When Zhen Huan left the palace, it was less than six days after giving birth, which was the weakest time for the mother. The wisdom of the ancients tells us that the four or six winds are the most susceptible to illness on the fourth and sixth days after giving birth, but medicine was not developed in that era, and for women, this was tantamount to a deadly threat. Although she has never given birth, Zhen Huan must have heard her mother and aunt in the palace talk about the importance of confinement. In such a dangerous situation, she chose to leave the palace and go to the harsh environment of Naganlu Temple.
Due to various reasons, Zhen Huan can no longer continue to live in the palace. There is also a bottom line for compromise, especially the unreasonable request made by the emperor in the end, which made Zhen Huan unbearable. The emperor once said, "As long as you draw a line with your father, I will still spoil you." At this time, Zhen Yuandao was framed by someone and almost killed by a rat in prison. Even when she was about to give birth, she felt helpless and humiliated, and she still had to kneel and beg the emperor to save her father's life.
When Zhen Huan risked death to give birth to a princess, she thought that the emperor would remember her meritorious service and forgive her father and family. However, after she gave birth, the emperor's first words were: "Concubine Guan, haven't you figured it out yet?" Now even the princess has been born. Don't be angry with me anymore. This made Zhen Huan's heart feel like a knife, and she couldn't help asking: "What does the emperor want the concubines to understand?" ”
The emperor slowly spoke: "Zhen Yuandao, you are Zhen Yuandao, and you, you are just you." As long as you promise me that you will no longer have anything to do with the Zhen family, I will give you the glory and wealth for the rest of your life. I will also make you a concubine, and I will pamper you as much as I did before. ”。Zhen Huan smiled faintly: "The emperor thinks that he can go back to the past?" ”
I can't betray my family and betray my family's honor; I can't stand being insulted again!. This is like letting me betray my parents who gave birth to me and raising me, and let me sell the honor of the family for the sake of glory and wealth, no matter how weak Zhen Huan is, it is impossible to draw a line with her parents, so what's the point? What qualifications do I have to live in this world? Moreover, since I mistakenly wore Empress Chunyuan's old clothes, the emperor has been insulting me, and those words are like a steel knife, piercing deep into my heart.
When I first saw you wearing Chunyuan's old clothes, the emperor rebuked me loudly without asking the reason: "How can you wear this clothes? Take it off for me! When the queen arrived and told me that this was Chunyuan's clothes, I instantly understood the meaning of the emperor's words just now: "What are you, and you are worthy of wearing Chunyuan's clothes?" You're just an impostor, how dare you pretend to be a **? What could be more humiliating and self-ashamed than being pointed at and scolded as a "defective product" and "fake"? I was stunned and couldn't accept it for a while.
When I was grounded to Broken Jade Xuan, I slowly recalled these words, and gradually sorted out my thoughts. The second time I was insulted, and the pain was stacked again. During my lockdown, I unexpectedly found out that I was pregnant, which was a blessing from heaven and gave me a chance to be born again. When I was seven or eight months pregnant, An Lingrong deliberately told me that my father was in prison for his crimes, trying to provoke me and kill me.
After hearing the news, I immediately went to the emperor and begged him to spare my father. Unexpectedly, the emperor once again threw the piece of paper with "Wanwan Zhiqing" written on it in my face. I explained that it was purely unintentional that I was wearing Chunyuan's old clothes by mistake. But the emperor did not allow me to defend himself, and said, "Yes, you are wrong! He simply did not understand the phrase "he who does not know is not guilty." He is not reasonable at all, and only wants to solve the problem simply and rudely.
In the depths of his heart, strong emotions or desires are like a torrent, and that is "reason". However, mourning is greater than the death of the heart, and the body has become a burden to "live". Now, she has given birth to the princess Haoyue, who is pregnant and light, and the emperor's eyes are no longer focused on the "dragon species" in her body. Zhen Huan felt that she had lost her reason to stay in the palace.
There is nothing more mournful than the death of the heart", this sentence stirred up a deep despair in her heart, and what could be more important than that? Now she seems to be in purgatory, life is better than death. Because the concubine's suicide would implicate her family, Zhen Huan did not dare to act rashly. However, she would never compromise with the arrogant and unreasonable emperor.
So, Zhen Huan immediately said: "No need, Emperor Xie has a good intention, and the concubines can't afford it." The concubine is the daughter of a criminal minister, how can she deserve to have the emperor's favor again? She left the palace angrily regardless of her physical condition. Although her respect for life is still strong, in this great pain and struggle, Zhen Huan chooses to take her fate into her own hands. She puts her life first and firmly believes in her decisions. This is both a rebellion against one's own fate and an unyielding response to reality.