On the morning of February 14, 1999, 28-year-old Xie Jin jumped from the balcony of his 23rd floor and ended his young life with the frightened gaze of his parents.
She is a high-profile diva in the music industry, but she chose to die by "suicide" at the peak of her career.
When she was dying, she said "I really regret it" to her mother, as if expressing regret for the final decision in her life.
Xie Jin is still at the peak of his life, why did he make the decision to end his life? What is the reason for this?
What does the word "regret" actually mean by her?
In 1994, Xie Jin went to Nanjing to participate in a campus tour.
Everything was supposed to go well, but on the eve of the show, it was unexpectedly discovered that there was something wrong with the acoustics.
This is simply bad news for Xie Jin, and the performance she has been preparing for many days may be completely ruined.
Xie Jin concluded that this was absolute evidence of deliberate acts by the staff.
On the spur of the moment, she couldn't help but slap the company executive to vent her inner anger.
The consequences of this slap cannot be ignored.
The executive's background was complicated, and Xie Jin not only apologized on the spot but was unsuccessful, but also received a "**" from the company
Her advertising endorsements and commercial performances were suddenly canceled, and no one cared about new songs, and her career fell into a trough.
In the tacit agreement in the circle, if an artist wants to perform smoothly, he must make certain "arrangements" for the local organizer.
Because Xie Jin may be too naïve and innocent to understand this potential behavior, he lost his words for a while, which led to such a disaster.
In any case, Xie Jin could no longer bear this sudden blow.
She was unwilling to waste years of hard work, but she couldn't do anything about it.
The blow was too heavy for a young man in his formative years, and Xie Jin's heart fell into unprecedented pain and confusion.
She gradually fell into a depressed and melancholy mood, hiding at home all day and refusing to go out, refusing to meet anyone.
Her mind was gradually eroded by depression, and she gradually had the idea of giving up everything and even committing suicide.
Fortunately, the invitation to her at the Spring Festival Gala a year later slightly alleviated her negative emotions and brought her a glimmer of hope.
Xie Jin sang again on the stage of the Spring Festival Gala in 1995.
In front of hundreds of millions of viewers, she expressed her firm heart with her singing.
However, Xie Jin was never able to regain his past fame and popularity after the Spring Festival Gala.
Her career was completely destroyed by that accident, and at the same time, it also left a scar in the depths of her soul that can never be erased.
Although Xie Jin had a chance to appear on stage on the Spring Festival Gala in 1995, the scars in her heart did not heal because of this.
The upward momentum of her career was stifled by that accident, and at the same time, it also caused her to have turmoil and doubts about her life.
Before Xie Jin became famous, he actually lived a life of strict discipline by his mother.
She developed a dependent personality because she needed her mother's permission to make friends and go out.
When her career was at a low point, she needed her mother's understanding and love even more, but her mother didn't seem to understand her anxiety and pain, and instead blamed her for the consequences of her reckless behavior.
This will inevitably make Xie Jin's situation even worse.
She began to feel that the world had abandoned her, and she could no longer find support to rely on.
She closed herself off and was no longer willing to face the harsh reality.
Friends and fans are trying to encourage her, hoping that she can get out of the slump.
She seems to turn a blind eye to the care of others, preoccupied with her own painful world, refusing to accept anyone's interference.
Under the constant erosion of depression, Xie Jin finally made the decision to end his life.
She went to the balcony on the 23rd floor alone, looked out at the world, then turned and jumped off, and her life at the age of 28 ended in early 1999.
When the parents found their daughter's body, they were devastated.
This sad news shocked and stunned everyone inside and outside the industry.
Everyone was puzzled, how could this energetic queen be in a desperate situation?
Looking at Xie Jin's growth process, we can find the voice of an ordinary girl who longs to be valued and understood.
Although she has excellent talents, she also carries the vulnerability of ordinary people.
She was eventually "swallowed up" by those vulnerabilities, causing her to choose the wrong direction at a crossroads in her life.
Xie Jin was born in 1971 in Tianjin, and her mother Yan Yongli is also an outstanding family.
Xie Jin's talent is rooted in her mother, and from the age of 4, she has been learning to sing with her mother.
Yan Yongli is an extremely professional and strict person, when she found that her daughter has the best talent, in addition to singing, she also encouraged her daughter to learn dance, piano, violin, etc., which can be described as an all-round training.
Xie Jin has shown great enthusiasm for ** since she was a child, and she always devotes herself to the tasks assigned by her mother.
At the age of 15, Xie Jin participated in an important singing competition and sang his mother's original song "Jincheng, the star of my heart".
With her beautiful voice and delicate expression of the emotions of the song, she managed to defeat thousands of competitors and finally won the title of runner-up.
Xie Jin successfully opened the door to becoming a singer because of this competition.
Since then, Sezin has been appearing as a singer in various performances.
Her mother was fully involved and took her around to take on performances and participate in the audition.
In the process of stage practice, Xie Jin's strength and popularity gradually increased, and she gradually grew from an unknown little girl to a well-known singer.
At the age of 19, Xie Jin participated in the large-scale "90 Asian Games" gala performance.
With her excellent singing skills and unique vocal charm, she opened perfectly with the song "The Light of the Asian Games", which became popular all over the country for a while, comparable to Mao Amin and Na Ying.
Since then, Xie Jin has officially become one of the representatives of powerful singers in the mainland.
Under the careful care of his mother, Xie Jin soon established his own place in the ** world.
She has participated in many important ** conferences, signed with Warner Records, and released solo ** one after another.
Her representative works include "Women Are Born to Dream" and "Don't Love Too Much", which made her popular all over the country.
In 1994, Xie Jin appeared on the CCTV stage and sang the program "Rap Face", a song that combines Peking Opera and pop elements, immediately caused a sensation across the country, and Xie Jin's popularity once again reached a new peak.
At that time, Xie Jin was in the prime of life.
She rose to prominence in the music industry, not only because of her young and beautiful appearance, but also because of her first-class voice and her hard-working attitude.
With her aura, popularity, and resources, she seems to have a bright future.
It was at this time that the trajectory of Xie Jin's fate was completely changed by an accident.
Her life began a low period because of this accident.
Xie Jin's fate changed drastically because of that slap.
The resources were cut off overnight, and the show was also suspended.
She has experienced a fall from the top to the bottom, falling into an unprecedented low.
In the 1995 Spring Festival Gala, although he finally appeared, he could not reverse the situation.
It was as gorgeous as fireworks, but in the end, it was just ashes.
Xie Jin's death reminds us that fame and fortune do not mean happiness.
Everyone's life deserves to be treated gently, and even just a kind reminder from a friend can change a person's fate.
May this flower find its own peace in heaven, even if it has bloomed and withered.
May the singing voice like the queen of heaven bloom forever in the sound of heaven.