65-year-old Liu Xuehua has lived alone for 13 years, and the TV is on all day, which makes people distressed and helpless
On the screen, she is the focus of the power struggle in the court, and she is the tearful goddess in Qiong Yao's drama. But you know what? In real life, the joys and sorrows she experienced are far more real and cruel than any script.
Some people say that the emotional entanglements in Qiong Yao's drama are heart-wrenching enough, but Liu Xuehua's life is like a "super sadistic" script that no screenwriter is willing to write. The bumpy road of love makes people wonder: Is this the trick of fate? She is the noble and majestic queen mother in "The Legend of Zhen Huan", and she is also the scheming concubine in "Palace Lock Heart Jade". But these characters aside, she is just Liu Xuehua, a woman who has suffered a lot in life. 
During the ten years she lived alone, her home seemed to have become a never-ending television station. The sound of 24-hour television may be the only sound in this empty house that can bring a little bit of life to her. In the dead of night, do the dialogues, laughter, and cries in those TV dramas also accompany her and spend sleepless nights one after another? The queen mother in the play, the bitter heroine outside the play thinks that back then, Liu Xuehua emerged in the entertainment industry with "The Girl Cixi", at that time, she was full of youth and peerless. And Aunt Qiong Yao took a fancy to her unique temperament and included her in her "Qiong Yao Girl" team. 
In "Several Degrees of Sunset Red", her smile and smile touched the hearts of the audience. Qiong Yao's heroines are mostly gentle and weak, and they are ill-fated, while Liu Xuehua seems to have been born for these roles. Her eyes seem to be able to speak, and when she is in tears, she is touching and loving. 
Under the support of Qiong Yao, Liu Xuehua starred in many popular dramas such as "Smoke and Rain" and "Grass by the Green River" one after another, and became a well-deserved "Queen of Qiong Yao Drama". Her in-depth cooperation with Qiong Yao lasted for ten years, during which she set a brilliant record of serving as the heroine in 9 consecutive plays. 
However, drama is like life, but life is not as good as drama. Liu Xuehua has created countless classic roles on the screen, but her real life is full of ups and downs and bitterness. Her experience seems to be more tragic and bloody than any character in Qiong Yao's drama. 
Some people say that Liu Xuehua is the most representative "bitter heroine" in Qiong Yao's drama. But you know what? In real life, she is actually more like a tenacious "warrior". In the face of all the hardships of life, she never gave up on herself, nor did she bow to fate. Qiong Yao's bumpy love road: Liu Xuehua and Deng Yukun's love and hate are intertwined, when the siren of the ambulance pierces the night sky, Deng Yukun's life is like a residual candle in the wind, swaying and extinguished. At that moment, Liu Xuehua's heart seemed to be tightly choked by a cold hand, and it was so painful that he couldn't breathe. The man who had vowed to protect her for the rest of his life left her like this, and he didn't even have time to say goodbye. 
Recalling the beginning, the combination of Liu Xuehua and Deng Yukun has made many people fall through the glasses. One is a dignified beauty in Qiong Yao's drama, with eyes as affectionate as autumn water; One is Deng Yukun, who is not good-looking, and is even nicknamed "Beast". But love is never a good match in the eyes of outsiders, but the mutual attraction and fit of two hearts. 
Although Deng Yukun is 13 years older than Liu Xuehua, his maturity and meticulous care make Liu Xuehua feel the warmth that he has not seen for a long time. Their married life is happy and harmonious, and the outside world is just passing by the conversation. 
However, fate always plays tricks on people. Before Liu Xuehua met Deng Yukun, she had experienced an unforgettable love betrayal. That betrayal cost her child and womb, and it also made her deeply afraid and suspicious of love. But Deng Yukun's appearance was like a beam of light that illuminated her world and made her believe in the beauty of love again. 
It's just that this beauty is too short-lived, and Deng Yukun's death made Liu Xuehua fall into the abyss again. Not only does she have to endure the pain of losing her lover, but she also has to face all kinds of speculation and discussion from the outside world. Some people say that love is a big gamble in life, and Liu Xuehua can be said to have lost a lot in this gamble. But you know what? Before she met Deng Yukun, that unforgettable relationship made her so painful that she couldn't breathe.
At that time, Liu Xuehua was a bright star in Qiong Yao's drama, with a pair of big watery eyes, as if he could speak and hook people's souls. And Liu Dekai was also a "top-rated" student who was in the limelight at that time, with a prominent family background and talent. The two meet in the play, and emotions quietly grow in the day-to-day cooperation.
Their relationship developed in full swing for six years, and just when everyone thought that they would achieve positive results, fate played a cruel joke on Liu Xuehua. She was pregnant, and she thought it was the beginning of happiness, but she didn't expect it to be the prelude to a nightmare. Liu Dekai disappeared without a trace on the grounds of going abroad to film, and took 30 million from Liu Xuehua before leaving. When Liu Xuehua heard his news again, it was a notice of breakup. The news was like a bolt from the blue, leaving her in pain, the baby was gone, her uterus was removed, and she could no longer have a child of her own.
Just when she thought she would sink like this, Deng Yukun appeared. He is like a beam of light, illuminating Liu Xuehua's dark world and bringing her hope and warmth. Their love allowed Liu Xuehua to regain the courage and strength to live. However, fate played tricks on her again. Deng Yukun's accidental death made Liu Xuehua fall into endless pain again. She was 52 years old that year, and she lost her lover, as if she had lost the whole world.
But Liu Xuehua did not fall, she chose to be strong. She guarded the traces of her lover's existence and began her own life of solitude. Although there is still pain in her heart, she knows that life has to go on. In her own way, she interprets what it means to be bumpy and strong in love. Liu Xuehua on the screen: The secret of the lonely "otaku" life was revealed Until 3 years ago, when she stepped into that life variety show, we were able to get a glimpse of her real life - completely different from the glamorous on the screen, she is actually a deep "otaku".
Liu Xuehua's daily life is surprisingly simple. Having lived in Shanghai for more than a decade, she knows very little about the world outside her home. In the days when she is not filming, she would rather choose to be isolated from the world and hide in her own small world. Every day she went to bed early and woke up early, and the call with her sister became the warmest ritual in her life. Those trivial daily routines, inconsequential small talk, are a comfort to her soul.
But this kind of life also reveals a deep loneliness. Liu Xuehua derided herself as an "old man who lives alone", and what she fears most is that no one will know when she gets sick or falls. This loneliness is not her alone, but a common dilemma for many older people. TV has become the background sound of her life, as if this is the only way to dispel the endless loneliness.
However, what is even more shocking is that this independent and strong woman on the screen is actually a "life idiot" in life. She doesn't know how to use a cooktop, and her knowledge of some appliances is limited to the on/off key. She never took the family's pet dog out of the house because she was afraid of getting lost. Such Liu Xuehua is distressing and helpless.
In the show, Liu Xuehua's contact with young girls allows us to see another side of her. When the girl invited her to dinner, she was worried because she couldn't operate WeChat. In the end, she chose to contact the other party in the most primitive way. Such Liu Xuehua allows us to see the gap between the times and the helplessness in her heart.
But that's how she was, and she burst into tears of excitement when she successfully walked her dog for the first time. At that moment, we saw her joy and her strength. Liu Xuehua in life may not be perfect, but she works hard to live in her own way, so she deserves our respect and understanding.
What about you? Are you also silently sticking to your life in a corner? Let's cheer for Liu Xuehua together, and applaud everyone who works hard to live!