I now write photography articles, study the people who appear in my **, study how they appear in my **, and study the mentality ...... the photographer
Recently, I began to think about ** photos, but it wasn't until I saw the Ming Room that I recalled that when I was a child, I didn't want to face my father's camera.
When I was a child, I didn't like people to shoot me. Especially my dad.
Actually, not many people have taken a picture of me**, in the current perspective, the elders take ** for their descendants, it seems to be a kind of pity, therefore, I refuse to let my family take a **, it seems puzzling.
In fact, even myself, when I recalled the scene where I was photographed facing the camera, with a sad face, just hoping for the best as soon as possible, and wishing that I could leave immediately as soon as I stood over, my first thought was also surprised: Why did I refuse to take pictures so much at that time? 」
However, when I think about my childhood mentality for a moment, I can still feel the disgust in my heart when I faced the camera at that time.
I could feel the mood of my childhood, and I couldn't help but feel a trace of joy, but after a while, a trace of sadness was born immediately.
Mostly, after hanging the lanterns here, when I go out at fifteen or sixteen, I go out with the crowd and go shopping for the lanterns together.
The way he bent forward or backward, shouting and laughing in the crowd that staggered away from him and walked around the road, embarrassed me.
There's nothing to take here! I thought to myself.
So I stood still until he was unhappy and said, "All right, let's go!" , I'm just leaving.
Later, when there was such a scene again, I ignored him and walked straight forward, although occasionally, when I saw him shouting from behind, I couldn't bear it, and I would go back to cooperate.
However, when he shoots me ** in the future, there will be fewer and fewer of them.
I'm considered a victory.
In fact, think about it, at that time, were cameras already more common? That should have been when I was three or four years old, '05 years ago.
At that time, my dad must have taken pictures with his mobile phone.
In any case, as a child, I was reluctant to conform to the person in front of other passers-by and make the posture he needed.
Oops, such a pose, stupid! I must have had such thoughts.
It can even be said that I don't want to be photographed by my father because in my eyes, he can't shoot .
I don't want to look stupid in front of the camera or in front of others.
Perhaps, it is the self-consciousness and then the shame.
But at the time, it wasn't just my dad who filmed me.
I flipped through the ** and found this one**.
I sat at the bottom of the yellow and red slide, my eyes narrowed with a smile.
The me in this ** is me in my aunt's lens.
I vividly remember that it was taken by my aunt. My dad remembers.
Actually, I wasn't really happy at that time, and I didn't know.
I can only say that at that time, I was willing to pose in front of my aunt, and I thought that I needed a ** posture at that time.
In fact, it is a psychological sense of conformity.
Now, though, my mind has changed a bit.
No one may want the subject to put on a sad face in front of them that refuses to cooperate, but, in my current eyes, the crying face is still a real state and deserves to be recorded.
So, this is also the reason why I like my ** before graduation, standing at the entrance of the kindergarten with my right hand behind my back and my left hand stupidly holding out a scissor hand.
The sense of obedience, intimacy, trust, no matter how fake the smile is, at least conveys this information.
Then, those disobedient ** should also show my shyness.
I don't want to show myself in front of people, I don't want to stand out from the crowd – my dad patted me at that time, and he always wanted me to stand taller.
What my dad did at that time was to forcefully manipulate my will.
I don't want to stand where I don't want to stand, and therefore, I don't want to be photographed by him.
Later, it gradually evolved: I don't want to be filmed by him.
My aunt wouldn't have taken me with her and suddenly said, "Hey, Shui'er, you stand there, I'll take a picture of you." 』
Of course, there are times when I feel that the situation here is not good, but I am still willing to cooperate.
Therefore, taking a photograph shows whether the subject is willing to obey the photographer, the subject's affection for the photographer, or psychological tendencies. - Whether I want to be photographed or not depends on this.
This is the person, I am the person, ** exposed this.
It's not that I don't want to be photographed, I'm just picking people.
However, is the act of taking pictures a process in itself, no matter who is photographed, to turn yourself into a non-self and hand yourself over? At the time, I probably didn't think of that.
We'll talk about that later.