In 2005, Jay Chou's heart-wrenching song "Hair Like Snow" sowed the seeds of Chinese style in the hearts of countless young people with its melodious and lingering melody and Fang Wenshan's ancient and poetic lyrics.
And in the depths of the soul of this song, the image of "hair like snow" can be traced back to the great poet Lu You of the Song Dynasty in the poem "Hearing the Wind at Night and Feeling Huaifu Wu Ti".
What few people know is the touching description in the original poem: "Before the sick window, the hair is like snow; Alone at the sound of the wind in the night, I can't help but cry. ”
In a few words, it outlines a picture of the vicissitudes of life - after Lu You has been tempered by the world, his white hair is like frost and snow covering his temples, dragging his tired and sick body, looking back on his life in the terrible night breeze and the sound of the rain, the endless suffering, the uncontrollable unwillingness, and the lonely tears intertwined with iron and tenderness are all deeply moving.
In his early years, he knew that the world was difficult
On October 17, 1125, at the end of the seventh year of Emperor Xuanhe of the Song Dynasty, Lu You was born on a boat docked on the shore of the lake to take temporary refuge from the storm, lightning and thunder.
He was born in a big family, a scholarly family, a dazzling array of classics in the family, and his father once served as the deputy envoy of Jingxi Road, and ruled the world well.
At this moment, the northern Jin Ge Iron Horse is ready to go south, and the turmoil inside and outside the court is like a flat boat in the wind and rain. Two years later, the Jingkang Revolution was like a sharp blade, cutting the most tragic page in the long scroll of Chinese history, and the Northern Song Dynasty fell.
Lu You, who was born in the torrent of troubled times, has suffered from displacement since he was a child. "Helping the bed to walk out of Beijing", "I was born in troubled times, and I met the national disaster at the beginning". At a young age when he still had to rely on the bed to toddler, he had to flee the capital with his family and embark on the road of escape.
Wars are frequent, there is no fixed place to live, once the Jin soldiers raid, can only hide in the wilderness, and even often face the dilemma of not having enough to eat. This kind of life of eating and sleeping in the open and sleeping in the open air has carved a deep imprint in the depths of Lu You's young heart, making the anti-Jin restoration of the country his unswerving belief and persistent pursuit throughout his life.
In his childhood, Lu You often accompanied his uncle Lu Wei and listened to the impassioned stories of anti-gold. Recalling that when the Jin army approached Bianliang in Tokyo (now Kaifeng, Henan), Lu Wei, who was then the magistrate of Chenliu, was brave and fearless, swore to defend the city to the death, and successfully defended Chenliu after a bloody battle, but was dismissed from his official post due to the weak compromise of the lord and Song Huizong, and he was unwilling and resentful.
His uncle's unfinished ambitions and regrets were passed on to Lu You like a torch, inspiring his yearning for martial arts and loyalty to the country.
Under the influence of his uncle, Lu You has great ambitions and aspires to become a martial arts master and make contributions to his career, so as to realize his ideal ambition of serving the motherland and expelling foreign insults.
At the age of sixteen, Lu You stepped into the imperial examination hall in Lin'an for the first time, but this initial examination did not make him a gold list.
Nevertheless, for Lu You, who is in the prime of his youth, this is only a small attempt in his academic career, aiming to familiarize himself with the atmosphere of the examination room and motivate himself to further study and improve his knowledge.
Time flies, and three years later, the nineteen-year-old Lu You, who has become famous in the poetry world, has ambitions and is determined to make great achievements in this imperial examination. Unfortunately, fate made people, and he once again passed by Jidi.
If this failure is due to his own lack of knowledge, it is acceptable, but the fact is that the notorious Qin Hui is a hindrance. It must be known that two years ago, a generation of famous generals Yue Fei was tragically framed by Qin Hui and died in the Storm Pavilion.
Lu You once publicly expressed his regret over Yue Fei's untimely death and his indignation at Qin Hui's behavior, so he won Qin Hui's jealousy. Qin Hui, who leaned towards the government and the opposition, would never allow Lu You to make a name for himself through the imperial examination.
However, all these setbacks did not shake Lu You's unswerving determination to pursue fame. Ten years of sharpening a sword, when the twenty-nine-year-old Lu You was already famous, he once again embarked on the road of the imperial examination. At this time, due to his father's high position, Lu You was able to participate in the "lock hall test" specially set up for ** children according to the Enyin system.
