My name is Wang Li, I am 35 years old this year, and I originally wanted to be single for the rest of my life, but to my surprise, I fell in love with the 45-year-old bangs.
Bangs is the owner of a company but divorced two years ago and is now single.
Despite the fact that bangs are 45 years old, he is well maintained and does not look old at all.
Maybe I lacked fatherly love since I was a child, so I don't like men of the same age and prefer mature men, I feel more attractive.
Bangs and I have been in a relationship for two years. We met in Sanya. I was in a bad mood at the time, so I went out to relax. It happened to be summer vacation, so there was no pressure. I flew to Sanya with a bag on my back.
Liu Hai was on a business trip and was also a person, I didn't expect us to stay in the same hotel.
One afternoon, we were drinking in the hotel lobby. When Bangs heard my accent, he took the initiative to chat with me. It turns out that we are all fellow villagers.
We had a good chat that day, because we are fellow countrymen, so there is no barrier to communication.
I had a great time talking to a strange man for the first time. I completely forgot that I was single and didn't care about the age of my bangs.
For the next few days, Liu Hai contacted me every day, we added WeChat to each other, and he called me to have breakfast together every morning.
I don't have any resistance to bangs at all. I'll listen to what he has to say. I think he's a very knowledgeable and charismatic person.
Bangs will patiently tell me what I am curious about and don't understand. I felt like he was like a big brother and gave me a very different feeling. I think he's a very warm person.
My job as a teacher is that I usually work with children and parents without complex emotional experiences.
After living for 35 years, I fell in love once. That was when I was in college, and my boyfriend was northerner. He was tall and strong, and he spoke magnetically. He can do anything. He said he would give me everything I wanted.
However, we are not doing as well as we should. After graduating from college, we broke up. He went to the first-tier cities for development, and I stayed in my hometown and became a primary school teacher.
Since then, I never wanted to fall in love again. I was in pain and couldn't get rid of my ex-boyfriend's love. I have always missed him and I can't forget him. However, he left me and started a new life. I heard from a classmate that he fell in love with someone else shortly after we broke up, and they soon moved in together.
My heart hurts. I can't forget the good times I had with him, he used to love me. I didn't expect him to change his mind so quickly and accept other girls.
I felt like my love had become cheap, I even doubted his feelings for me, he never loved me, otherwise it would not have been possible to forget me so quickly, I always blame myself, I feel like my life has become a joke.
No one walked into my heart, my experience, and didn't tell anyone around me.
I silently dusted this experience, which was also my first love, and I didn't want to mention it because I felt like it was a shame, I was abandoned by my ex-boyfriend, and I was afraid that others would laugh at me.
Time flies, but I didn't expect that when I was 35 years old, I fell in love with bangs, a man 10 years older than me, I loved it thoroughly, it can be said that I was desperate.
Bangs like me too. After all, I'm beautiful. I have the reserve and temperament of a female teacher. I'm 168 tall and fair-skinned. I have two beautiful dimples on my cheeks when I smile.
After the trip, the bangs were also busy and our relationship sublimated. He told me that he had been divorced for two years, that his relationship with his ex-wife had completely disappeared, and that his ex-wife had remarried.
I can also feel the loneliness of the bangs. Being single for two years must be hard. He said that he was busy with work all year round and never thought about finding a partner, nor did he think that he met me.
He said solemnly: "Wang Li, if you want, I will marry you." ”
My heart was pounding, I really didn't expect him to propose to me, he said I was a very nice girl and fell in love with me from the first sight.
I know I'm totally in love with him. I treasure every word and word he says. I listened with relish. I promised him and didn't care about his second marriage. I really wanted to be with him.
I thought he really loved me. On our last night in Sanya, we were together.
At around 11 o'clock that night, Liu Hai knocked on my hotel room and said, "Wang Li, can I stay tonight?" I really like you. ”
I nodded silently and said, "Okay." ”
He saw my sincerity and I understood his thoughts. We were together that night. He hugged me and kissed me incessantly. I'm also excited. A 45-year-old man finally opened his heart that had been sealed for many years.
That night, I forgot everything, my identity, my profession, my past, and I just wanted to be with bangs.
I fantasized about marrying him as soon as possible, becoming his wife, and having a lovely child for him.
The bangs also showed the charm of a mature man and completely conquered my heart and body.
I was in front of him, like a docile little sheep, completely incapable of resisting, because I loved him, so I didn't want to reject him, I didn't want to at all.
Love came so fast, it was really like a tornado, no one knew, and my heart went through stormy waves.
And the bangs became more and more calm, and he got my heart and body, as if he had become a person.
I could clearly sense his indifference, and I didn't pay much attention to it at the time, because I probably knew that men would fall asleep quickly after getting women, and they weren't so gentle and considerate before they got them.
The bangs too, didn't give me good comfort.
I'm 35 years old and I can't be as childish and coquettish as a little girl in my 20s.
We went back to the city where I worked, he continued to keep busy with him, and I went back to school and continued to be my teacher.
Maybe you don't believe it. After returning to normal life, Bangs didn't contact me for a week. Although we left WeChat, he didn't send me a word. I was so disappointed.
After my endless thoughts, I couldn't help but contact him first, and I asked him, "Are you okay?" ”
Five hours later, he replied to me with two words, "It's fine." ”
At that time my heart was cold, I hated myself, I knew that I loved the wrong person, and the bangs were just a play, saying that I was married just to get me quickly.
I felt guilty for my childishness, but I didn't expect that I would be tricked by an old man.
However, my heart was still strong, and even though the bangs were cold to my feelings, I was not affected very much.
It wasn't until my good deeds arrived on time that my heart was completely relieved. Never mind. I can also think of it as if nothing happened. I can also forget about bangs, even though I had a great time with him.
Today, my heart still aches faintly, however, I have let go, I forgive myself, when the night of indulgence is a beautiful encounter, even if it is romantic, I should let go, when nothing happened.
I took out my phone and found Liu Hai's WeChat. I sent him a message, "Bangs, no matter what you think, I don't blame you." I just blame me for loving you too much. I was naïve. Even if you lied to me, that's okay. I put it down. Good bye! ”
After sending this message, I deleted the bangs
There will never be such a person in my world again, I will no longer have love or hatred for him.
The night wind blew and swept across my face. It's cool, it's like getting slapped in the face. I don't know if it's cold or what. A pain ......