In the sea of people, coming and going, everyone is busy with their own things, I haven't seen a smile on my face for a long time, everyone seems to be in a hurry, and it seems that they are all looking at their mobile phones. has experienced too many divisions and combinations, and it is originally a person who walks away from tea and cool, and there is no need to care about the so-called gains and losses. Actually, I'm scared, some things need me to get through alone, because I don't know how long I can last, because persistence requires a kind of courage, I can't tell others about my predicament, today I called ** to a friend, I want to ask her how her job is now, whether she is happy, whether she is considering changing jobs, she told me that it is good, she has been in this industry for more than a year, I think she should also be promoted, she said yes, she said that she is about to get married, he said that the object has changed, it has long been divided, the object has no car and no house, The parents disagreed, and in the end they lost to reality, so no matter how much they loved each other, once they were separated, they couldn't go back.
Hearing this, I no longer had the idea of asking her to change jobs, because I knew very well that when I reached the age when I should get married, I would change jobs casually, not for her good, but for the sake of a stable life, which would give her the greatest protection.
I've been very nervous these days, I've been staring at my phone, because as long as you send me a message, you know that there is good news, I don't know how long I can last, I can only pray silently, society is a melting pot, he smoothed my edges and corners, I no longer fight about the so-called right and wrong, I no longer mind a lot of gains and losses, I only care about how I'm doing now, I drag my tired body every day, back to where I live, I will be thinking about what I got today, the world is in a hurry, In order to break a few taels of silver.
I believe in fate and allow all good things to happen and all bad things to happen, because there are some things I can't choose, and all I can choose is to control my emotions. Human life is actually very short. I know that my parents have no way to educate me in life, but if I have children, I want to tell them what detours can be avoided.
I repeat the same work every day, I don't dare to think too much, it seems that I am afraid that overwork will cause me to lose my hair severely, but this kind of repetitive work that seems to have no results also makes me tired, I am also thinking about whether this method is not good, I don't have too many thoughts, I just want to take every step well. I had a friend who was not high at the time when the capital chain was broken, and then he relied on borrowing online loans to live, and now the interest is rolling higher and higher, in fact, I am also very in debt, but I still lent him money, I said to him, as long as you survive the days of debt collection, maybe they will only let you repay the principal at that time, he said that my circle is here, I am willing to do it, I dare to do it, I want to be faced. Yes, people also need face, but face is so worthless.
I even have to calculate my next financial situation, what can I do, I don't dare to squander, I don't dare to spend money at will, the confidence of adults comes from economic strength. When I save enough money, I don't want to do this job anymore, I want to find a safe and stable job, I don't want to be a salesperson anymore, but I'm also thinking about whether my current state is because of debt, I have become like this, I don't have too many dreams, I go to and from work every day, I don't have my own hobbies, I feel unhappy, but the mentality is completely different, the current job is good, but I can't afford to consume, I can't afford to wait, It's stressful for a person in his thirties to still be a salesman, I also hope that I can spend more time on my family, in the other half, I've been thinking about what I can do in my 30s, I have always been very frugal at that time, because in the last job, my salary was 5000 yuan, no matter how I saved, I could save up to 4000 yuan a month, and 4000 yuan a year was 40,000 yuan, I have to admit that after experiencing some things, people quietly changed their character, from naïve to mature, From simple to complex. From straight to cautious, from heartless to defensive, time is changing, people are changing, and the simple and happy self can never go back.
I am crossing the most difficult catastrophe in this life, crossing the past is rebirth, not crossing the past is deserved, I know that only I can help myself in this catastrophe, joy and sorrow, others are difficult to understand. Always say don't be afraid, your efforts will not be unrewarded, in fact, every time you work hard to live, will be recorded in the fruits of time, day after day, year after year, in the salvage and precipitation of time, it will eventually become the gift you want to get, this process is to break the cocoon and be reborn.
Recently it is the Spring Festival, everyone is rushing home, it coincides with the highway because of the snow and ice, many vehicles can not go, a large number of people stay at the high-speed rail station, railway station, bus station, I can feel their anxious mood, compared to myself but a lot of luck, I only need to take a taxi for an hour or two to get home, when I was a child, my mother has not let me marry far away, I have always said, as long as I love each other, no matter how far I am not afraid, but today, it turns out that I will really worry about this sentence, you can take a plane with good economic conditions, The plane will arrive in an hour or two, and if you encounter a bad economy, you are willing to spend money? Not to mention taking a plane, even if it is a motor car or car, a person will have to pay hundreds of dollars, and the whole family will have to pay tens of thousands of yuan back and forth, which may cost several months of wages, so during the Spring Festival, I see joy and sorrow.