Coincidentally, no book was written, and Qin Hui's figure appeared again on Lu You's imperial examination road. In this exam, Qin Hui's grandson Qin Xun was also one of the competitors. Qin Hui naturally would not tolerate his grandson being subservient to others.
Fortunately, the chief examiner, Chen Zhimao, was a brave and wise man, and after reviewing Lu You's answer sheets, he was amazed by his talent and resolutely decided to rank him at the top of the list, while Qin Xun was second to Lu You. In the subsequent Ministry of Rites exam, Lu You made persistent efforts and won the first place.
Faced with this result, Qin Hui was naturally furious.
In the subsequent palace test, Qin Hui, who leaned towards the government and the opposition, fanned the flames in front of the puppet emperor Song Gaozong, deliberately exaggerating the topic of Lu You's "keen to restore the Central Plains", and often discussed the plan to recover the lost territory with others.
At that time, the monarch Song Gaozong was satisfied with the comfortable life in a corner of the south of the Yangtze River, and was deeply tired of any remarks about the Northern Expedition and the restoration of the Central Plains, which was regarded as a trouble in his heart.
Therefore, under the wrath of thunder, Song Gaozong resolutely excluded Lu You from the imperial examination.
Lu You took the exam for the third time full of ambition, but once again failed to realize his great ambition to make a contribution, and his dream was shattered again.
Although the mountain league is here, it is difficult to trust the brocade book
Lu You, who has suffered repeated setbacks in the imperial examination room, has also had many twists and turns.
Attentive listeners may notice that during his ten years, from the age of 19 to 29, Lu You's name did not appear on the imperial examination list.
The absence during this period was not due to a lack of talent or ambition, but due to emotional entanglements that deeply bound the pace of his life.
Among them, the most regrettable lifelong emotional tie with Lu You is the unforgettable but unsatisfactory marriage with his cousin Tang Wan. In 1144 AD, the nineteen-year-old Lu You, who was in the prime of his youth, married his childhood sweetheart and cousin Tang Wan, who had no guesses.
At the beginning of the marriage, the two were like glue, and their affection was not diminished, but this fiery relationship seemed to be out of place in the eyes of Lu You's mother, who mistakenly thought that her daughter-in-law was behaving frivolously and contrary to women's morals.
In addition, the social atmosphere at that time was deeply shackled by the concept of "unfilial piety has three, and no queen is great", and the fact that Tang Wan did not have children for two years after marriage made her mother-in-law even dissatisfied.
As time went by, Lu You's mother's prejudice against Tang Wan became more and more serious, and finally forced Lu You to divorce his wife with strict feudal etiquette. Faced with the dilemma of loyalty and filial piety, although Lu You struggled painfully in his heart, he did not dare to disobey his mother's order after all, so he could only endure the pain and give up his beloved, write a letter of resignation and send Tang Wan back to his parents' home.
Soon after, Lu You married another Shu County Wang, and Tang Wan had no choice but to remarry Zhao Shicheng, a relative of the royal family. Since then, the two former couples have gone their separate ways, leaving behind a suffocating love tragedy.
In the warm spring breeze and warm sunshine, Lu You, who was over 30 years old and had not yet achieved fame, was full of resentment and unwillingness, so he chose to return to his hometown Shen Yuan to seek solace for his soul. Just as he wandered aimlessly in the garden, a couple came into view and walked slowly from the opposite side.
Lu You's heart was instantly deeply touched, and he recognized the familiar figure at a glance, it was Zhao Shicheng, Tang Wan's husband after remarriage. Tang Wan, who used to be smiling and graceful, now looks slender and thin, and he is no longer the same as when he spent time with him. When Tang Wan's gaze intersected with Lu You, her eyes flashed with tears, seven years passed, and when she met again, the good memories of the past came like a tide.
Before the flowers, it was a place where they complained to each other and paid affectionately; Now that we meet again, Tang Wan is already a good wife of others. Faced with the cruel reality of creation, Lu You couldn't help but let out a deep sigh, accompanied by a glass of bitter wine, and splashed ink on the mottled wall of Shen Yuan with sadness, inscribed the hand-me-down work "Hairpin Phoenix":
Red crisp hands, yellow silk wine, the city is full of spring palace wall willows;
The east wind is evil, the joy is thin, a sorrow, a few years away, wrong! Wrong! Wrong!
