone's anticipation, I may have made my own wishes:
May every day after the age of 40 be smooth! Family and friends are in good health!
May we all be safe and rejoicing!
Peace and joy!