The red crisp and soft wattles that were held tightly in his hands in those years have long been separated from his own end of the world and have nothing to do with it. Although he was full of dissatisfaction with his mother's dismandarin duck splitting up, Lu You could only express his feelings through poetry, with "The concubines are expected to give birth to men, and the aunts will make grandchildren." This ambition is actually wasted, and the sentence "Thin life to slander" euphemistically expresses his helplessness and grievances.
This unexpected encounter was undoubtedly a heavy mental blow to Tang Wan, and soon after, she died of excessive depression.
Since then, Lu You's life has always been bound by this unforgettable emotion, even though he is a talented man and has countless beauties around him, no one can replace Tang Wan's position in his heart, that affectionate kindness, like an eternal imprint, accompanied him through every spring, autumn, winter and summer for the rest of his life.
Back then, thousands of miles were looking for the marquis
Under the double blow of frustration in love and bumpy career, 34-year-old Lu You was unwilling to be silent, resolutely recommended himself, and finally embarked on the road of officialdom through recommendation and served as the micro-post of the chief bookkeeper of Ningde County, Fuzhou.
At that time, his ambitions were unpaid, and his confidante had left, leaving behind a full of feelings for his family and country and endless melancholy.
It is just like washing away the miasma of yellow grass, after the vicissitudes of the world, he has long been accustomed to gains and losses", although Wu Si is not dyed with frost, but his state of mind seems to be full of wind and frost, and he understands the world.
A few years later, Lu You was transferred to Beijing as an official, and with the strong recommendation of his close friends, he finally ushered in the long-awaited opportunity to face the saint and express his heart to Song Gaozong. The grand ambition of recovering the lost land that is hidden deep in his heart, he urgently needs to come out one by one.
The future life knows the events of the year, and the tears splash the dragon bed, please go north. He spoke passionately, tears welling up in his eyes, and his passion was so strong that tears splashed down on the dragon's bed. Although he failed to directly participate in the battlefield of the Northern Expedition, his enthusiasm and firm belief finally found a stage for gradual infiltration.
When Song Xiaozong ascended the throne and changed his policy towards the Jin State, he first wronged Yue Fei's father and son Zhaoxue, and then reused Shi Hao, the main battle faction, as the right prime minister, and appointed Zhang Jun, a famous anti-Jin general, as a privy envoy, clearly expressing his resolute attitude of adhering to the War of Resistance.
In the face of such a clear stance on the main battle in the imperial court, Lu You immediately presented a concert and actively advocated the idea of the War of Resistance.
In addition, Lu You was also entrusted with the important task of serving as the editor of the Zhongshu Province and the Privy Council, responsible for drafting important letters involving military secrets. Being able to touch the core of the country's top secrets, for Lu You, the career ideal he pursued when he was young has finally been realized.
However, he has always been upright, and because of his outspokenness, he angered Song Xiaozong's favorite ministers Zeng Mo and Long Dayuan. These two people relied on the emperor's deep favor and were arrogant, but Xiaozong adopted a conniving attitude towards this.
The ministers dared to be angry but did not dare to speak, only Lu You was jealous and hateful and spoke out.
So Xiaozong was furious, demoted Lu You out of the capital and transferred him to Zhenjiang Mansion as a general judge.
Generate results. Subsequently, Song Xiaozong, who was determined to build a great prestige, decided to wave the Northern Expedition to resist the Jin soldiers. However, due to the lack of preparation for the war and the hasty response to the battle, the Northern Expedition was declared a defeat in just one month, and Song Xiaozong, who was originally determined in the main battle, began to waver and turned to a conservative strategy.
As a result, Lu You was dismissed from his official position for advocating the use of soldiers, and this budding talent once again brushed shoulders with his ambitions.
At this time, Lu You has entered the age of forty-two, and the unwillingness and regret in his heart are becoming stronger and stronger. He resolutely submitted a letter of recommendation to Wang Yan, the envoy of Sichuan Xuanfu, and bluntly said that although he was dying, he had nowhere to display his martial arts, which was really sad and lamentable.
By chance, just as Wang Yan was preparing to move to Chang'an, he invited Lu You to join the ranks of Nanzheng's army. Lu You, who is not confused for more than a year, suddenly got the opportunity to put pen to paper and swear to serve the country to the death, and his mood instantly turned from sad to happy, just like "looking for a marquis for thousands of miles back then, and a horse to Liangzhou".
Lu You quickly stepped up, traveled a long distance, and went straight to the Nanzheng battlefield. In those fiery years, although the 48-year-old was like snow, he seemed to have returned to his youth and vitality. He actively contributed ideas, personally participated in battles, and even single-handedly fought tigers, and was hailed as a hero of tiger fighting. This eight-month battlefield career has undoubtedly become the most glorious peak moment of Lu You's life.
Flying frost swept the face and pressed the fingers, and an inch of naked heart only served the country", he was like an eagle striking the sky, the fish flew to the shallow bottom, full of enthusiasm, and was determined to serve the country. However, the capitulation faction in the court was weak and incompetent, and soon issued an edict to recall Wang Yan and disband the staff, bringing the great cause of the Northern Expedition to an abrupt end.
Lu You, who was close to knowing the Mandate of Heaven, was also transferred to Chengdu, and once again lost the opportunity to make contributions.
The family sacrifice is not forgotten
has reached the year of knowing the destiny of heaven, and Lu You feels that his physical strength is not as good as before. After half a life, he knew in his heart that the ideal of serving the country in this life was gradually drifting away.
Although he cares about Li Min and always reminds himself that he cannot eat a vegetarian meal, it is difficult for his individual strength to compete with the torrent of the times after all. So, he chose to put it aside for the time being, pinning his love on the wine, and letting himself go out of his own way.
This move was just caught by political opponents, and they were punished on the grounds of "indulging in the things in the cup and behaving **", which eventually led to Lu You's dismissal and return to the field.
However, in the face of such a situation, Lu You took it calmly, and happily proclaimed himself "Fang Weng", and Fu Shiyun: "Who is looking for each other in front of the door, congratulations to me this year", in order to show the world that he is a person who is not confined to secular etiquette and is detached and free, which is the origin of Lu You's name "Lu Fang Weng".
Since then, Lu You has experienced ups and downs in his career in the sea, and the cycle of use and removal has not worn out his will. Although the years have ruthlessly increased his age, Lu You's fiery heart has never been extinguished.
In 1206 A.D., Lu You was 82 years old, and this old man, who had expressed his ambition with poetry, had long since retired to the countryside.
However, he did not extinguish the patriotic flame in his chest because of the precipitation of the years, and resolutely stepped forward again, openly supporting the leader of the main battle faction, Han Yanxuan, and supporting the Northern Expedition of Kaixi.
Although this move was misunderstood by the people of the time as a trend towards inflammation and almost tarnished his reputation for a lifetime, Lu You adhered to his beliefs and was fearless of people's words.
Unfortunately, due to poor preparations, the Kaixi Northern Expedition failed to fulfill its wishes and failed miserably. As a result, Lu You was put into the main battle camp, and suffered the punishment of "resignation", his official rank was reduced, and even his retirement was deprived.
That year, Lu You was 84 years old, like an old tree that had weathered and experienced vicissitudes, although its vitality still existed, it was difficult to hide the traces of time.
The magnificent picture of the Iron Horse Binghe can only be reproduced in the haze of his half-dream, half-awake, and the deafening roar of the horse's hooves and shouts of killing seem to echo only in the dream.
He faltered, set foot in Shen Garden for the last time, and with the love of his life, Tang Wan, who was haunted by his dreams, he issued a sad sigh of "I also believe that the beauty will eventually become the soil, and I can't bear the dream too quickly".
Time flies to 1210 A.D., when Lu You enters the twilight of eighty-five years old, the candle flame of life will be extinguished. On the sickbed, he wrote the "Shi'er" that has been praised through the ages with vigorous and powerful strokes
The dead Yuan knows that everything is empty, but the sorrow is not the same as Kyushu.
Wang Shi set the Central Plains Day in the north, and the family sacrifice did not forget to tell Naiweng. ”
Subsequently, with his endless attachment to the world and unfulfilled wishes, he bid farewell to the world he once loved deeply.
Lu You's life has never been hearty, and he is full of only deep regrets.
However, his ambition to regain the lost land, and his ideal pursuit galloping between the iron horse and the glacier, are like a golden stone oath engraved on the long scroll of history, through the baptism of wind and rain for a hundred years, and still shake the hearts of countless future generations.
Today, the land of China is already gentle and beautiful, prosperous and prosperous, but the spiritual heritage of Lu You is like an eternal beacon, illuminating the road to national rejuvenation and inspiring generations of Chinese sons and daughters to forge ahead.